Latest Posts by amar-hiyar-majhe - Page 8

পৃথিবীতে হয়তো দেখবার যোগ্য লোক পাওয়া যায়, তাকে দেখবার যোগ্য জায়গাটি পাওয়া যায় না।

~শেষের কবিতা - রবীন্দ্রনাথ ঠাকুর

I Forget The Rules of This Game.

'one sided shesher kobita'

i gave you my copy of shesher kobita with little pencil annotates in it. i gave you a piece of literature dear to me and i expected you to give me your heart in return; an unfair trade. although i had put a piece of my heart in the pages of the book —my thoughts—, your eyes saw none of it, your heart read none of it.

plath writes in one of her earlier journal entries — "there is so much hurt in this game of searching for a companion, of testing, trying. And you realize suddenly that you forgot it was a game, and you turn away in tears."

and one day you returned the book, you never showed up again. yes, i forgot the rules of this game. and i forgot that you were good at.

Are you having feelings for someone? Or currently having?

The calligraphy is very nice... 😭👍🏻.. To be honest, no I don't have.. Its been a month I moved on from a dumbass who basically copied my whole accounts paper and scored a full marks (well even i scored the full marks) and not even thanked me for that... It was a four day infatuation and I laugh about that now... Anyways.. If I talk about recent then maybe I have..... developed a crush on someone :))

Your blog is sooo pretty 😍, all those posts with little clips from movies combined with those deep meaningful Bengali phrases , ahaa mon chhuye gelo , bhaggish aapnar blog ta khuje pelam

MY GODDDD!! THANKS A LOT!! I am very much into Bengali things. Moreover I am Bengali and I love my culture a lot... I read Bengali poetry and love to watch Bengali movies etc... Thanks a lot, really.... 😭💗✨

এরা সুখের লাগি চাহে প্রেম, প্রেম মেলে না,

শুধু সুখ চলে যায়,এমনি মায়ার ছলনা।

এরা ভুলে যায়, কারে ছেড়ে কারে চায়।

তাই কেঁদে কাটে নিশি, তাই দহে প্রাণ,

তাই মান অভিমান, তাই এত হায় হায়।

প্রেমে সুখ দুখ ভুলে তবে সুখ পায়।

সখী চলো, গেল নিশি, স্বপন ফুরাল,

মিছে আর কেন বল।

শশী ঘুমের কুহক নিয়ে গেল অস্তাচল।

সখী চলো।

প্রেমের কাহিনী গান, হয়ে গেল অবসান।

এখন কেহ হাসে, কেহ বসে ফেলে অশ্রুজল।

I am in my art class now, my forth year written examination of art got over.. After two weeks I came to my art class.. It is my happy place... Here I do the thing which I love. I have never said no to my art classes just because it is my comfort place...

A cute little girl is sitting in front of me, scribbling in her drawing pad which made me think of me when I used to do such things.. Some other kids are shouting and talking which made me think of me as a kid who used to talk continuously and disturb my sir... Sir is nice, cool too.. Happy place I told you...

Some kids have become grown ups.. They are taking advice from me regarding art works.... Made me feel proud..

Some kids are running around and playing with their drawing.... (Sir is not in the room so critical scenario) They will get scolding for sure...

This current situation made me think of this song.. (Not relatable at all... don't blame me, blame my brain...)

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in askbox for the last 5 people who reblogged something from you ! get to know your mutuals and followers. ❤️

Five things.. quite difficult to say

To be polite with everyone and listen to the advice given by random people

To write blogs while listening to songs

To have coffee while reading

To have food (delicious obviously)

To roam around Kolkata everyday..

I would like to add two more :)

To dance in my terrace

To paint

फिर ले आया दिल मजबूर क्या कीजे

रास न आया रहना दूर क्या कीजे

दिल कह रहा उसे मुकम्मल कर भी आओ

वो जो अधूरी सी बात बाकी है

वो जो अधूरी सी याद बाकी है

वो जो अधूरी सी याद बाकी है

करते हैं हम आज कुबूल क्या कीजे

हो गयी थी जो हमसे भूल क्या कीजे

दिल कह रहा उसे मयस्सर कर भी आओ

वो जो दबी सी आस बाकी है

वो जो दबी सी आंच बाकी है

वो जो दबी सी आंच बाकी है

वो जो दबी सी.. आंच बाकी है

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हम सबको एक रोज़ एक दूसरे के लिए कविता लिखनी चाहिए।

डाकघर जाकर प्रेमपत्रों की मदद करनी चाहिए।

होस्टल की किसी मेज पर अकेले बैठे व्यक्ति को टोक कर उससे बातें करनी चाहिए।

मिलने की जगह तलाशते दो लोगों के लिए धरती पर पाँव भर ज़मीन ही सही पर अलग नाम कर देनी चाहिए।

किसी विद्रोह में हक के लिए जलाई गई एक आग- गाँव में बुझते चूल्हों में जिंदा होनी चाहिए।

हमारे बच्चे मासूम हैं अभी सब बचे न बचे मुल्क में उनके लिए उम्मीद बचनी चाहिए।

basically its better not to defend yourself when the person who is in front of you will never understand his/her fault... I don't understand one thing and that is, do they forget what they have said or they just simply ignore the fact that they have said something which is damaging... In Bengali we say "kothaye kotha bare which means the more the talk, the more will be the quarrel"

So its better to maintain peace, which will be beneficial for yourself and for the situation too... And according to Abhisara "when the time is ripe, I will come to you".. They will also come and say sorry to you... I have faced these things when I was only 15, I waited for things to be better and after 6months the neighbors understood their fault and apologized to me for spreading horrendous rumors which were not true...

I have a terrible habit of leaving things unsaid for the sake of peace

exam officially got over yesterday. As usual I installed Instagram and the first thing I did was to open the profile of Shreya Chatterjee.. (Usually th first thing I do is open tumblr to check on the only friend I have in tumblr.. after that I had a bad event so). Scrolling through her profile makes me feel so calm and drifts me away from all my overthinkings and insecurities... Her poems, her photographs, her spotify playlist everything is on point...

To have a profile like her is also my wish... I have found out that Shreya Di and me are quite similar in some stages, for example we both love our culture, we love all the languages and traditions of our country, the way we think is also quite similar... Her profile is so aesthetic and cozy it really makes me feel good! Yesterday I spent hours on her profile.. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I laughed seeing her feed..(I was also going through something and as soon as I opened her account i started crying anyways.. No emotional talks)... I really admire her...

With Love,

Hiya~

My playlist of bangla gaan.....

oi building ta te jodi ekbar jete pari, tahole mone korbo, I am living a srijit mukherjee film...

একলা মনের রিকশা চলে

দমকা প্রেমের গল্প বলে

শুকনো পাতার সন্ধ্যেবেলার গান

কোন হরিণের দুষ্টু ছায়ায়

খেলনা দোকান ডাকছে রে আয়

ভুল করেছি আর যাবো না

মিথ্যে মায়ায় চমকাবো না......

Anirban Bhattacharya is my favorite actor from the tollywood... But here the best acting was/is done by Jishu Sengupta....

This is my second time watching "Dawshom Awbotaar" and still I am drooling over anirban bhattacharya... 🍂🌷

আমার সঙ্গে ঈশ্বর কথা বলেন

তোমার সঙ্গে ঈশ্বর কথা বলেন

তারপর এসে ডেকে নিয়ে যান রাতে

তার নীচু স্বরে আদেশ শুনতে পাই

স্মৃতি পার করে চাহিদার সীমানাতে

যাও চলে, দাও শরীরে আমাকে ঠাঁই!

নিজেকে পোড়াও আগুনের মতো রেগে

বড়ো ছায়া দাও, আমিও খানিক চলি...

মুগ্ধতা থাক ত্রাসের আঙুল ধরে —

সুন্দর যাক, ভয়ঙ্করের কোলে।

যেও তুমি সোজা, থেমো না কখনও

জেনো, চূড়ান্ত বলে কোনো অনুভূতি নেই

শুধু দেখো, যেন আমার এ রাস্তা দিয়ে

হেঁটে যেতে গিয়ে, হারিয়ো না আমাকেই...

I think I have to start practicing dance in order to improve myself and stay out worthless distractions..

I still remember I used to dance in my terrace and my neighbours used watch and say "minu, tor naach dekhle amader bikel bela ta khub bhalo bhabe kete jaye re, ekta shanti ashe mone"

The tinkling of my ghunghur and payel makes me satisfied... Will have to start again...

✨🍂

আচ্ছা, তোমার কি মতামত- কোনটা বেশি সহজ, কিছু ভেঙে ফেলা নাকি নতুন করে তৈরি করা?

আমার মতে সব থেকে সহজ কাজ হচ্ছে, সব ভেঙে ফেলা ৷

ভাবছো- কেন?

কারণ আমরা সবাই ভিতু ৷ আমরা সব কিছু ভাঙতে ভালোবাসি ৷ ওটা অনেক সহজ..... খাটনি কম ৷

প্রেম

সেই প্রেম, হাতিবাগানের বন্ধ হয়ে যাওয়া, দেওয়ালে নুনের দাগ ধরা পুরোনো সিনেমাহলের মত, যার উই ধরা কোনো একটা সীটে তোমার আমার নাম কম্পাসে খোদাই করে রাখা.... যেটা ভেঙে ফেলার কথা হচ্ছে সরকারি উদ্যোগ নিয়ে... যার সামনের কৃষ্ণচূড়া গাছে বহুদিন ফুল হয়না আর। আচ্ছা, সবাই সবকিছু ভেঙে ফেলতে চায় কেন?

Yesterday I was reading "Chokher Bali" By Rabindra Nath Thakur...

The way rabi thakur described how to make love, how to make someone feel wanted, how to make someone feel loved... He even described the intimate parts so purely that it will not make you feel uncomfortable... His knowledge of word play is so nice....

My goodness, A lot is left to read... Its really a good story....

📖✨

Aise Kyun~

Uske hootho pe~

Accha lagta hai~

Mera naam....

अच्छा होता जो तुझे दिल ना देती

अगर दिल दिया तो इतनी ढील न देती,

तेरी जगह जो कोई और होता

तो कसम रब की उसे छिल ना देती l

theatre dekhte jawar partner chai..🌷

Ice cream date chahiye

A sudden feeling

today is 30th January... I am sitting in my bathroom writing this while my mom is listening to masakali.. And it is very much audible from the bathroom as the sound is quite high..

anyways.. I am feeling very low these days.. I overthink a lot.. And overthinking helps me to actually know the whole truth because whenever I overthink about something it turns into reality... Moreover, this blog is the result of my overthinking...

Being neglected by the people I basically love to hangout with, talk to, has been a habit for me because I know that I will lose them.. But still I don't hurt them.... Okay so now my mom is playing shishe se shisha takraye...

Anyways feeling a little bit better after writing the feelings which I kept in my heart for like a week maybe.... A two day or one day trip to shantiniketan can give my soul a little bit of shanti now.. Hey Rabindra Nath come and take me out of this one sided "shesher kobita" phase.. Anyways bye... Don't feel uneasy to judge me.. Because I am judged by every single human being... If anybody can relate my current condition, do comment... (I don't even know if I will post this but still)

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(Posted today itself XD)

"~मालती गुन्धाय केश प्यारे घुघुवारे मुख दामिनी-सी दमकत चाल मतवारी~"

a blog is not about writing personal stuff but to be honest a very proud moment happened with me when I was in class 6.

I performed with The God of Kathak Late Guruji Birju Maharaj.... The moment when I got up on stage I was shivering.. He taught the dance moves in the most easiest way.... One of his favorite student also assisted...

I often don't disclose my proud moments but I had to write it down...

thank you for the tag - @hashi-thatta

last song - Nadiyon sa (Mitraz)

favorite color - red, white and blue

last movie - jaatiswar (the reincarnate)

last series - tungkulung e Eken Babu

sweet/savory/spicy - I like sweet things spice tolerance is very low

last thing I googled - give sums on final accounts and solve them (lol)

current obssession - Dunki and Dwitiyo Purush

last book - chokher bali by Rabindranath Thakur

looking forward - to be a better human being, to pass my exams nicely, to have a boyfriend (no issues it will never happen), to sleep and get rid of my exams quickly...

tagging people

@kabhi-kabhi-aditya @hum-aapke-koi-nahi @nainachoudhary @rajashreeghoshh @shyam-kariya @ok-jaanu

thx @ghiblilesb for that tag!!

last song: and one - dancing in the factory

favorite color: pastel lavender

last movie/tv show: I started watching journey to bethlehem last year but couldn't finish bc of my workload tsk tsk....

sweet/savory/spicy but at this moment im craving croissants тот

last thing I googled: kalpalata farm route... i hate genshin for this

current obsession: yuzuru hanyu

last book: reread phantom of the opera for my course paper 100/10 experience

looking forward to: finally relaxing after this semester whaddahell my 9 days break starts tomorrow yippee!!

tagging with no pressure obvi: @slavic-roots-western-mind @dinosaurguts @osondu-imafidon @desmoonl @khalixvitae and anyone else who wants to join in

যেমন জড়িয়েছিলে ঘুম ঘুম বরফ মাসে

আমিও খুঁজি তোমায় আমার আশেপাশে,

আবার সন্ধ্যে বেলা ফিরে যাওয়া জাহাজ বাঁশি

বুকে পাথর রাখা আর মুখে রাখা হাসি,

যে যার নিজের দেশে,

আমরা স্রোত কুড়োতে যাই।

যেভাবে জলদি হাত মেখেছে ভাত,

নতুন আলুর খোসা আর এই ভালবাসা।

আমার দেয়াল-ঘড়ি কাঁটায় তুমি লেগে আছো

আমার দেয়ালঘড়ি কাঁটায় তুমি লেগে আছো।

okay so lemme reveal... it was saraswati puja, me in blue saree, it was evening, I was sitting quietly on the stairs of the house where the puja was taking place, the guy who liked me came to me, looked at me and said " tumi saree porecho (you wore a saree)", he sat beside me, we spoke, no physical things happened, he looked at me with his eyes full of love, then he sang "abhi na jao chodkar ke dil abhi bhara nahi"...... Ahhhhaaa, I will never be able to forget this because I have never had such a beautiful romantic incident in my life.. It was 5th of February 2022 ..... 💌✨🎡

YEAH SEX IS COOL BUT HAVE YOU EVER HAD SOMEBODY GIVE YOU A BUNCH OF LITTLE KISSES ALL OVER YOUR FACE UNTIL YOU'RE GIGGLING AND BLUSHING BECAUSE THAT IS PEAK

she has suffered a lot. Nobody was good to her... She deserved the world... I can feel you Sylvia... I can...

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when sylvia plath said “i need a father, i need a mother, i need some older, wiser being to cry to. i talk to God but the sky is empty”

kuch baaten hai huzoor jo sirf "pyaar" shabdh ko behetareen tariko se dohoratein hai aur aapne kalam se kitaabon mein likh dete hai.. Pyaar hi hota hai, sirf pyaar, aur pyaar...... aur kucch nahi..

when Nasir Kazmi said “tere qarib reh ke bhi dil mutmain na tha/ guzri hai mujh pe ye bhi qayamat kabhi kabhi” and when Ahmad Faraz wrote “faraz aise bhi lamhe kabhi kabhi aae/ ke dil-girafta rahe dilruba ke hote hue”

Tumi shondharo meghomala

Tumi amar sadhero sadhona

@callonpeevesie @medusasprotegedaughter @beingdevipdf @shaonsim @mitraavarunaa hehe check it out.

one fine evening (better to say night), I was humming "জীবন যখন ছিল ফুলের মতো পাপড়ি তাহার ছিল শত শত" of Kobiguru Rabindranath Thakur..

when I sang the line "বসন্তে সে হ'ত যখন দাতা ঝরিয়ে দিত দু-চারটি তার পাতা..." my baba came to me and said, "beta, tui eto bhalo gaan korish, gaan ta chaliye jetei partish"

That moment I felt je "gaan ta ami khub bhaloi gaayi". My baba is a person of perfection and he is not like those jara sobh somoye for every little thing lok ke praise kore.. So I felt glad when my father told me that. He never praise me that much... So it made me feel a little proud about myself...

ছুঁয়ে দিলে মন-বিনা বেজে ওঠে যে

দে ভিজিয়ে শুধু যেন আঁখি না ভেজে,

জানিনা কিভাবে তোকে বলি এ আমি

কত রাগই থেকে যাবে হয়ে বেনামী।

মরমিয়া মন, মানেনা এখন

কেন সে বাওয়ারা,

রং মেশায় দিন রাতে

এ দু’চোখেরই দরিয়াতে,

কে আর তুই ছাড়া ....

লাগে না, লাগে না

আজ জিয়া তুই ছাড়া,

🛺🦢📃🌼🥥🪔🎡🐚

etota thik bola uchit noye!! 🌼✨👍🏻 kintu uchit!!

রাম ফিরিয়া আসি দেখে দেশ জ্বলে দ্বেষানলে,

তার নামে মিথ্যাচার চলে স্থলে স্থলে।

নিজমূর্তির মুখমণ্ডল দম্ভ শোভায় হাসে,

রামরাজ্যের প্রজা মত্ত রামধর্ম বিনাশে।

এ দেখি ভূমিজা দেবী রাঘবেরে কহে,

দেব হয়েছ প্রিয়, ভগবান এই দশা যুগে যুগে সহে।

ধর্মরক্ষা করতে ভক্ত মাতে বারে বারে,

কর্ণপাত করে নাহি দেবতার হাহাকারে।

True ekdom true!! 📖📚✨

indeed there is a huge similarity... Studying with the person you love is the best thing. 😭🌸...

Satyajit Ray was way ahead of us.. Hirok Rajar Deshe is one of the most prominant evidence left by him..

The Scent of Green Papaya, 1993

Apur Sansar (The World of Apu), 1959

there are some days when you have nothing to write about, nothing to talk about. Just you sitting quietly, listening to music, doing pending assignments and other stuffs.

You just don't have much to say. All you say is "fine" , "thik ache" , "accha" , "na korbona" etc.

To be honest, the above mentioned things are the most boring side of us, where we are just being "we" or "us". And we honestly cherish those boring side of us which others don't. And Its better to be fine with that.

Listening to this gives me comfort...