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Tagged 10 Musics

Got tagged by the awesome @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city to post the 10 songs I’ve been listening to constantly as of late (in no particular order):

1. “Chant” by Hadestown Original Broadway Cast Recording

2. “Say My Name” by Beetlejuice Original Broadway Cast Recording

3. “Ex-Wives” by SIX Studio Cast Recording

4. “Starlight Brigade (feat. Dan Avidan)” by TWRP

5. “everything i wanted” by Billie Eilish

6. “Light & Shadow (feat. Gemie)” by Hiroyuki Sawano/League of Legends

7. “Istanbul” by They Might be Giants

8. “Music Box” by MALINDA

9. “Dancing in the Moonlight” by King Harvest

10. “Youngblood” by 5 Seconds of Summer

So, basically, 30% Musicals, random Alternative Rock, and some random I don’t know what to call it xD

Tag to anyone who wants to participate :)

Pink as a Tragedy

SPOILERS!

I just saw the latest Steven Universe special (so many awesome moments) but by far the best one was finally getting to see Pink Diamond!

I’m sure everyone caught on to how much of a brat the little diamond was (though given her privileged status as diamond, it’s not that surprising). I’d venture to say that she was pretty young (by gem standards) and thus fairly immature. 

Which is probably one of the reasons her death was such an incredible tragedy and blow to the other diamonds.

She was young. 

Probably still a child in their eyes. And it would seem that even for gems, the idea of a child being killed, and in this case, brutally murdered (as far as we know), is an incredibly horrific act. It’s no wonder why Blue and Yellow are still deeply affected by Pink’s death; she was just a kid. She hadn’t even begun to live out her destiny. 

Given Yellow’s exchange with Pink in this episode and previous reactions to mentions of the incident, I’d like to think that Yellow blames herself (in part) for Pink’s demise. Pink was too young, inexperienced, and not mature enough to handle a colony. She was given too much power too soon; she wasn’t ready for such an incredible responsibility and probably wasn’t able to run the colonization as efficiently as her fellow diamonds could have. No doubt if Yellow had been in charge of invading Earth, none of the things in the series would have happened. 

But they did.

Pink was killed, the colony failed, and it’s been haunting the diamonds ever since. All because they indulged a spoiled child and failed to protect her when it mattered most.

What part of...

... “I don’t want kids,” does no one understand?

Seriously, I am getting so sick of having to reiterate myself to people when I tell them I don’t want kids and they insist I’ll change my mind. 

I especially find it strange that they never ask about whether I want to get married (and they most certainly never think of the implications if I were to marry a woman - which for the record, I am straight, but I’m assuming that they’re assuming that even if I was gay I would find a way to have kids anyway).

It just makes me wonder if men ever have to deal with this or if it’s purely sexual stereotyping on women, even though we are in the 21st century.

So let me make it clear: just because I am a woman and I do want to get married someday does not mean I want to have kids.

Nor, in this advanced and liberated and non-apocalyptic (meaning there’s not a shortage of human beings populating the Earth) should it still be assumed/encouraged/pressured upon by women to have kids at all! In an age of casual sex, pro-choice, and lack of a zombie breakout, why is it that people assume that all women will want to have kids? (apparently regardless of whether or not they state they want to get married or what their sexual orientation is, as I mentioned earlier).

Personally, I don’t want kids. And to be clear, it’s not because I hate them. 

I actually do like kids and in my chosen field of work, I interact with a lot of them on a daily basis. But just because I like kids and I’m good with them shouldn’t mean that I automatically want any of my own.

For me, having kids would mean giving up all of my dreams. I have plans and goals and aspirations: for my art, my writing, and my career. 

I know myself well enough to understand that I put 200% of my energy into the things that matter to me. Which means for me, if I were to have kids, I would be devoting all of my time to them, leaving no room for my art, my writing, or my career.

And I don’t want that.

Which might sound selfish, but am I really being selfish to hypothetical kids that don’t even exist?

Yes, I want to create art and literature and environments where children can learn, grow, and be inspired by, but that shouldn’t mean that I need to have any of my own.

Somehow, it seems that declaring you don’t want kids is something that must be rectified by those around you (and yet, declaring you never want to get married isn’t as looked down upon).

Now, to be fair, most of the interactions I’ve had that inspired this was with generations older than me and primarily those people were from... certain areas of the country. But I’ve still had people from all over tell me I’ll change my mind and that just irks me to no end.

In conclusion...

I DON’T WANT KIDS AND IT’S WRONG OF PEOPLE TO TRY AND PRESSURE ME INTO CHANGING MY MIND!

So am I the only one who’s had this problem or are there other people out there that are just as fed up as I am?

Some of my favorite posts here on Tumblr:

Was challenged by @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city . Most of mine are actually a little off because I tend to insert OCs in my fanfics 😅

Some of My Favorite Autistic (or ASD coded) Characters : Girls

Mirabel Madrigal - Encanto (2021)

Parker - Leverage (2008)

Webbigail "Webby" Vanderquack - Ducktales (2017)

Kaywinnet Lee "Kaylee" Frye - Firefly (2002)

Dr. Temperance "Bones" Brennan, Ph.D. - Bones (2005)

Peridot - Steven Universe (2013)

Lilo - Lilo and Stitch (2002)

Entrapta - She-Ra and the Princesses of Power (2018)

Rosa Díaz - Brooklyn Nine-Nine (2013)

Bella Brown - This Beautiful Fantastic (2016)

Princess Luna - My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (2010)

Lunella Lafayette aka Moon Girl - Moon Girl and Devil Dinosaur (2023)

Yor Forger - Spy x Family (2019)

Maomao - The Apothecary Diaries (2011)

Marcy Wu - Amphibia (2019)

Elle Woods - Legally Blonde (2001)

Being AuDHD means I have sensitivity when it comes to food. To the point where growing up I was considered (in a negative way) to be a picky eater. To the point where I was shamed and borderline traumatized for it.

I also grew up in a household that insisted that no food should go to waste. That meant tons of tiny portions being saved in the fridge (should also be noted that leftovers give me the ick for reasons I can’t articulate - and now I realize I have no obligation to do so). It also meant food that was bought on a whim would stay in the house for YEARS.

As an adult, it’s taken me quite a bit of time to realize that just because something was done a certain way in my parents house, does not mean that I, as a grown adult with her own home, have to do it that way as well.

Which means, if I went out of my way to treat myself to stuff from Trader Joe’s (which is quite a feat given where my nearest stores are located and the very poor parking situations each one has), and got a bunch of food there but ended up either getting an upset stomach from it or just not liking how it tasted, I am under no obligation to keep said food.

Did I end up wasting money on that trip? Yes. Did I end up wasting food because of it? Yes. But is it my obligation to keep said food in the house despite the fact that I’m the only person living there and will never eat it? No. And should I feel guilty for throwing it away? Maybe a little? But only for a few minutes. Because it’s certainly not something I should lose sleep over. Of all the moral conundrums going on in my life, this one should not be causing me anxiety, especially when I have so many other things I get to be anxious about.

Part of my ND healing journey is about learning to be kinder to myself, because I’ve spent my life trying to be accommodating to people’s perspective on how I should live MY LIFE.

I’ve been made to feel that MY WANTS, MY NEEDS, are not correct and thus not acceptable. That I shouldn’t be allowed to listen to my body and make decisions based on what it tells me, even if those choices seem wrong to someone else.

My life, my rules.

And as long as I’m not putting myself or someone else in danger, people should just accept that and BACK OFF.

Just a random peeve of mine I discovered:

I think guys that are of average height but lanky with pianist hands, prominent cheekbones, soulful brown eyes, soft tenor voices, and who are studying Neural Engineering shouldn’t be allowed to work at the Genius Bar at Apple stores…at least not when they’re fixing on my malfunctioning iPad.

Seriously, it’s not fair that a guy I would have dreamed up to be the perfect love interest in one of my stories actually shows up in real life.

Movie Tag!

Tagged by @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city

Name one move release for each year of your life:

rules: list movies you’ve seen according to their release dates each year you’ve been alive

1989 - Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade

1990 - Kiki's Delivery Service

1991 - Beauty and the Beast

1992 - Aladdin

1993 - Hocus Pocus

1994 - The Swan Princess

1995 - Sabrina

1996 - Sense and Sensibility

1997 - Princess Mononoke

1998 - The Prince of Egypt

1999 - The Mummy

2000 - Miss Congeniality

2001 - Lara Croft: Tomb Raider

2002 - Star Wars: Episode II Attack of the Clones

2003 - Peter Pan

2004 - The Phantom of the Opera

2005 - Corpse Bride

2006 - Last Holiday

2007 - Miss Potter

2008 - Wall-E

2009 - Sherlock Holmes

2010 - Knight and Day

2011 - Captain America: The First Avenger

2012 - Rise of the Guardians

2013 - Star Trek: Into Darkness

2014 - Dracula Untold

2015 - Strange Magic

2016 - Kubo and the Two Strings

2017 - Coco

2018 - This Beautiful Fantastic

2019 - Spies in Disguise

2020 - Over the Moon

2021 - Black Widow

(2015 was so hard to decide, so many of my favorite movies came out that year. And then 2019 was super sparse xD )

Who wouldn’t want to get married in one of these? 😍

sailor moon wedding dress collection supervised  by naoko