Call it a utopian deviation but I do think Che was right when he said a revolutionary is guided by a great feeling of love, like I'm a Marxist because it's the only clear-sighted accurate framework for understanding the economic & political exercise of power but nobody dedicates their life to a 200-year struggle in the name of scientific insight, no one thoughtfully reasons their way to either end of a rifle, the reason I care enough to read and understand the conclusions of Marxism is because I have spent my entire life filled with an unquenchable outrage at the brutal injustice of life under capitalism and an unwavering conviction that the only decent thing to do is challenge it at every turn by any means necessary
I am a Marxist because it's the only effective path to socialism, but I have always been a socialist because the only alternative is to lie down and accept passive complicity in the suffering of billions