i’m actually sick thinking of the ninja and jay right now . they probably spent summers together . winters . springs. just growing up together
spent years in the kitchen together making pizza or joking around or having movie nights, literally maturing together and the more the world needs them the more the board games collect dust and the dartboard behind lloyd’s door is forgotten about. the ninja grew up together and now jays gone, gone somewhere none of them can fix and no one knows how to fix and jay quite literally. can’t remember his childhood or how he would always laugh when kai rage quit playing musical chairs, or how they said zane wasn’t allowed to play blackjack anymore, or how many sugars kai was allowed in his drink, or how they all piled up as kids into someone’s room daring each other to drink the wine bottle but refusing to let little lloyd.
doesn’t remember working as a delivery boy to try to make ends meet, or kai working as a party boy or zane as a chef or cole as a guard or nya at the autobody shop. doesnt remember saying goodbye to the things he loves and loved and instead now hes just there, doesn’t know how to do anything but extreme loyalty and bites people because hes been beaten and used and everyone’s tearing into him for it and he wasted his life away working a 9-5 job.
OH ANON THIS IS NOT AN ASK THIS IS A FUCKING EULOGY!!!!!!!! you cannot just SEND THIS TO ME. not when i’m already emotionally compromised. not when rogue jay is sitting there quietly grieving a life he doesn’t remember while everyone else has the AUDACITY to miss him out loud
THIS IS WHY I KEEP GOING BACK AND FORTH ON THE MEMORY THING. because yes on one hand it would emotionally destroy him to remember all the tragedies they’ve been through. it’ll be every moment of loss and pain and heartbreak hitting him like a truck all at once.
BUT ON THE OTHER HAND????
they LIVED. they had joy. they had summers and board games and movie nights and inside jokes and . so much love. they were stupid and close and young and they grew up together😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
and now he’s just Alone. he deserves to remember the good. he deserves to choose what he holds onto