Xavier Lnd - Blog Posts
᧔o᧓ comfort .ᐟ
xavier love and deepspace fluff/slight angst! x female reader. comfort fic. reader is in a deep depression. ong this is js based on me. she feels so empty but keeps going like a robot. xavier helps her feel better. i just wrote this for comfort to myself because i havent been feeling well at all.
Xavier didn’t question why today you seemed to crave his touch and attention more than usual. Normally, affection flowed freely between you and your boyfriend, but lately, an unshakable heaviness had settled in your heart, dimming your once vibrant spirit. Despite your unwavering love for Xavier, nurtured and deepened through time, the weight of depression had become an unwelcome companion.
You lounged in the bedroom of your shared apartment, having not left bed since the previous afternoon. Xavier noticed the deterioration, how you stayed awake till morning, slept through the day, and needed reminders to eat. When he checked on you, concern etched in his features, you waved him off with a feeble excuse about needing a break from hunting, urging him to focus on work.
How was he to continue his day knowing the woman he cherished was in pain? He knew better than to pry when you weren’t ready to open up, fearing it might worsen your state. Yet today, when he returned home, you greeted him at the doorway in one of his hoodies and shorts, reaching up to wrap your arms around his neck. “Miss you,” you whispered, seeking solace in Xavier’s embrace. He held you tightly, his voice a comforting balm as he asked, “How are you today, my love?” Tears welled in your eyes at his tenderness, and as they spilled over, Xavier gently lifted you into his arms and carried you back to bed.
His murmured reassurances were soft as he laid you down, his hand soothingly rubbing your back. “I’m here. I won’t leave,” he promised, his caring gaze a lifeline in the storm of your emotions. Gratefulness swelled within you for a boyfriend as attentive and loving as Xavier.
Quickly shedding his work clothes for comfort, Xavier slid under the covers beside you. His skilled hands encircled your waist as he drew you close, pressing kisses to the crown of your head. You clung to his scent, fingers tightening on his shirt as if afraid he might vanish. Tears continued to streak your cheeks, each one a testament to the ache in Xavier’s heart. He leaned closer, kissing away your tears, silently urging you to speak.
“Sorry for pushing you away lately,” you finally began, your voice cracking with emotion. Xavier shook his head gently, his thumb brushing away the remnants of tears. “You don’t need to apologise, angel.”
“I feel so lost, Xavi... I don’t understand what I’m feeling... I love you, that hasn’t changed, but I feel drained, empty. I feel like I’m just going through the motions, like a hollow shell. I push you away because I’m terrified of dragging you into this void with me. I feel selfish that you take care of me like this, like some sort of burden.”
Xavier listened quietly, his fingers tracing soothing patterns on your skin, his eyes never leaving yours. When you finished, he caressed your hips tenderly, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead. “Never feel terrified about ‘dragging’ me anywhere. Whatever you’re going through, I want to be there with you. I love you deeply, and I’ll be patient. If you need space, I’ll give it. If you want me close, I’ll stay. If you want to stay in bed, wear my clothes, I’ll support you every step.”
His eyes held yours with unwavering sincerity, offering you his heart and strength. You hiccupped through a smile, feeling a weight lift as Xavier’s words enveloped you in warmth and security. “I love you,” he whispered again, his touch tender against your tear-streaked face.
“I love you too,” you replied softly, leaning into his touch. Xavier kissed you lovingly, pouring his heart into the moment, promising silently to be your anchor in the storm until the darkness lifted.
“If you feel like a void, let me fill it with everything I have to give,” he murmured against your lips, sealing the vow with a kiss.
I dreamt I married Xavier last night. And my dumbass woke up smiling because it felt so real.😭 I'd literally go into a coma if it meant I could stay in that dream and feel happy.
I got my Xavier the new outfit. (• ▽ •;) (He looks so cozy I love it.)
I filled in this love and deepspace chart activity I found on tiktok. I bet you can't tell which guy is my favorite.
I CAVED‼️😭
I CAVED AND MADE MY FIRST IN GAME PURCHASE‼️😭 ALL IT TOOK WERE SOME VEINY ARMS AND A PEEK OF XAVIER'S TONGUE TO MAKE ME CAVE IN‼️😭
This is me rn:
A BANK EMPLOYEE CAN SEE THAT IN MY TRANSACTION HISTORY‼️😭 THEY'LL KNOW WHAT I AM‼️😭
OKAY THIS CAN'T BE A COINCIDENCE! RIGHT?! (°△°|||)
This is the first thing he said when I logged in!!Like, did he smell my banana bread?? How did he know I was baking??(• ▽ •;) This isn't the first time he's said something, specific enough to make me wonder if he can see and hear me behind the screen.
My banana bread for reference.(• ▽ •;) (I "decorated" it with chocolate chips.)
AAA THIS AUDIO!!(≧▽≦)
THIS AUDIO IS OFFICIALLY MY FAVORITE!! (≧▽≦) He's so expressive and silly in this audio, and it's just so cute. (≧ヮ≦) 💕 He made me laugh out loud at 11 pm when he started whispering. (I love expressive Xavier so much. He triggers that cute aggression thing in me.)
I mean, it's a 3 day boycott. :p It doesn't seem bad. Btw people are boycotting the game because infold is getting greedy. (Ex: separating the accessories, hairs, and outfits to make players spend more money on clothing items for the love interests.)
I'm a pretty casual love and deep space player. I don't spend money on the gacha system, I farm the in-game currency myself. But even I can tell this drop tier is diabolical.💀 Like, I'm excited for this event, the designs and story/concept appeal to me. But there is no way I'm pulling 285+ times just to get a card and in-game clothing.
The boycott starts February 10th.
(I got the event duration screenshot from the love and deepspace Instagram. But this is a three day boycott.)
Here's a couple of reddit thread(s) with more info about the boycott:
(I know, it's not considered the most reliable source. But I'm putting it here since the users on these threads explain the reason for the boycott better than me.)
Short Video Explaining the boycott:
Source:
Friendly reminder: Infold could afford a Miniso and Tom Ford collab. They're not a small indie dev team which relies on patreon donations to further their game development. They can obviously afford to pay their voice actors, devs, writers, etc.
Love and deepspace profits for reference:
https://www.pocketgamer.biz/love-and-deepspace-celebrates-first-anniversary-and-over-400m-after-record-breaking-month/#:~:text=Love%20and%20Deepspace%20proceeded%20to,anniversary%20on%20January%2018th%2C%202025.
I finally got around to reading Xavier's letter.
Text Ver:
"This is the closest place to the sky. It’s also the closest we can be to the stars. Many people say that you can hear the echoes of destiny here.
As the wind sweeps across the land, I see many things are being forgotten as the seconds pass…Those memories float in the distant starry sea or sink into the sands of time. Like light slipping through our fingers, they’ll scatter and become a faded remnant in the world.
Yet everything about you becomes clearer. Your sorrows, your joys, your body….And your soul….From the moment we first met, I treasured these memories in the depths of my hearts They’ve always shined brilliantly.
Here. I wrote you a letter. I cast an anchor into time and space to mark the moment of me writing these words and you reading them. I believe this tiny anchor will join the stars. It will serve as a guide for our paths. No matter how many times we travel through the vast, uncertain universe, we’ll always meet, converge, and intertwine."
THIS LETTER HURTS BECAUSE I JUST FINISHED READING XAVIER'S MYTH AND LISTENING TO HIS SECRET TIMES STARRY SOUND AUDIO‼️😭 HE BASICALLY JUST SAID HE'LL ALWAYS FIND THE MC/US/WHATEVER YOU VIEW THE PLAYER AS IN EVERY LIFETIME‼️‼️ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
(My reaction after reading the letter, Xavier's myth, and listening to his secret times starry sound audio.)
I did my nails!! (≧▽≦) This was my first time transferring images onto nails. (Which is why they look rough) :p
I got the images from Pinterest and made the template on ibis paint. I didn't use any fancy equipment to apply them.
I sealed the images with mod podge (front and back.)
I filed down the nail plate.
I glued the images down with nail glue.
And then I sealed the whole thing with clear nail polish.
I am not a nail tech, so I have no idea what I'm doing. :p