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i am a mistake. i am a complete mistake. i am the regret that people confront. i am a complete waste of time. i ruin peoples lives without ever intending to. this is who i am.

“It kills you slowly, you know? Not being loved.”

- (via @heartbrokenlysurviving)

I hate myself so much

The thing is I know I’m not worthy of friendship, kindness, or even love... but you made me believe that I could be for a moment, and when you left I remembered why I was alone in the first place.

Because I’m a waste of space and energy.

I’m not needed, so why am I still here?

Via (missblack22)

I literally have no fucking clue who I am, sometimes I think I’m a super nice person who has been unfairly treated in life and that everyone should love me but other times I’m convinced I’m the most horrible person in the world who can’t possibly have any real friends and that I deserve all the suffering I’ve gone through as punishment for who I am.

“It’s sad, isn’t it? You grow up thinking that love is some wonderful force that will somehow fix everything wrong in the world. You were taught fairytales and happily ever after’s and about princes and princesses. But no one ever told you that love hurts more often than not. No one tells you the pain of unrequited love or the crying at three in the morning, wondering why you weren’t enough. No one told you the harsh reality of letting go when all you wanted to do was hold on. No one told you the absolute torture of watching someone slowly fall out of love with you. Because no one wants to admit that something that was thought to be so beautiful could go so wrong.”

— The Poetic Boy

Clarice Lispector, from “Miss Algrave”, Soulstorm: Stories (tr. Alexis Levitin)

Self hating right now

Just feeling so empty and lost in my feelings. I feel so stupid to think anyone could like me as much as I like them. Not that I don’t blame them im gross and worthless, anyone could do so much better than me..