Man I just realized that there will come a time where this feeling of happiness that comes with fandom stuff will fade, not disappear, never disappear. Just deminish.
Other things will become important and this fun thing will just slowly calm and relax into nostalgia.
Now this isn’t true for everything. I could even go back to that thing that gave me joy and relive it. But there is always the possibility. So why should I focus on the negative things when I could create and experience positive ones. Make those times I look back on happy rather than nerve wracking.
I should create a place that a future me would be proud of.