Irl Yan - Blog Posts

break my legs, put cigarettes to my flesh, bite me until I'm cover in wounds, paint Me black and blue, kick me, hit me, pull my hair, slap me, kill me too if you desire to, As long as it's you I'm fine with it, I love you so much my dear. Abuse me as you please, as long as I have your love and attention I will allow it.

Oh love is the death of me, I'm utterly obsessed with it and will spend all of eternity chasing after it. You know, I wasn't always like this. It's rather sad I became like this, so devoted to love to the point it drove me mad. I just wanted love for so long it drove me to the point of no return, it just was a longing, it was only a harmless feeling at first but the longer it went on the more it ate me alive until it turned me into what I am today. I only have the sincerest apologies to the people I've focused on, I never think, only focus on my own selfish ever consuming feelings. I only hope to get better, for my love to stop being like this and go back to it being the innocent thing that was, But it never will be. I would hope for forgiveness but I know I do not deserve it. May God strike me and help those who are unfortunately enough to be dear to me

OH GOD SOMEONE WANT ME, SOMEONE PLEASE NEED ME. TELL ME YOU WANT ME TELL ME YOU WANT ME TELL ME YOU WANT ME SAY THAT YOU NEED ME PLEASE JUST SOMEONE SAY THEY NEED ME OH GOD GOOD LORD JUST SAY IT! TELL ME I'M LOVED, TELL ME I AM NEEDED, TELL ME ANYTHING TO SHOW THAT I AM WANTED

Greetings and Merry Christmas to all you wondrous folks! I wish everyone in the Yan community a marvelous holiday and a wonderful new Year with their darlings!

Some folks say being unhealthy obsessed with a person and or idea is bad but I'm quite literally only a lad, ok? I'm only a lad

A board Based off of my dearest darling!

i wanna be a doll for you, a perfect little thing fit to be your companion. But we both know I am little more than a jester at the end of the day, something playing at class and grace. A fool who was born to be mocked and a clown who wishes to amuse you. I was born a fool and will die a fool but please let me be your fool. Every king needs a jester so please let me be yours

Call me whenever you please, lapdog, errand boy, butler, your dog, your servant, your little prince, your toy, your dearest punching bag. It doesn't matter. As long as you are looking at me and giving me your love and attention I can be whatever you want.

BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME

let me be your servant, let me pour your drink as you stroke my head. Let me feel useful to you, please I beg of you. But oh god don't just see me as just a servant and nothing more, let what I do be the labor of love that it is. That other fool couldn't see my actions for what they were, but I know you my love will see my efforts and reward them accordingly

when she/he/they talks to someone else

Oh! You want me? Oh Jeez... I WILL TELL YOU MY ADDRESS AND GIVE YOU ALL OF MY SOCIAL MEDIAS AND PUT UP A CAMERA IN MY OWN HOME FOR YOU!.... I'm a darling, PLEASE I'm begging.

bro im partially going insane in real time. im about to become one of those stupidass alpha males that get overly protective of their lovers and shit (except i dont have a lover but thats besides the point)

like highkey i am in desperate need to be possessive over somebody. i wanna latch onto someone like a damn leech and never let them go. i want to make sure that a person never needs anything else except for me. just me, me, me, me, me. pay attention to me

idk where these feelings really came from, but i guess after being abandoned (again) in my last relationship, a switch kinda went off in my brain and now i want to ensure im never left alone ever again

now i just want to make sure that a person doesnt love anyone else romantically except for me

i want to make sure my partner loves me and is as head over heels for me as i am for them

i want them to love me just as much as the day they fell for me

i want their love for me to be just as intense

like bro im already picturing myself physically grabbing my lover and holding them close to me so they cant get up to leave

i mean obviously he would have to get up eventually but bruh for the time being i need you With Me and i never want you going Anywhere Else except for right here . with me

me me me me me

me

these feelings are so intense im tearing up

even though im not upset or sad

fuck this is weird

Yandere in the I love you a shit ton and get easily jealous darling way.

(this is not a sign to start flirting. Especially if you're a non moot or an adult)

The silly guys in my head abandoned me in front with Amechan and Kangel. (Me and two fictives are front stuck) So please please please please don't unmut me if my content is different later.

Anyways... I WANT A NEW FP OMFG I CAN'T DEAL WITH MY MENTAL STATE I NEED SOMEONE TO OBSESS OVER. I NEED ATTENTION, I NEED AFFECTION, I NEED A DAMN DISTRACTION. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHH.

Looking for a crazy yandere girlfriend that wants to obssess over me and invade my personal life and really just consume me whole who is also into/okay with mtftm detrans kink. Ideally she's obsessed with me but only wants me to be a masculine man so she makes me conform to male gender roles. Maybe kind of weird and specific but it's what I need in my life. dm me if you're a bpd girlie that needs a new favorite man.

Maybe this is wildly specific but I want some crazy girl to become just wildly obsessed with me… but only if I’m a boy. I wanted to be a girl for a while, but if some manic, obsessive girl latched onto me and insisted I need to be her BOYfriend I would cave to her so quickly, I’d let her obsess over me and keep me in her basement and not let me talk to anyone else.

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