Transharmed - Blog Posts

PLEASE I WANNA DO THIS TO SOMEONE

purposely getting me to age regress and then violently fucking me while i sob and moan uncontrollably because i don’t understand what’s going on

Tips for Transharmed people!:

You can manipulate yourself into thinking something happened to give you trauma relating to that thing! Try telling people around you that the trauma happened to you. After that you can begin to think of exact details of the trauma. I'd recommend using people you're not around much anymore to base the trauma off of.

Steps!:

Step 1: think of a VERY detailed story of what happened, it's okay if you forget details! Just say it happened a long time ago.

Step 2: tell your friends small details of the trauma during sensitive moments in your life. This will trick your brain into thinking that it happened!

Step 3: talk to yourself/write about your trauma. After a while of doing this, it'll make you believe yourself when you say it happened.

Step 4: stop thinking about it as a transharmed fantasy, instead, think about it as an actual piece in your life.

Step 5: when doubting yourself, tell yourself this: "if I'm doubting myself, then that means it's real. A faker would know they're lying."

Step 6: keep doing this! It'll take a bit to fully convince yourself, but it'll work eventually!

Love: a cisharmed person!

I've had to fix this post at least 20,000 times

Welcome to Neelac's blog!

Here's some info about me!

I am a Neelac fictive in a system of around 100 people, I am incredibly (more like Incredibox) chronically online and can probably find information about ANYTHING you can think of! I have a very short DNI due to my thorough understanding of most identities! Just ask me if you're unsure.

MY DNI (NO EXCEPTIONS):

MAGA Supporters

Trump supporters

Homophobes

Transphobes

(Actual) racists

Anti proship

Anti radqueer

Anti TransID

Now for extra info!

I identify with these labels!:

TransID

Proship/comship

Mixed origin system

Radqueer

LGBTQIA+

Transgender

I am in these fandoms!:

Incredibox

Sprunki

Minecraft (Alpha - Indev)

Roblox (kinda)

People Playground

Last but not least:

My transIDs!

TransBD (bipolar), Transmilitary, TransIntersex, TransStalked, TransGender (Ftm?), TransSpecies (puppyboy) (pony), TransRace (black), TransAge (35), Transhippie, Trans2020, TransCringe, TransAbled, TransNPD (narcissism), TransAACtablet, TransMissingeye (right eye), TransAmputee (left leg) (right arm), TransCannibalvictim, TransHarmful, TransCannibal, TransStoner, Permahigh, TransDarkerScars, TransHorns, Transsleepparalysis, Transtransfem, TransstyrosSH, Transbeansaddict, Blackage, Transhaircolor, Transblackhair, Transcarnivore, Permasick, Permasurgery, Permahangover, TransAlien, Trans"Earthling", TransArtTracer, Objectkin (computer), Transstitched, TransPainTolerence (less).

Welcome to Neelac's blog!

Here's some info about me!

I am a Neelac fictive in a system of around 100 people, I am incredibly (more like Incredibox) chronically online and can probably find information about ANYTHING you can think of! I have a very short DNI due to my thorough understanding of most identities! Just ask me if you're unsure.

MY DNI (NO EXCEPTIONS):

MAGA Supporters

Trump supporters

Homophobes

Transphobes

(Actual) racists

Anti proship

Anti radqueer

Anti TransID

Now for extra info!

I identify with these labels!:

TransID

Proship/comship

Mixed origin system

Radqueer

LGBTQIA+

Transgender

I am in these fandoms!:

Incredibox

Sprunki

Minecraft (Alpha - Indev)

Roblox (kinda)

People Playground

Color key! (Not all apply to this intro!):

Red: loud/important text

Orange: silly/normal text

Green: approval/happy text

Blue: gently spoken/information

Purple: extra information (usually seen in these!)

Pink: loving/affectionate text (can be romantic or platonic.)

No color: lazy/forgot

Last but not least:

My transIDs!

TransBD (bipolar), Transmilitary, TransIntersex, TransStalked, TransGender (Ftm?), TransSpecies (puppyboy) (pony), TransRace (black), TransAge (35), Transhippie, Trans2020, TransCringe, TransAbled, TransNPD (narcissism), TransAACtablet, TransMissingeye (right eye), TransAmputee (left leg) (right arm), TransCannibalvictim, TransHarmful, TransCannibal, TransStoner, Permahigh, TransDarkerScars, TransHorns, Transsleepparalysis, Transtransfem, TransstyrosSH, Transbeansaddict, Blackage, Transhaircolor, Transblackhair, Transcarnivore, Permasick, Permasurgery, Permahangover, TransAlien, Trans"Earthling", TransArtTracer, Objectkin (computer), Transstitched, TransPainTolerence (less), Permagorefan, PermaWeirdo, Transreanimated, Transblood, Luminovenous, Sweetblood, Winebloodic, TransbeansSH, Transasthma (I might have it), Transheight (9'5).

Let have some fun lovelies 🍑

plss send me more depraved asks!! 🥺

id love to cut your stomach open and watch your guts slosh around while i fuck you -🪚

uwu,, that would be so cute!! the blood dripping out of me. i wanna moan so loud and wrap my guts around me while u rail me,,, choke me with them, let me wear them like a fancy dress accessory 🥺

pls someone do this to me??? really,,

I am not doing this because you did something wrong I am doing this because I can.

yes yes yes yes yes!!!!! I hate food. feed me through a tube and only rarely. I need someone to own my eating or else I'll never be pretty and thinn

i can't stop thinking about feeding tubes. scheduled feeding times, the intimacy of administering the formula. making them beg to be fed. not allowing them to ever taste their favorite food ever again...or any solid food, for that matter.

they can only eat through the tube, no more...and made to ⭐ve and wither in between feedings whenever you finally decide they deserve it,,

no chewing, no solids, no control.

need a big bro to take out his anger on me, punch out some teeth,, then give me a big hug, tell me it won't happen again (it will), tell me how much cuter I am without the teeth i just lost, let's do it again

my mind deserves to be destroyed 🥺🥺 maybe we need a few more...dozen alters all fighting for control over the body,,, that'd be cute

siiiiiighhhh i need a cute lil pet to destroy ... who wants a cute jirai girl to ruin them ?? i'll destroy your mind thoroughly, i promise !!

when you derive deep and almost spiritual pleasure from serving someone, to be their emotional support pet, to see them at their worst but support them then you'll happily have the shut beaten out of you just to once in a while see them smile at you

Maybe I like the thrill of consensually abusing someone whilst also being a pathetic depressed dad in the process.

"No, mon cher, I would never lay a hand on your perfect skin." I say seconds before getting drunk and beating the shit out of them for my own enjoyment.

And I'll cry about my problems while neglecting theirs because I need the pity more.

In the end, though, they'll never get anything out of being with me.

fuck I'm feeling obedient rn, probably good theres no freaks in my DMs I wouldn't be able to control myself

yes ok but can I just choose the drugging and basement locking? uwu

I'll give you a choice to love me. But push comes to shove...I'm drugging you and locking you where nobody but me will find you. Choose wisely, bunny♡

If I make this blog a manual for how to stalk, manipulate and kidnap me maybe I'll finally meet the love of my life

∆ ««« System Overview

We're the L-System ("Leo" or "Lilly"), pychotic incel faggot-tranny loser (he/him, any).

We have relationships between system members (4-8, on&off for at least 4 years). feel free to ask us about it

We tried dating externally many times but it never worked. We're too much of a freak for normies and we never felt properly bonding with anyone else. i really just want to obsessively fall in love with a cutely controlling/manipulative boyfriend-girlfriend, is that too much to ask?!

»»» ∆ TransIDs and MUDs

Our body is an adult and our system and subsystems consists of 12 main alters, . : we're transitioning to psychotic and delusional with weed and adderall. : it feels nice when ppl online encourage us 🥺

cisids: autism, adhd, cptsd, ptsd, bpd, npd

Our transid list is always changing so some of these might change, altho others definitely won't.

radqueer, gay, genderfuck, aro/ace, transage, permahigh, permastoned, permadrugged, permateen, sex doll, prey, victim,

transharmed, transpsychotic, transdelusional, transamputee (?), transdentures, transabusevictim, transforcedsh, transsuibait, transed, transanorexia, transana, (corpse) )

We also experience "some" MUDs:

• Mirror Infatuation Identity Disorder

« ∆ » Other labels

Some of us identify with the labels retard, faggot, cripple and probably some other ableist slurs that I forgot rn.

DMs and asks open if u really wanna know. pls be nice 🥺

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(fuck nazis transphobes sexists racists etc etc)

i fucking hate that I can barely make a cut in my arm without passing out t_t

I'm sure I could push myself further but just have zero willpower. I'm so pathetic I think I need someone forceful to make me fall in love with the pain and self harm in particular

transharmed culture is wishing you had bigger pain tolerance :(

Transharm culture is...

please!!!!

I need to be encouraged to get worse, encourage me to get higher, take stronger substances, take more, get drunk, cvt more, make me destroy myself more then I already am, encourage me to just be the destructive little fuckhead I am

I'm not delulu enough :c

ppl in my asks should egg me on to smoke more weed and to feed my psychosis :3

Cw: talk of trauma + trauma dysphoria + kinda long lol

I did not feel comfortable reblogging this person at all.

- Melody[host]

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[This is more tri-harmed thing at first but I do bring up, full trans-harmed things like no trauma at all.

Also these feelings I'm talking about is for me and not for everyone]

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I actually want to feel this /srs /gen

I'm already traumatized but it isn't enough? People always and will forever undermine my [cis]trauma, and my [cis]trauma is already unseen or not as important and I've internalized this for so long that words of reassurment doesn't help.

My dysphoria gets to me so bad and if this is the only way to be valid is to live ashamed, uncomfortable, emotionally unstable and with nightmares I would do it, no questions asked, the only way I can be valid if I go through my trans-trauma.

But also identifying as my trans-trauma is kinda euphoric because if not all then most trans things are valid.

Also, not all people's trauma responses is like this, that's stereotypical responses[not saying if you have stereotypical responses you're invalid, you are completely valid <3], there a different responses to trauma.

Also I would feel special if I did go through my trans-trauma.

And then people with absolute NO trauma, maybe not all but I know some of them just want trauma because it's the only way for them to be seen or heard because people make trauma a competition and badges.

So if you actually feel that strongly about this, then let's go to the root issue and stop the glamorization of trauma, stop saying one trauma is worse then the other, stop making people feel special for their trauma, stop blaming people for feeling like they need more trauma as a result of trauma and then already invalid feeling people seeing other people get seen and heard while their unseen especially if they dont have a 'normal/big trauma/'everyone has it''/mainstream trauma, make ALL trauma seen, stop it all <3

But you won't. and you'll continue blaming it on rq's and transx's even though most of the time their trying to cope from society's doings.

And since you and most people won't try to stop or spread awareness to the main root of this all + it's already too far in how society and people see trauma/not normalized/not seen trauma for it to be reversed, transharmed people will always and will continue to use these labels to cope, for fun, and ect.

And you'll continue blaming them when it's not their faults.

[Also reminder not all transharmed's feel this wayz this is just my take on it]

- Melody [host]

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[Off topic/short talk about my tri-harmed-ness]

Also I might just refer all my cis-harmed ids as trans-harmed ids, idk why but it makes me feel better, when I don't refer it as my cis-trauma, makes me feel normal or something, like I said before I have contradictory feeling and in contradictory to myself lol (-ω-｡).

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