Tua - Blog Posts
Five's hair is being a pain in my asss because not matter how I look at it, it looks like shit 🤡
Omg finally seeing someone says this , I've always thought five would've probably got objectified into weapon by many people(like Reginald and people in commission) being treated as something for like destruction (aka murder which is destruction of families and communities) and having to do that constantly and having that happen is horrible but idk how accurate I am with this
want to talk about how 13 year old five loved the praise of the public as a child superhero but praise turned into objectification as the commission turned him into a weapon and he continued to be admired but for something he was forced into and hated doing
Does anyone have a problem when drawing a character and it looks weird because for some reason I keep on making five look like some sick Victorian child for some fucking reason and it clashes with my art style because the shading/rendering I do makes him looks like that like a lot ???
Like why does bro look like that 🤨
Never mind I've changed my mind and started to do this instead on Ibis paint (im still doing the painting but it'll be kinda half ass) and it's going well but I'm not sure on the outfit choices
It's all awkward at the moment but hopefully I can make it less awkward looking (Klaus is being a pain in my ass to pose*they all are but he's even more so...*)
Doing this again because I realize I wanted it to be week
You know , it would've been easier to write a happy ending rather having them commit suicide
Just show them having what they want, be able to be happy together and being able to live their lives without struggles like Reginald, commission, war and the apocalypse
Yes that would be a bit boring but it finally shows all of them getting their lives on the right track and being able to have a normal life
😐
This would be so adorable to see as an actual scene (◍•ᴗ•◍)
Imagine five babysitting Claire or one of Diego’s kids and was forced to play Just Dance but he’s actually extremely good at it and starts getting really competitive against the kids
And tbh this kinda thing stops me from watching the wholel show just because how I actively repulsed by it and it kinda makes me sad (Tʖ̯T) that creep thought that was a great idea and "let's make our underage actor kiss someone much older than him , oh wait he can't kiss her yet because he is sooo young.. I'll wait till he hits freshly 18 and then I can do this ᕙ(*•̀ᗜ•́*)ᕗ".... The fuck and maybe he did think this and maybe not and this just parody of that this was planned s3?... And I did get some info that he was 17 at the start of filming of s3, that would still be disgusting because then Aidan was still a minor and the fact they were planning this during that season
And I like to kinda make a correction but Aidan was 20 when it ended and when it started he was 19 but still fucking disturbing that when he auditioned for it, he was 13 .
And also sorry for the horrendous grammar mistakes I kinda did type this in kind of anger but mostly to express my opinion of the infamous disaster of a s4 and yes I'm still stuck on s1 and probably no will I watch the other ones and definitely fucking not will I watch s4 and that kiss scene alone makes me want crawl back into my skin and scratch my skin (not exaggerating that's how I feel when I cringe at something) and my god it's bad so yeah I will be staying far fuck away from that dumpster fire of a season and also pretty sure it's just drama for the sake of drama
Is it me but I find that five/Lila extremely creepy and also it's creepy both in the show and outside of the show with the actors.
Lila saw five when 13-19 and if ignored the 54-72 age mentality and that is extremely fucking creepy that she developed feelings for him, she saw him grow up and go through second puberty and it's not helping she only liked him as an escape from her life like that and 7 years... Nah best they stayed completely platonic
And also surprisingly this kinda applies to the actors and ritu watch aidan grow during the show up to freshly 18 /20 and the fucking creep decided that as soon as aidan turned 18 make him kiss someone who much older than him (not being rude to ritu , she was as much as a victim as aidan) and that they weren't properly trained to do this not even having intimacy director to properly do it and my god that is making me cringe so fucking hard and that ritu was 35 so there was a 17-15 age gap in the ages aidan to ritu
And what doesn't help is that most of all the actors were uncomfortable with it especially with ritu and aidan and you can literally tell by their body language and their facial expressions it just so disappointing and the fact before s4 dropped or was kinda in the making, ritu thought when they told the part that five and Lila kiss was a fucking joke..... This right here and I wish actors could actually talk about things that they don't like openly in a script , I don't mean out right hate bombing it and going on 4k rant about how much they hate the script but giving it constructive criticism to a degree and they probably have told family and or friends how much that they hated it
Is it me but I find that five/Lila extremely creepy and also it's creepy both in the show and outside of the show with the actors.
Lila saw five when 13-19 and if ignored the 54-72 age mentality and that is extremely fucking creepy that she developed feelings for him, she saw him grow up and go through second puberty and it's not helping she only liked him as an escape from her life like that and 7 years... Nah best they stayed completely platonic
And also surprisingly this kinda applies to the actors and ritu watch aidan grow during the show up to freshly 18 /20 and the fucking creep decided that as soon as aidan turned 18 make him kiss someone who much older than him (not being rude to ritu , she was as much as a victim as aidan) and that they weren't properly trained to do this not even having intimacy director to properly do it and my god that is making me cringe so fucking hard and that ritu was 35 so there was a 17-15 age gap in the ages aidan to ritu
And what doesn't help is that most of all the actors were uncomfortable with it especially with ritu and aidan and you can literally tell by their body language and their facial expressions it just so disappointing and the fact before s4 dropped or was kinda in the making, ritu thought when they told the part that five and Lila kiss was a fucking joke..... This right here and I wish actors could actually talk about things that they don't like openly in a script , I don't mean out right hate bombing it and going on 4k rant about how much they hate the script but giving it constructive criticism to a degree and they probably have told family and or friends how much that they hated it
I might take what has the highest votes(1st,2nd,3rd and 4th)then do it into another poll
I fucking hate the god dam ao3 app it is my biggest op rn omg, I hate it 😡😡😡 it just posted a fic I was working on twice and I can't unpost in ao3 because I would have to delete it and I don't want to delete it I'm so annoyed and embarrassed and i can't do anything about it 😭😭😭 like why!!!!
It's even worse this time because it barely has thing for it and I was testing stuff out to see how it would look and it was a project and now I'm crying and if you see it plz don't click on it I want to save my dignity at most 😨 but if you do plz give me pointers on it ik
Also the ao3 app has so many ads like so many that make it kinda impossible and I do remember complaining about it and how if you click off of it, completely wipes what you wrote and that happened to me once and it completely made me lose all motivation I had and I almost finished it and I loved it 😔
I don't know why but I keep on going through so many scenarios of five in a deconstructed state but like yk when someone your used to dressing up real fancy (suits) and then you see them in pj's and which are just oversized T-shirt extra points if it has a really worn down graphic of on it but you can still tell what it is a bit and it's lopsided like only one parts of the t-shirt droops down basically a off the shoulder and just PJ shorts and their hair is like have slight curls in them /waves and they look like they have never slept in a day of their life and they finally got a break, that's what I think five would look like deconstructed basically him pj's and a cup of coffee in hand and looking absolutely fucking tired and barely mentally there
Inspo by me and my P. O . And also an image that I swear I've seen on Pinterest and I can't find because all of it is literally aesthetic when I search pjs
If five had home on his own I feel like this is what it would look like , like a liminal space type area , gives off major staying at grandparent's house and I think the first pic feels the most like five and I can completely see him sitting there with a newspaper and a cup of coffee in hand like just get rid of the blazer and you already reach grandpacore and probably also replace the shorts with either cargo shorts or dress trousers then you reach peak grandad vibes 😎
These kinds of outfits yk (≡^∇^≡)
I'm pretty sure I'm very much taking him ooc idk but I only watch parts of season 1 and haven't watched the rest due lack of motivation so I'm just taking everyone else's word for it 😗
Rec list
Stranger things, marvel, marauders era, the umbrella academy, slashers
Stranger things
EDDIE MUNSON
Tongue
Eddie Munson smut AND Jason Carver slander. What could possibly be better?
Such a strange girl
Eddie and hippie being cuties.
Movie night
Bat Eddie and his uncle Wayne.
Noodle
Ferret dad Eddie.
Family
Wayne being a protective uncle and so much comfort.
STEVE HARRINGTON
Stay awake
The softest and fluffiest angst around.
Pretty
Steve deserves all the praises.
Dream
Cutie Steve beginning his dad life.
BILLY HARGROVE
Welcome to the party
Kind of ooc Billy but being a protective cutie.
Road gate
Very soft Billy with sadness but fluffy ending.
Marvel
BUCKY BARNES
Personal pillow
Kick your feet, twirl your hair type of fluff.
Pocket angel
Cry your eyes out type of fluff.
Sweeter than sugar
Chubby Bucky owns my heart and soul, forever and always.
Your protector, forever
A dark but soft Bucky.
Can you not
Possessive Bucky is a hot Bucky.
The bet
People being meanies to Bucky and a protective reader.
Serendipity
Bucky just trying to live with an unhinged neighbour.
Around my neck
Bucky being a silly jealous boy.
And you’re mine
Again chubby Bucky owns my heart.
STEVE ROGERS
Religion
Dark Steve and innocent reader.
LOKI LAUFEYSON
Little realisations
I agree tall people are scary.
End credits
Loki being a sweetie.
Hot tea
Jotun Loki smut. Chefs kiss.
Marauders
JAMES POTTER
She hexed me!
Stupid lover boy Jamie.
SIRIUS BLACK
That doesn’t leave us many options
Cutie Siri and beautiful references to blanket forts.
REMUS LUPIN
Easy sleeping
Soft domestic relationship.
REGULUS BLACK
Regulus Black x Potter!Reader
Dramatic James and soft Reggie.
The umbrella academy
FIVE HARGREEVES
Music to my ears
Cute husband and wife shit. A whole lotta caring Five.
Hotel waffles
Retired loving Five.
Partners
The best type of relationship.
My little stress eater
Softest five around. All the fluffs while still being a bad bitch.
Slashers
Slasher cuddling HC
Falling asleep on slashers
Slashers s/o with tattoos
Slashers reaction to their s/o laying on top of them
Slashers with a demon s/o
Giving slashers massages
Slashers with s/o who has weird cravings for inedible things
Slashers with s/o who proves their loyalty to them
Hide ‘N Seek (Bo Sinclair)
Blind (Bo Sinclair)
Yautja with a chiropractor s/o
Wasted on a dream
Wound tending (Bo Sinclair)
Kissing slashers in a panic before they kill you Part 2
Male yautja trying out a period cramp simulator with his human mate
Michael and Jason with a reader who plays the sims
Receiving a love letter
Miscellaneous
MATT MURDOCK
One more time
A soft and fluffy fic that provides Matt with love and happiness.
SPENCER REID
Every last bite
Cute Spencer and magic baker, so cute!
Buried alive
Sad times but so sweet.
AARON HOTCHNER
Home sweet home
Aaron being protective and little rage for spice.
JAVIER PEÑA
Agent Peña
Javier looking hot in his vest.
LOGAN HOWLETT
When she squeezed me tight, she nearly broke me spine
I want to break his bones.
The Walking Dead
DARYL DIXON
Day drinking and it’s consequences
Glenn and reader being drunken simps. Cute Daryl just trying his best.
No matter what they say
Grumpy and sunshine.
Found you
The cutest reunion and Merle being a good guy.
A single punch
A truly heartbreaking and stunning story, Maggie being amazing.
Beef
Daryl being a bitch but he makes up for it.
netflix… if i see you in the streets…
The Umbrella Academy Season 4 (Deleted Scene)
I totally agree! I don't want them to treat it as if it's something that's done overnight and I think showing him spiral even farther than he already is would be helpful in also making it more obvious that addiction isn't something that just goes away, it takes a lot of work and sometimes it's a life time commitment to getting better and that it's okay too.
I'd also love to see the use of therapy being beneficial for ones wellbeing because though there are instances where it can cause more harm (I've experienced quite a few personally), not all of it is bad. We have so much media that portrays it as something bad (we even see that Diego and Lila in S2 when one of the staff threatens and even hurts Diego), so showing the good that can come from it would be great. There's actually a fic I've been reading where the writer talks about Klaus going to therapy and sharing some of his therapy sessions with his siblings and I really love that!
Of course, with the episode limit there's no way to fit all of this on top of everyone else's storylines and I don't want a spinoff focusing on just Klaus like some in the fandom want because damn do I love him, but I would have loved for this all to be a part of the major storyline.
I saw your post talking about Klaus' addiction and how his family plays into the role of how society tends to treat addicts, which I totally agree on and I'm so thankful to see others speak up on it, but I also wanted to bring up that there's even more issues with how some people in the fandom, and society as well, treat addiction.
A lot of society only treats addicts horribly if their drug(s) of choice are "hard drugs". Nobody sees Allison's smoking cigarettes in S3 or all the drinking done in all seasons as an addiction because they've been so normalized. They're so normalized that there are hundreds of shows that show a lot of drinking and/or smoking cigarettes/cigars and hardly anyone considers any of those characters as addicts.
And I think that also plays into the way Klaus' siblings treated him while struggling with addiction because they participate in it too, but they never get called an addict because their addictions are "normal". "Why can't Klaus just drink like everyone else and not do 'hard drugs'"?
Oh absolutely, I did actually get into this a bit in a follow-up post (here)
And like, addictive behaviours can latch onto anything. Gambling, exercise, food, shopping, music, sex, gaming... if it gives a moment of happiness and dopamine it can become maladaptive as an outlet and an escape...
Alcohol causes much more social and physical harm than many "hard" drugs, and in much smaller quantities, despite being much more socially acceptable. And it isn't criminalized in the same ways (which is good, because criminalizing a health issue is wrong and doesn't work, because social rejection and judgment force people deeper into addiction, and by making things illegal you create black markets and fund organised crime and really do everything to increase the problem at hand).
And you're right in that the siblings (and society) treat drinking (and smoking) as different, even with Klaus who is very much an alcoholic...
Because many people do turn to bad habits and alcohol during bad times.
But it is interesting to note that while a large number of the siblings are self-medicating during that time due to their level of alcohol use, and in a very unhealthy way, it doesn't necessarily mean they're addicts as well. Or rather, not addicts in the same way as Klaus.
I'm reminded of a study done about drug use, particularly heroin usage, by soldiers in the Vietnam War. Where drug use was ubiquitous and at incredibly high levels. And yet when most of these soldiers returned home they stopped using it entirely (and this is a physical dependency causing substance, so unsupervised withdrawal can easily kill a person).
Because they were no longer in the situation they wanted to escape.
Of course not every soldier stopped using, and the homeless, addicted veteran is a well-known figure in the popular consciousness for a very real reason. But often those soldiers who kept using weren't coming back to any sort of support system or a good situation at all. And there was, and still is, a huge lack of support for the trauma inflicted by war on those forced into it ( I say as someone who had half their family conscripted into a Cold War related war, even if it wasn't the Vietnam War specifically).
It was something of a real-life example of the Rat Park experiment, which has trended on Tumblr before, and also illustrated how connected addicted behaviours are to the environment that people are in...
But this is to me part of why they treat their behaviour as "different" and why they also don't bother Klaus about his drinking in s2 and 3, even as he consumes much more than any of them and started carrying a flask again that he's seen drinking from constantly, even in the less stressful situations he's in since he first relapsed s2...
Because he can't stop once he started again.
The others can't comment on his drinking, if they even notice it with everyone being so wrapped up in their own things, because they're all also drinking at unhealthy levels, particularly in s3, and it's the end of the world so from their perspective, "fuck it!". But even though their own dependency at that point is unhealthy, it's still not at the same level as Klaus's...
Because there is nuance when it comes to addiction and dependence and situational dependency and so much else...
But it is also cause for them to finally sympathise and recognise that "there goes them but for the grace of god", because they really aren't as different as they would like to think... (which tbh, it seems like Luther got after s1, given how he's treated Klaus since)
This is another reason why I'm also so sad about the 6 episode announcement. Because these things being addressed would be best without the apocalypse hanging over them all and giving them the excuse to ignore stuff
But yeah, I think they're gonna be stretched to try and wrap up the plot, and character development and moments are gonna be sacrificed...
Anyway, I have so many thoughts about these topics, and I am so thankful for every ask that allows me to indulge in me thinking my thoughts!
I kinda keep forgetting their situation as something that's tremendously traumatic, which is probably due to how often it happens. 😅 With that, yeah, I should have also considered "why" they're doing it and if it would be something they'd stop doing once the traumatic situation ended, which we can see some of them not drink until they find out the world is ending again (or in Allison's case in S3 she starts drinking when she realized Claire isn't in the current timeline and later on drinking and smoking).
I agree that I wish there were more episodes because not only do I want to get an answer to some of the questions we all have, like Allison's current situation, but I also want to see Klaus at least managing his addictions and maybe even having help from everyone. By then, not only would he be in a different environment that isn't as similar as his environment in S1 (and hopefully no impending doom like S2 and S3), but he'd also have a support system that he needs and wants. I want to see him get sober and not just because it's nice to see character development that's good for them and their wellbeing, but also because I'd love to see more media portray that if you're suffering from addictions it doesn't mean your life is completely ruined. I don't want his addictions in S1 to be seen as "some quirky thing we can added to him that we'll never talk about again". I'd also love to see him turn down an alcoholic drink because he knows it'll affect him negatively or his siblings always make him mocktails and such with everyone else so he doesn't feel so alone. I'd be surprised if we get any of that in S4, but a man can dream.
I saw your post talking about Klaus' addiction and how his family plays into the role of how society tends to treat addicts, which I totally agree on and I'm so thankful to see others speak up on it, but I also wanted to bring up that there's even more issues with how some people in the fandom, and society as well, treat addiction.
A lot of society only treats addicts horribly if their drug(s) of choice are "hard drugs". Nobody sees Allison's smoking cigarettes in S3 or all the drinking done in all seasons as an addiction because they've been so normalized. They're so normalized that there are hundreds of shows that show a lot of drinking and/or smoking cigarettes/cigars and hardly anyone considers any of those characters as addicts.
And I think that also plays into the way Klaus' siblings treated him while struggling with addiction because they participate in it too, but they never get called an addict because their addictions are "normal". "Why can't Klaus just drink like everyone else and not do 'hard drugs'"?
Oh absolutely, I did actually get into this a bit in a follow-up post (here)
And like, addictive behaviours can latch onto anything. Gambling, exercise, food, shopping, music, sex, gaming... if it gives a moment of happiness and dopamine it can become maladaptive as an outlet and an escape...
Alcohol causes much more social and physical harm than many "hard" drugs, and in much smaller quantities, despite being much more socially acceptable. And it isn't criminalized in the same ways (which is good, because criminalizing a health issue is wrong and doesn't work, because social rejection and judgment force people deeper into addiction, and by making things illegal you create black markets and fund organised crime and really do everything to increase the problem at hand).
And you're right in that the siblings (and society) treat drinking (and smoking) as different, even with Klaus who is very much an alcoholic...
Because many people do turn to bad habits and alcohol during bad times.
But it is interesting to note that while a large number of the siblings are self-medicating during that time due to their level of alcohol use, and in a very unhealthy way, it doesn't necessarily mean they're addicts as well. Or rather, not addicts in the same way as Klaus.
I'm reminded of a study done about drug use, particularly heroin usage, by soldiers in the Vietnam War. Where drug use was ubiquitous and at incredibly high levels. And yet when most of these soldiers returned home they stopped using it entirely (and this is a physical dependency causing substance, so unsupervised withdrawal can easily kill a person).
Because they were no longer in the situation they wanted to escape.
Of course not every soldier stopped using, and the homeless, addicted veteran is a well-known figure in the popular consciousness for a very real reason. But often those soldiers who kept using weren't coming back to any sort of support system or a good situation at all. And there was, and still is, a huge lack of support for the trauma inflicted by war on those forced into it ( I say as someone who had half their family conscripted into a Cold War related war, even if it wasn't the Vietnam War specifically).
It was something of a real-life example of the Rat Park experiment, which has trended on Tumblr before, and also illustrated how connected addicted behaviours are to the environment that people are in...
But this is to me part of why they treat their behaviour as "different" and why they also don't bother Klaus about his drinking in s2 and 3, even as he consumes much more than any of them and started carrying a flask again that he's seen drinking from constantly, even in the less stressful situations he's in since he first relapsed s2...
Because he can't stop once he started again.
The others can't comment on his drinking, if they even notice it with everyone being so wrapped up in their own things, because they're all also drinking at unhealthy levels, particularly in s3, and it's the end of the world so from their perspective, "fuck it!". But even though their own dependency at that point is unhealthy, it's still not at the same level as Klaus's...
Because there is nuance when it comes to addiction and dependence and situational dependency and so much else...
But it is also cause for them to finally sympathise and recognise that "there goes them but for the grace of god", because they really aren't as different as they would like to think... (which tbh, it seems like Luther got after s1, given how he's treated Klaus since)
This is another reason why I'm also so sad about the 6 episode announcement. Because these things being addressed would be best without the apocalypse hanging over them all and giving them the excuse to ignore stuff
But yeah, I think they're gonna be stretched to try and wrap up the plot, and character development and moments are gonna be sacrificed...
Anyway, I have so many thoughts about these topics, and I am so thankful for every ask that allows me to indulge in me thinking my thoughts!
Petition for Emmy to finally be able to keep her own hair as Allison in S4.
Treat Yo’ Self
Treat Yo’ Self : An Umbrella Academy family story
Warnings: None
When Allison comes into the kitchen for her morning coffee, she notices a group of little paper bags lined up on the table. Each of them has a number written with black magic marker, reminding her of the way Grace used to pack their lunches.
These are about a third the size of a lunch bag and decorated with little ghosts and things. Allison suddenly remembers the date, October 31st.
Halloween treat bags. How adorable!
Halloween wasn’t the same without Claire, of course, but maybe a little Halloween treat might help to dull the pain.
She opens bag number three. It’s gummy bears. Her favorite. She crams a small handful into her mouth, then sits down to check the news and relax with some toast and coffee.
Diego comes in and gestures towards the bags. “These from mom?”
“I guess so.”
Diego looks into his bag and smiles.
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Klaus: If your grave doesnt say "rest in peace" on it you are automatically drafted into the skeleton war
Diego: I'm gonna be cremated so imagine a cloud of bones flying over the battlefield
Klaus: Oo metal
PLEASE never let Five Hargreeves find out about irish coffee that man would go BALLISTIC if he does
Viktor: Synonyms are weird because if you invite someone to your cottage in the forest, that sounds nice and cozy, but if you invite someone to your cabin in the woods, they're going to die.
Five: Yes, it's called "connotation".
Allison: My personal favorite is butt dial vs booty call.
Klaus: Mine is "forgive me, Father, for I have sinned" vs "sorry, Daddy, I've been naughty".
Luther: Great news! Language is now cancelled!
Klaus: Do you ever feel like there’s bugs crawling all over you when there’s nothing there?
Viktor: That’s the ghosts of all the bugs you’ve killed.
Klaus: ...
Five: Viktor, quit traumatizing Klaus.
Klaus: I wasn’t that drunk.
Viktor: You colored my face with a highlighter because you said I was important.
Klaus: BECAUSE YOU ARE!
Klaus : In my defense, I simply don’t vibe with the law.