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Klaus: Hate crimes? Hmmm no I love them

The chaotic energy behind Klaus's "we played catch!" is giving me new life. Klaus, you died.

So apparently there's this script for a tua season 1 episode that never got made. It's about their 23th birthday.

You guys.

A couple of things that stand out:

- That cross stitch Diego had in the boiler room that was so obviously a gift from Grace was a gift for his 23th birthday.

- Also, Diego went every week to visit his mom. I'm crying

- Klaus was in jail at this time, and he accidentally killed a guy in self defense.

- Allison is there but we just see her struggling not to use her powers on every day issues.

- Also apparently Patrick was her acting coach.

- She needed it.

- Luther was pathetic and I want to cry for him bc I love him so much but God was he dumb. Also the Accident happened the day after his birthday.

- Viktor had a girlfriend, who looked so sweet at first but then he found out she was cheating on him. On his birthday. Ouch.

- Five flirted with a woman named Delores in a 1940s (I think) bar, and it was so sweet and heartbreaking. He got a little kiss for dancing with her. It was great. Get it, old man.

- Five traveled to 2012 for the commission, saw Diego leave the academy, and couldn't stop himself from shouting his brother's name. I am HEARTBROKEN

- The Handler stopped him before Diego could see him, and also we have confirmation that the Handler was fucking creepy. She kissed Five after proclaiming he was hers. Five stands still and closes his eyes. I'm... feeling things. Mostly homicidal rage.

- Viktor visits Klaus in jail, which develops into the best conversation I've ever read.

- They talk about Viktor's book. Klaus is very supportive. Reading the whole script is worth it just to read that conversation JESUS CHRIST:

- Apparently, Grace announced one day at the dinner table that Diego had had his first wet dream.

- Klaus asks Viktor if he had added that lovely little anecdote into the book.

- Viktor responded with an: yeah, I did.

- Christ almighty I know understand why Diego was so fucking angry VIKTOR HARGREEVES YOU HAVE ZERO CHILL.

- Okay seriously overall that conversation is very sweet. Best klaus-viktor interaction. 10/10

- Also I find hilarious that Regginald tried to call them all separately but obviously no one picked up, so his next thought was: "well. Better start planning my own funeral".

- The quip Klaus made in the Void when he asked Reginald "couldn't you just have called?" Is a thousand times funnier knowing that the bastard DID call, but Klaus missed it bc he was in jail.

That is all for tonight lovelies, this was heartbreaking to read but overall amazing, I recommend you read it, here is the link

me after finding out that the founder of the Commission turns out to be some other version of Five:

Five: No drinking, no gambling, no premarital sex. Klaus, they basically just outlawed 90% of your personality

Klaus: We need to leave

ACE FEI IS CANON WE WON

I can't get over Harlan

This poor child was born in a time where society doesn't understand people like him, and would've been hauled to an institute eventually, in a span of a few days, he drowned, resurrected, acquired an insanely powerful ability he had no way of controlling. Just when he thought things were okay, he and his mom had to leave, and for many many years they've been on the move because it turns out- No! He STILL has the power that he doesn't know how to control and its only growing stronger and everytime he lose control they have to leave. Until one day his mom- the one person who had been by his side in all these hard years- passed away. And then he was alone, waiting for Viktor, remembering his promise to come back.

And then Harlan finally get to meet him, but then found out he unintentionally killed Viktor's mom as a result of his losing control. And when Viktor finally knew how to take back Harlan's power- the main source of his suffering all these years- he was killed, his freedom cut short because of something that was out of his control.

Harlan deserved better.

reginald lied to klaus about his death in 3x07. in 3x06, when klaus comes to visit him, it’s a day; it’s still a day when reginald electrocutes him to death:

it’s night, when allison comes to the academy with harlan’s body in the trunk (and there’s also klaus’ body somewhere in the academy):

and it seems only the NEXT DAY reginald takes klaus out for training. in 3x07, reginald tells klaus he remained dead for 22 minutes. so, klaus probably thinks it’s still the day when he told reginald about the white buffalo suite; the last thing he remembers is being electrocuted. reginald also adds that klaus was totally vulnerable, and he could’ve taken any of his organs. klaus is shocked, because why good ol’ reggie would do that, right?

the training starts at 1:15 p.m., reginald writes it down. logically, klaus’ 22-minute-long death should be listed as 001, but:

it’s 004. 22 minutes - lower body (something something), and LACERATION? before that, 003 - failure (?). 

between klaus’ FIRST electrocution and the bus-ball training, reginald had killed him not one, but four (FOUR!) times. and, most likely he did indeed try to cut him/cut out his organs (?) to check on how/if his dead body can heal itself. spoiler alert: klaus CAN HEAL HIMSELF even when he’s dead. later, we can see it in 3x09 when he comes back to life when the wound on his stomach has ALREADY healed. (so no one could steal his falling out guts, right? reginald knew. old bitch fucking knew). 

so, i think reginald kept electrocuting klaus all night between 3x06-3x07 (with the method reginald chose, it could probably mess up klaus’ memories? he literally doesn’t remember shit except for being electrocuted one last time?) until he made sure that: a) klaus comes back fairly quick now (attempt 003 says 26 minutes, not bad, not bad!) and b) his body heals from any injuries so haha getting crashed with a car is not a big deal.   

klaus has this habit of searching for answers and purpose in the same place he lost them. his autonomy was stolen from him as a child, and he lives with that loss every day. it’s quite common for people with that experience to live with dissociative symptoms, and i actually think klaus is a realistic portrayal of that. while it’s never outright said that it’s dissociation he deals with, i think a lot of survivors could probably see it in him. he’s always seemed to feel a disconnect with himself, with his own body (for example – and this is a small one – when he told ben “you’re not getting in this body,” rather than my body). his identity is something transient, something that shifts drastically sometimes depending on the situation he’s in, which is a common experience in people with dissociative symptoms – we’re like “chameleons.” 

he forgets key things regarding his trauma: that, or his brain will twist the events to make them more palatable to himself. he didn’t remember being killed as a child, even though it happened multiple times. and despite not remembering anything, he still has visceral reactions when it comes to being confined. he may not consciously remember every event, but his body does, and so he reacts accordingly, as if the threat of being killed again were a present one. because the body remembers the loss of control, it remembers the autonomy that was once stolen. then there’s “bus ball.” obviously, it was an objectively shitty, terrifying thing, being once again murdered, multiple times by your own father and abuser – and as an experiment, no less. despite that, the events were portrayed as something that was for the most part fun, almost. and when he vaguely recounted said events later on, he referred to it as “bus ball.” like it really was nothing more than a game. that’s another common dissociative symptom, and a common trauma symptom: being so disconnected on a certain level from your own trauma that you’re able to talk about it like it’s nothing. that you’re able to remember a skewed version of it so that you don’t have to internalize any of the real terror.

touch is another one. klaus is a very tactile person. he communicates well through touch. but he often doesn’t like being touched, unless it’s from someone he knows, loves and trusts.

he startles easily, too. will jump back at sudden movements or words, gets frightened by loud noises and will cover his ears.

his need for connection is relevant here, too. he has a hard time being alone with himself, and so he finds people to cling to, or finds people that will cling to him, just to stave off those feelings and to ground himself, almost. sometimes it spirals out of control, like with the cult. but his constant need for connection stems from feeling disconnected.

one of his passing comments to luther in s1 (”I remember my first time… oh no. i don’t”) hits hard, too. it’s not uncommon for trauma victims to experience hypersexuality as a result of this loss of autonomy. and then, to not even remember some of these encounters (obviously, the drugs/alcohol likely play a role in this not remembering. but hey, what’s addiction often a symptom of? oh yeah. trauma.)

this disconnect he feels from his own body is also why he was able to have certain encounters even with people he didn’t like. keechie comes to mind. he didn’t like keechie, that was made clear. but it sounds like he still had no problem having sex with him, despite this. it’s common, when you have dissociative symptoms, to feel this sort of disconnect. you don’t always care what happens to a body that doesn’t feel like yours, hell, you can enjoy it, sometimes – even if you don’t like the person you’re doing it with.

it’s why he gets off on torture, too. klaus being a masochist was clearly portrayed in episode four, but then was referenced again two other times. (”if i see a boner, i’m out” when he was being tied up, and, “i’m going to beat you, and not the way you like it.”) when you grow up tortured and become accustomed to it it’s easy for the brain to say “hey, this is unbearable so actually we like this thing now. that’ll make it bearable!” i mean, obviously it’s a little more complicated than that, but that’s the gist of the situation. 

you often find comfort – or even pleasure – in familiarity, even when familiarity isn’t safe. we see that in klaus.

and that leads me back to my main point: klaus searches for answers, he searches for purpose in the same places he lost them. if he can give up his body to anyone who will take it, then maybe he can take back autonomy, is what he might think. if he can have a say in his own destruction, whether it’s addiction or reckless behavior, then maybe he can take back control. 

but that’s never truly how it plays out. a trauma survivor will never find what they’re looking for this way. i believe that klaus is starting to realize this, even if he does run into setbacks, and even though he will continue to run into setbacks. if he wants to find control, and if he wants to find purpose, he will have to reroute that energy into a path of recovery rather than destruction. it’s a hard hill to climb, but we know he can do it.

i could say more about this, but i think this says enough, for now.

I’m so happy that a majority of the tua fandom love Viktor Hargreeves. However, seeing the few transphobes that are upset by Viktor’s transition is very funny—especially when they argue that it’s “unrealistic.”

My brothers in christ, this show contains children with super powers, time travel, a talking monkey, a half monkey man, a fucking magical CUBE, and so much more. A trans character is quite literally the most realistic part of this show.

I rewatched S1 and S2 of The Umbrella Academy for the tenth time, and I decided to keep track of how many times the characters said certain words

anyway these are my favorite reviews so far

Klaus telling Diego he "barely got out with his life" when Hazel and Cha-Cha tortured him back in S1 but now we know he probably actually did die a couple of times in the process and just CAME BACK TO LIFE WITHOUT EVEN REALISING ?? Klaus ?? 😭😭

Have you ever felt like there's something you're supposed to be doing, something important, but no one's telling you what it is, and you're scared that youre gonna miss out or... or.. mess it up because you're always screwin' things up, and you're really fuckin tired of it!

Klaus Hargreeves

ive never felt a monologue so closely in my entire life

Tua s3 spoilers 🚨!!

So mad at the writers for not bringing in Dave this season. There were so many opportunities where they could've brought him back, even if it was when Klaus was in the afterlife/void. I don't know why they completely ignore this ship, but still gave other characters moments with their past love interest or even brought them back at the end. Overall I loved Klaus storyline this season, but the absence of Dave left a bitter taste and anger towards the writers.

I know that people have already been saying that Viktor’s coming out felt rushed and I know they might’ve done more with that if they hadn’t already had much of the scripts written by the time Elliot came out, but!

As a trans guy myself there’s something really nice about seeing a character tell family he’s trans and having them just be like okay cool and move on. The way that I have constantly had to explain myself to people in my life and constantly have seen trans people in media have to explain themselves is so exhausting.

So, sure, I can absolutely understand people feeling like it was kind of flat. But it’s also nice to have a trans character just get to *be*.

I haven't seen a warning for it going around so TUA S3 EP10, a warning for trypophobia at about the 32:30 mark and a quicker moment at about 34:20

May I present you: two very cursed screenshots of dear old five I've managed to acquire

i made more 👁

The mothers & their character

Musing on what we get to see of the Umbrella mothers, I have some thoughts. I wonder if the mothers were shown as deliberate reflections of their children?

Luther’s Mother. A confident business lady, giving or about to give a presentation. She shows leadership, confidence (that dress folks, YES), poise. Professional strength and intelligence. All things that Luther has aspired for.

Diego’s Mum. Shown in the home, preparing a meal. A home maker, caring, love language presumably acts of service. A reflection on how Diego always seems to have wanted to be a real family, with real connnections and care. His closeness with Mom/Grace. Also, knife skills.

Allison’s Mother - a teacher. And if my memory serves me, teaching geography/geology with a diagram of the earth’s layers on the chalkboard. A nurturer who works with youths/children, and who has the power to inspire and change lives with her words.

Klaus’ Mother - Amish. The simple, self-sufficient and religious life doesn’t seem a good fit at first glance, but when you look a little deeper I think there’s some parallels. Religion/Spirituality/Mediumship/literal crossing to the other side are all linked beneath the surface. And the self sufficient life style - Klaus has never really gone without. Whatever he has thought he needed or wanted (materialistically) he has been able to get, one way or another. He’s adaptable, a charmer, he always lands on his feet.

Five’s mother, the butcher. A professional who can get the job done, isn’t afraid to get her hands dirty, but can work with precision. Ability to separate emotions from the job at hand. Also, excellent blade skills and good understanding of anatomy. A good parallel to Five’s ruthless fighting style and the professional pride he took in his assassination work.

Ben’s schoolgirl mom. Young, really starting to explore life, with years and years ahead of her. Too young to be thrust into motherhood, such a momentous change, regardless of the instantaneous nature of it. A reflection or mirror to her son, who was beginning to explore life outside of the academy and died too young.

Viktor’s mother. The aspiring olympic swimmer who wanted to rise above ordinary and compete with the extraordinary - something Viktor longed for for most of his life and formed a huge part of the S1 arc, and really still influences Viktor even in S3.

i’m not going to get into it fully right now but what the umbrella academy writers did this season to allison has fucking pissed me off. immensely. her being a villain? FINE! her getting angry at all she’s lost and the racism she’s had to face is perfectly valid. but this?? what she was going to do to luther? seriously? not only was it triggering it felt targeted. let me ask one question to the writers. why did cha cha, marcus, fei, and allison get these stories? these endings? these arcs?

I knew that the racism would start spewing when Allison started all of those horrible actions and it honestly made me feel uncomfortable because I knew it would happen. People love to cling onto the stereotype that Black people are aggressive, but I also feel that if Allison wasn't so aggressive then she would have been stereotyped as the "kind, motherly" type when that is a stereotype portrayed on Black women. I honestly don't know how she could have reacted that wouldn't have led to people putting a racist stereotype. I want to add that it shouldn't be onto Black people to make sure these stereotypes don't exist and that we should be able to see Black people be as complex as they are without stereotyping them with a specific kind of behavior.

I do believe though that some do have the right to be angry with her and her actions. If Luther had taken those same actions as Allison did against Victor I would be just as pissed.

Yes Victor lied, but can you compare lying when telling the truth could have put someone's life at stake as the same as killing someone that didn't change the way the end of the world happened or affected things? Victor's siblings have not had the best track record of listening to him (Season 1) and that was only a few weeks ago (with 2 months not having any memory of it) so it's not like your trust in them gets better ine one day. Yes Allison wanted him out of the vault and had pretty much warned him about Leonard, but those didn't help with the years of trauma he experienced as being excluded from the rest and Allison bring concerned for him happened YEARS after they parted, which again makes sense on why Victor wasn't so concerned with Allison's worries about Leonard. Would you listen to a family member you haven't spoken to in years tell you that you shouldn't trust someone you have a crush on?

Then we have Season 2 where the only interaction between Victor and Allison is when Allison's trying to save Victor and when they get to where Season 3 starts. So you get like maybe a week of interaction with a sibling you haven't spoken to in years and then months of no more interaction, would you trust someone wholeheartedly within such a short time frame?

Season 3 we get to see more interactions with them and Victor is even trying to sympathize with Allison losing loved ones AGAIN when he lost loved ones too (Sissy and Harlan). Yes he got to see Harlan again, but it wasn't because he chose it or did things his way so he could have Harlan, it just was. If Claire or Ray had been in S3 and found out somehow they're the cause of the death of their mothers, do you think Allison would gladly give away that information to her family or be fine if Victor killed them?

I understand that this was how Allison dealt with her trauma and grief over everything, and it's valid she felt the things she did and wanted to cause harm to herself and others, but we shouldn't praise her actions, just like we should 't praise Victor for destroying the world in S1 or Luther putting him in the vault. We can understand why they did the things they did without praising their behavior.

Seeing some of the most insane and fucking racist Allison takes???? If she was a white man going through a “villian era” y’all would be posting fan edits and talking about how attractive you find her, calling her your blorbo or some shit. Every character on that show has done insane fucked up shit and yet I only see horrible posts about Allison. Take some critical thinking skills and apply it to the show bc Jesus Christ y’all cannot be serious rn??

okay maybe I’m biased, but did it bother anyone else how literally none of the characters acknowledge that Harlan /is/ like family to Viktor? When they’re deciding whether or not to give him to the Sparrows it’s always “Harlan saved our lives” or “Viktor owes Harlan for giving him powers”. Not “Viktor partly raised him” or “Harlan is like a son to Viktor”. Family is soooo important but Harlan doesn’t get to count?

THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY 3x03, “Pocket Full of Lightning”

I feel like a lot of people fail to see how similar umbrella Ben and sparrow Ben are and that bothers me a lot : they're not entirely different characters.

It really bothers me how most people see umbrella Ben as this pure little angel(tm) while he's not ? Of course we didn't see that much of him cause, yk, he's dead, but he was sometimes harsh, and just as pragmatic as sparrow Ben. Like remember when he wanted the brellies to kill Grace ?

When Sparrow Ben tells Viktor to put his shit together cause the apocalypse is happening and they don't have time for that, that something umbrella Ben did with Klaus and Viktor in the past, the only difference is that he has emotional attachment to them, and sparrow Ben doesn't.

That's also why I love that Klaus had a chance to talk about him, cause he's the only one who truly remembers how umbrella Ben could be a little shit sometimes, while the others forgot because of grief.

That was a long way of saying : stop making umbrella Ben into the shy nice little angel he's not.

Diego and Allison: Hey let's go beat the shit out of racists

which isn’t that much money

The Umbrella Academy S3 + Text Posts Part 1

Reginald Hargreeve: Okay so the world is going to end soon and all my kids hate me including me. How do I get them back together?

Reginald Hargreeve:...... I'll just kill myself.

What really happend