This Actually Is Rewiring My Brain As We Speak

something I do to trigger the “switch”

I go on the treadmill, put some music on OR watch something (super size vs skinny, ed wieiad, ed movies/shows, etc) and walk.. if I’m listening to a playlist then I’ll go on my phone and either scroll on tumblr or go online shopping and add the clothes I want to wear when I reach my gw. Hope this helps somehow 🤍🤍

its not even about being skinny. its about control, comfort and hurting myself. its about wanting to be tiny, like the way i never was since i was a child.

Losing weight is hard.

Being fat is hard.

Choose your hard

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I started this blog because I need to get back to the point when I was thin. I was accepted by society when that happened. A lot of good things happened for me.

When I "recovered," society saw me as fat and tossed me aside.

Society doesn't like fat people. So I'll become thin for a better life.

Because I deserve that.

Rules to prevent it from going too far

🌹Don’t lower your goal weight. Ever. Don’t forget that it’s enough.

🥀 When your stomach passes the flat point and starts caving in you’ve gone to far and you need to stop that shit.

🌷If you’re passing out at work you need to eat more.

🌺 If it’s too hard to lift normal things such as milk jug, PlayStation, table chairs, you need more calories.

🌸 Don’t work out every day of the week.

🏵️ When you find yourself saying “fuck this” and eating everything in your house, you’re restricting too hard.

🌻 Always drink lots of water throughout the day whether or not you’re fasting.

🌼 Keep in mind that you may gain and loose the same 3 lbs of water or food weight throughout the week and it’s not fat.

💮 If you really feel the need to eat, eat. And don’t feel bad about it.

Please add more 💐

Skinny fingers, skinny waist, skinny legs in leggings

Motivational quotes🌸✨

TW: ED, don’t read if you’re recovering.

These are just some phrases that have helped me to stay focused on my goal. My favorite ones are written in bold. enjoy 🙌🏻

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“Hunger is the first element of self-discipline. If you can control what you eat and drink, you can control everything else.”

- Dr. Umar Faruq Abd-Allah