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sleeping in bed with my copy of young mungo tonight like it’s a cuddly toy

'jack has family in santa fe' 'jack was born in santa fe' 'jack has some kind of tragic relation to santa fe' no no NO you dont UNDERSTAND jacks santa fe isn't REAL!!! NONE OF IT IS!!! jack yearns for santa fe BECAUSE he has no connection to it!!! he has no expectations of it at all, he just found a place that was as opposite to new york as he could imagine and pinned all his hopes on it, THAT'S THE TRAGEDY OF IT ALL!!! if jack did go to santa fe, he'd realize all too quickly that this was not the fantasy he built up in his head. he will always feel out of place wherever he goes because the thing he's running from is a piece of himself that he has to reckon with, that's the whole point!! family isn't something he'll just stumble upon by chance, it's something he has to be brave enough to make for himself. his santa fe could've been ANYWHERE. thats why "i'm dead if i can't count on you today" was so gut-wrenching, because he CAN'T count on santa fe. ever. IT'S NOT REAL.

Smile, kid, smile. The thing that makes us humans

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post battle routine

aaron minyard they could never make me hate you <333

GOD.

LOOK AT HIM.

LOOK.

i am going to throw up

korn is sooo much about being traumatized and the feelings that come with that shame rage self-hatred helplesness. It's also about da boom a da boom a de get your boogie on but mostly that other thing

My piece(s) for @aftgbigbang based on @hemmicknicky ‘s summer camp fic :D