Everyone I've Ever Known Has Left Me,

I needed a hug. I needed to cry on someone else’s lap. I needed someone to shrug off all this hate and pain consuming me. But I only had myself. And I was never enough.

Slipping into old familiar ways

That will take me to the same places

Places I don't want to be at

Places that hold my hand right into hell

I watch it happen from the outside

And I let it

Because I don't know another way

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30.12.21

“Before you can love someone else, you must first love yourself.“ Bullshit. I loved you till the bottom of my heart. And while loving you, I had these fresh selfmade cuts on my body.”

— fightingborderline

I hate myself so much

“And on some days, I wake up with this heaviness in my chest. It suffocates me. The anxiety. It is debilitating today.”

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