A Letter To My Younger Self 💌
Dear young Lolly,
First I want to say sorry, for everything I did against you. I should not have disregarded your needs. I should not have made you feel foolish for feeling emotions. I should not have shamed you for human desires. I should not have expected you to be anything but the great girl you were.
I am sorry for seeing you as a broken doll waiting to be fixed. I am sorry for seeing you, every part of you, as a burden. I am sorry for not being there when you needed me most. I am sorry for blaming you when it was never your fault. I am sorry for making you a scapegoat for other’s problems. I am sorry for speaking to you with full dismissal. I should not have disregarded the power of words, such sayings that have harmed us for so long. I should not have seen you as powerless, when there is so much power in yourself. Deep in my heart, I love you Lolly. I am learning to show up and care for you. I am working to wholly accept you for who you are and were. I will no longer let anyone’s perceptions scar our view of ourselves. I love you Lolly, all your present, future, and past. I'm going to do my best to love and show up for you. I am working to love and embrace us. I hope you know how much I love and appreciate you. Thank you for everything you've done that got me to where I am today. I hope you can forgive me, for all my wrongdoings against you. From now on, I will work for the best of us, and love you until our final breath, and into the afterlife.
I am here and will love you forever, Lolly🤍