If You Remember Anything Of Me, After I Leave This World, Remember That I Loved Even When It Was Foolish.

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗗𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗛𝘂𝗿𝘁.

Love is supposed to feel like home, a place where you’re safe, valued, and understood. But sometimes, love comes in a form that breaks you instead of building you. It can make you question everything: your worth, your choices, even your ability to be loved.

Maybe you've experienced that kind of love. The kind that made you beg for attention, for affection, for the smallest proof that you mattered to them. The kind of love that made you feel like you were too much and never enough at the same time.

It’s lonely, isn’t it? To give so much of yourself and feel like it’s never truly returned. To stay awake at night, overthinking their actions, wondering if you’re the problem when all you ever wanted was to be loved right.

If love ever finds me again, I hope it’s not like that. I hope it’s from someone who makes me feel whole, not someone who leaves me doubting my value. I hope it’s with someone who loves me for who I am, not who they want me to be. Someone who doesn’t make me feel stupid for trying, for caring too much, or for giving my all.

Love shouldn’t be this hard. It shouldn’t hurt this much. I don’t want a love that feels like a lesson. I want a love that feels like peace. If that’s too much to ask, maybe I’d rather wait, lonely but whole, than settle for another love that breaks me.

Because I’ve learned one thing: the love we deserve doesn’t make us beg for it. It just stays. It just feels right.

Abdullah.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

“Sometimes you have to forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve.”

If one day I stop communicating with you, don't worry, I don't hate you, maybe I got tired of catching your attention.

Literally asked for the bare minimum, and you made me feel like I was asking for too much.

I noticed, but I didn't say a thing, because I always try to understand even if it will hurt me.

Sorry. Im done.

‿ℒℴνℯ⁀💕 Abdullah

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"If your hand can move through my body and touch my heart, what would you feel emanating from it?

Sorrow and emptiness in the dark black spaces hallowed out where loved ones were lost and their seats are empty? Telling you I'll never be the same person I was before those losses.

Hypervigilance which has my heart in a constant state of alert for potential threats around me from past traumas? Always aware of my surroundings. Compassion and Empathy in great vibrations through your fingertips telling you I often put other people's feelings ahead of my own?

Avoiding conflicts to save any bad feelings to the other person, keeping my feelings to myself often to keep the peace, even if that means sacrificing what I truly feel and want. Overly understanding and kindness you feel moving in slow soft waves over your hand-so others don't feel how I've been feeling, and it can turn their whole day around into a smile?

Welcoming pure love telling you I made a home for you in a special stained-glass colored place in my heart so I can always embrace you there? Innocence beaming that's almost childlike swinging high on a swing in the golden sunshine, holding a yellow dandelion flower in my hand as my feet can almost touch the clouds in the blue sky without a care in the world? Romance that makes my delicate feminine soul look like pink pastel hues, and feels like a white doily lace on an old antique side table with an ivory Tiffany lamp warmly illuminated by the light through the drapes?

Passion searing hot red flames with heat that would scorch you until you learn to tame and control it till it surrenders to you? Desire and sensuality in the corners ready to lure you with the look of my eyes and a devilish smirk in my smile?

All that you can feel with just one touch.

One graze of your fingertips sliding down as your hand is cascading through.

So Fuck my soul and feel me entirely- to know me completely, honestly, and wholly with you in it.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

When you wake up, before getting out of bed, close your eyes and whisper to yourself, “Thank you for the gift of this new day.”

You woke up. This is a new day. You can use the teachings from yesterday to make new decisions, take aligned actions, and use your breath to live fully in the moment.

Your breath is your superpower. It keeps you alive.

So use today like this:

When you begin feeling overwhelmed and stressed, simply pause, take a few breaths, connect back to the moment, and begin again.

(Life is a gift. Wake up every day and realize that.

#Abdullah

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

I love deep conversations, like serious shit, heart to heart, just exchanging real shit, just vibing on a real level.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

𝗡𝗲𝘄 𝗬𝗲𝗮𝗿'𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮 𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲. 𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲:

ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕥𝕙 & 𝕎𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕤:

* 𝗘𝘅𝗲𝗿𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝘂𝗹𝗮𝗿𝗹𝘆.

* 𝗘𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝘆 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗽𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗿𝘂𝗶𝘁𝘀, 𝘃𝗲𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲𝘀, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗱𝗶𝗲𝘁.

* 𝗗𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗹𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗴𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗸𝘀.

* 𝗚𝗲𝘁 𝗲𝗻𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝘀𝗹𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁.

* 𝗤𝘂𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝗺𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗰𝗼𝗵𝗼𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗽𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

* 𝗣𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗳𝘂𝗹𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗶𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

ℙ𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝 𝔾𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕥𝕙:

* 𝗟𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻 𝗮 𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝗯𝗯𝘆.

* 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸𝘀.

* 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗹 𝘁𝗼 𝗮 𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲.

* 𝗩𝗼𝗹𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆.

* 𝗦𝗽𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀.

* 𝗣𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝘆.

ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕣 & 𝔽𝕚𝕟𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕖:

* 𝗚𝗲𝘁 𝗼𝗿𝗴𝗮𝗻𝗶𝘇𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲.

* 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘆.

* 𝗥𝗲𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗲 𝗱𝗲𝗯𝘁.

* 𝗜𝗻𝘃𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗿 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗿 𝗱𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗽𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁.

* 𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗮 𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗵𝘂𝘀𝘁𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗿 𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀.

ℝ𝕖𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕡𝕤:

* 𝗦𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗻𝗴𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗳𝗮𝗺𝗶𝗹𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀.

* 𝗕𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀.

* 𝗖𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗲𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗹𝘆.

* 𝗥𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗳𝗹𝗶𝗰𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀.

* 𝗦𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀.

𝕋𝕚𝕡𝕤 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕖𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕠𝕝𝕦𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤:

* 𝗠𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗳𝗶𝗰 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲. 𝗜𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝘀𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 "𝗘𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗲𝗿," 𝘁𝗿𝘆 "𝗘𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝘁 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁 5 𝘀𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗿𝘂𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝗽𝗲𝗿 𝗱𝗮𝘆."

* 𝗠𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗰 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲. 𝗗𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝗼 𝗮𝗺𝗯𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗱𝗶𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻.

* 𝗕𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗺𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗽𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗺 𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗱𝗮𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲.

* 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘆 𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗸.

* 𝗗𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘂𝗽 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗹𝗶𝗽 𝘂𝗽. 𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀. 𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗽𝗶𝗰𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝘂𝗽 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗸𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴.

𝗥𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿, 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗳𝘂𝗹 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴.

𝗚𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝗹𝘂𝗰𝗸.

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