Tw Self Loathing - Blog Posts
Tw: eating disorders and self harm
The monsters in my head. They won't leave.
An empty stomach. A grave where I live.
Scars on my thighs. A strange relief.
A disconsolate existence. A sigh of grief
My shattered childhood. It haunts me still
Whimpers of pain. A broken will.
Venomous family. Full of greed.
Begged you to stop it. It never did.
Tw: self harm, ed
Alternate universe
In an alternate universe,
I am 14 and alone in my room,
And my hands haven't harmed myself yet.
In an alternate universe,
My mom isn't emotionally dead,
And my dad isn't the monster yet.
In an alternate universe,
I still have her by my side,
I haven't screwed everything yet.
In an alternate universe,
I don't flinch when I look in the mirror,
There are no scars on my thighs yet.
In an alternate universe,
I still eat like a normal person,
I haven't ruined myself yet.
Sometimes even when you try really hard to get yourself to focus on a certain thing and learn it, you just won't
It sucks, doesn't it?
Uhm,, trigger warning?? Its vent art so it's not gonna be good, scratching and strangulation u know the deal
Sorry for the bummer art, it's the only one I drew so
I figured I'd post it
I really am trying NOT to harm myself further than I have already had, and that's good progress to me.at least
I wanna learn to trust myself, and I think I'm getting there
It's just bad vibes day