Rainy days = species dysphoria = sadness = today was a horrible day
Well I started seeing myself as a angel like you suggested, and now I feel better with your reassuring post!! I am excited to see further in my journey as a angelic being and finally not just a boring human whose only last purpose is dying :3 (not making fun of yโall humans, i still love some and a lot are cute and nice)
And I have a question, just out of curiosity because I love seeing winged other kin talk about their phantom wings like idk something is just so whimsical that you feel this.. How does IT generally feels ? When you lay on your back in your bed or simply leaning against a wall, does you sometimes accidentally feels them?
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Ooh I never thought about describing that, but sensing my wings is one of the things that make me the happiest!!
Basically, for me, my body isn't made of flesh and bone - I describe myself as a "being of light" 99% of the time. I remember my wings being feathered in "shape", but they also feel very, very light. I have at least a pair of "traditional" wings on my back, but the ones that are most noticeable are the ones under my "arms" - I don't really know how to explain it, sometimes I have trouble recalling how they actually look like. My real form has two arm-like limbs, and wings that are an extention of them. They aren't big compared to the ones on my back; they're just there.
They are one with my body - I'm aware that they're there, and they aren't numb, but there's no muscle or tissue to them. They feel warm, though.
If I ever start feeling them while I'm lying on my back, they don't really hurt or anything - but it's uncomfortable because they take up too much space, so that's why falling asleep become pretty hard lol. If they brush against something like a wall, I noticed it kind of tickles. And as for when i sit down, it's not really a problem, I can just tuck them in and they dont really get sore at all.
Generally speaking, they don't add any extra weight on my body.. but the ones under my arm can feel uncomfortable and weird, and even when they don't, they still get in the way a lot for obvious reasons. But I ignore that!!! Species euphoria >>>>> not being able to rest my arm on a table, am I right?
I had a dream about someone saying "hey your wings need preening" and it was so random, the wings I had weren't even accurate to my real ones. But yes. Yes my wings need preening
New intro post, you can see our old intro posts by looking for "intro post" as a tag on our blog.
Hello, this is mainly my fictionkin account for my ockin, Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo. I am a noncanon MHA/BNHA being/creature. You can call me Zuki, Shay, or Lupo, whatever you prefer!
My canon was divergent from the manga and anime. If you want to know more about my canon, send in an ask, or you can see some things on my original intro posts. The only thing I will mention here is that UA was a college instead of a high school, so my class and I were all 18 at the start of the first year at UA.
In this life, the body is currently 19, so keep that in mind. We don't mind minors interacting. Just know I (the host) am more hesitant to interact with minors myself.
We try and make sure our posts are all tagged well, especially for tw or cw, if you see a post of ours that doesn't have a tw or cw that needs to be tagged tagged, then let us know and we'll fix it.
We are alterhuman/nonhuman in more ways in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be brought up on our account.
We will not answer/post any donation asks if you want to know why you should be able to find the posts we made about it by using the tag "no donation asks." [Had to make this bigger and bold, so hopefully, people will listen]
We will block for any reason. Especially when it comes to hate.
This is an endo safe space. We will not judge systems/plural beings for their origins. If you don't like this, leave.
We are also disabled, both in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be on our blog. [In this life for all the ones after this]. We are autistic and ADHD for sure. We have a learning disability and depression as well diagnosed. We believe we might have OCD and PTSD but are not sure yet. I know we have some form of anxiety, but it's not diagnosed. We all (alters) experience these disabilities so yeah.
Because of our disabilities, we need a service dog in this life. [I also had one as Zuki]. We will likely post more about the service dog when we finally get our stuff together and do more about it.
We are plural. The terms that seem to fit our origin right now are; quoigenic, unknown, and cryptogenic.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/hx/xe/ze/he + more neos/xenos) | currently a they/it time for my pronouns
Mostly try to bold edits
Edits from Oct 22 to Nov 7: Added tag things, changed words on some tag things, changed parts of the post, added parts to the post, and edited the sign off on the post.
Edit from Nov 8: Edited signoff tag things.
Edit Nov 11: Edited signoff tag things
Tags that are for specific things;
# howling and barking at the moon - poems/poetry
# howling into the past - past life/kin memories good
# barking into the past - past life/kin memories bad
# woof woof reblog - rebloging alterhuman/nonhuman stuff or adding alterhuman/nonhuman stuff in my reblog
# other reblog - rebloging without alterhuman/nonhuman stuff
# confused howling - questioning system/plural stuff, including origin and alters
# disabled pup - disability things
# meowing in confusion - idk this is just for when I am confused about something
# little pup - sfw age regression things when pup is used to refer to me
# little kitten - sfw age regression things when kitten/kit is used to refer to me
# howling barking and meowing - talking about stuff tag, idk lol
# tri beta noises sfw - sfw misceverse stuff
# tri beta noises nsfw - nsfw misceverse stuff
# multi noises - system/plural things
# multi reblog - system/plural reblogs
# ๐๐ฉต๐พ๐ชถ - Shay/Zuki Shay Lupo | host and MHA/BNHA kin put together, lol
# ๐๐ท๏ธ๐๐จ - Lakey | alter
# ๐บ๐ค๐๐ฅ - Declan (The cat face changes based on mood of post) | alter
# ๐๐โโฌ๐๐ฅ - Lynix | alter
# ๐บ๐ฆพ๐ฆฟ๐ค - Oynx Afton (the middle two are supposed to just represent animatronic shit) | no idea whether this is a kin or an alter, lol
# ๐ค๐บ๐พ๐ - Phalen Lupe (supposed to represent werecanine/werewolf) | either kin or alter
# ๐ฃ๐๐ฆฎ๐ฅฆ - Shirley | alter
# ๐บ๐ ๐๐ - Vesper Lucian (supposed to represent fallen angel) | now we are kinda thinking this is an alter
# ๐ฉต๐ฆด๐พ๐ชฝ - Cyan Lupo | RWBY kin
# โ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ๐ค - ? (don't know who the fuck this person is, think they are an alter though?)
# ๐ฌ๐ฃโ๏ธโ๏ธ- When confused who is fronting