hi bllk tumblr i am returning with more kunigiri angst. (manga spoilers)
so like i am a massive loveless fan and i think their song haunting me is SOOO good in terms of a kunigami pov song post-wildcard. like here here look at some of my favorite lyrics yes?
I could climb another mountain
I could swim another sea
Fall apart again if you were next to me
'Cause it was all for you
It's a brand new day
But I can't even think straight
Got a taste of the bitter in me
Now I keep it just to feel complete
Wish that I could just fall asleep
And not wake up with you haunting me
like. like come on. "i could accomplish all these massive physical feats yet i would also collapse in front of you if you were just here. and all of it was for you." because it was. kunigami going through wildcard not only for his own ego and his goals but to see his friends and loved ones again.
"got a taste of the bitter in me" also known as the understatement of the century. kunigami is barely a person anymore, let alone his own person, he's a shell meant to house the glory of noel noa and nothing more. and of course he is keeping this lone wolf mentality going, he has no other choice. after the hell he went through, maybe it's better to just accept the philosophy that was forced on him. at least it'll make him feel human again. sort of.
and god chigiri is haunting him. it's the way they can't develop entirely separate from each other. it's the way that when we see hints of kunigami's old personality it's either because chigiri is directly there or inspiring the conversation/moment in some way. it's the way that chigiri thinks of kunigami to motivate him. kunigami is trying so damn hard to keep this wildcard persona up but the ghost that is chigiri's presence and his own past are making it such a difficult task.
i need to write kunigiri fic i think .