I just finished banana fish and 1. I refuse to accept that ending 2. My mind is filled with how they could have been happy… their dates and casual days. Like imagine that!!!! Where would Ash take Eiji, those late night talks and those nights when it’s just cuddling until they had fallen asleep. Holding hands, cooking together, forehead kisses, tight hugs and gentle hugs. Ash reading while Eiji is sleeping in his lap, Eiji cooking while Ash is telling him funny stories… talks and talks and talks… cleaning each other’s tears… god!!!! Im so inlove with them :(