i need someone to tell me it's going to be okay that we're going to make it past this that project 2025 is only going to be a few years and we'll come back stronger that we're not going to die that i'm not going to die that my boyfriend will get his surgeries and hormone therapy that i'll be able to adopt kids that my boyfriend and i will be able to get married and live together that we'll be safe i'm so scared i'm so fucking scared i've been lying and pretending everything is fine but i don't know if i can do this i don't want to die