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ADHD and Navigating Healthcare Systems
I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: navigating the US healthcare system is a Kafkaesque executive dysfunction nightmare: -2019 GYN appointment: given a referral for an ultrasound and mammogram. This was before I was taking medication for my ADHD, and I didn’t even know who to call to make an appointment, so my referral paper sat on my table until the referral literally expired. *insert feelings of shame*
-Put off scheduling my 2020 annual GYN appointment for months, because of the pandemic.
-Executive functioning struggles have prevented me from scheduling my appointment until recently, because my medication dosage needed to be increased, and I’ve been really busy.
-Given a referral for that same ultrasound, but at least I was provided additional information about who to call this time.
-Call to schedule radiology appointment as soon as I got home from appointment (higher medication dosage helps immensely with executive functioning).
-Sat on hold for 20 minutes.
-Receptionist, whose phone is crackling and I can only hear every other word she’s saying, tells me, verbatim, “your mammogram referral can’t be written this way. It has to be written differently.”
-Me: “What do you mean differently? How should it be written differently?”
-Receptionist: “It can’t be written this way. Your doctor will know how to write it.”
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-Call GYN back and tell them this, with what little information I have, and they tell me that they will have the doctor change it.
-And now…what? I wait? I don’t know how long until they will change it in the system so that I can call the radiologist back. My brain operates like: “now or never, and needs obvious but novel/unexpected visual cues to remember,” so there is a very short window of opportunity here to actually do this.
And people wonder why folks with ADHD struggle to take care of their health. It’s such a nightmare, every time, and any failure to navigate the system makes you feel incompetent and ashamed.
do you ever just regret making something
Honestly this has to be one of the best Hawks fanfics I’ve ever read. I’ve reread it countless times and I honestly can’t believe I haven’t reposted it. Kudos to the author for this amazing piece of work!
Interchangeable
Bully!College AU!Hawks x Reader | 12.2k words
Summary: Hawks is the only person who knows about your suicide attempt. Hawks is also the reason for your suicide attempt. He takes responsibility.
TW’s for suicide, depression, angst, guilt
I can’t call this a yandere story despite it being linked to Intertwined. There’s only perhaps two things that you could say are “yandere”,Hawks actually cleans up his act in this one. It’s a little more traditionally romantic.
IMPORTANT Story note, read fully: This won’t make much sense if you haven’t read Intertwined. this is not a chronological sequel to Intertwined, it’s more like another route that could’ve been taken. What I recommend doing is rereading up to the point where reader is phoning her parents about moving colleges, as this is where -for this fic- Intertwined stops and Interchangeable begins. You can read this without any of the yandere stuff, technically.
For those of us not wanting to reread, Hawks is at the point where he is still bullying the reader. The container incident hasn’t happened, Hawks hasn’t confessed his feelings.
We also assume a couple of things about the reader from Intertwined, we assume she’s depressed and that it’s at least partly due to Hawks.
Not so important A/N: the alternate summary for this is “Hawks daddy-doms you into getting better”. but there’s no daddy kink I swear. There is also no smut! Squeaky clean, as Jesus intended. I just wanna rip your heart out a little, that’s all.
this is awkward and im sorry that i can’t write angst or conventional romance. really bros… im just practising
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Alone in your apartment, you sat in the bathroom, still dressed in your pyjamas as you listened to the tap dripping into the sink.
This was the dead end.
You couldn’t move colleges, only drop out and abandon the scholarship.
With a sense of self worth that had been deteriorating over the past seven years, you were left to bask in hatred and misery from your situation. There was no way you could stand another day of torment; your own humiliation from not being able to avoid it and the voice that perpetually mocked you.
You fiddled with the cuff of your pyjama bottoms. You were wasting time.
Nothing ever seemed to feel like it was worth doing. You’d constantly find yourself giving up in the middle of tasks or simply not taking them on at all, resorting yourself to lying in bed or pausing, standing there and waiting for motivation that never came. But this, this was doable.
When you looked over to the digital clock perched on your bathroom cabinet, you deduced that you were supposed to be at a lecture in five minutes. You weren’t going to go.
Just a little longer.
No note. Let them wonder.
You got up and opened the cabinet.
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“Can you call her? Text her?”
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How ironic that the one with wings is the hero with the least freedom...
“I’m not so simple I’m too young, my body’s the only grown up”
- 병 by BTS
I know it's sand but I want to eat it
No Love to Hide
yandere hawks x reader, past enji x reader
summary; trading one god for another is like trading poisons; hawks may be sweeter but he’s so much worse
a/n; technically this is a sequel to this fic but also like i feel like u can read this on its own pretty okay
tw; mentions of rape, kidnapping
word count; 4.2k
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The gods are selfish. They don’t mean to be, but when your existence spans millennia, it’s hard to think of how one decision will affect a mortal’s life. An ant has no quarrel with a boot.
The gods are selfish, you know this firsthand. A god stole your childhood from you, forced you from the bright flirtations of youth to the heavy responsibilities of adulthood far too soon, ripped your mortality from you like plucking a particularly beautiful bloom.
Poseidon may have stolen your life, but you built it back. You created a haven, a safe house, an asylum for persecuted women to flee for. The refuge you wish you had been able to flee to, when Enji first came into your life.
Another god had taken it all from you. Or rather, had taken you from it, but it didn’t really matter. Nothing did, anymore.
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Amans Avaritia Chapter 2
Chapter Summary: You meet prince Hawks, Keigo Takami, and find out there’s more to him than you originally expected…
Masterlist
Read the whole fic on ao3!
a/n: Chapter 2 is finally here, I’m so sorry it’s taken over a month for me to update it, but I’m super proud, and I hope you enjoy!
Preview:
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HEY, GUYS, LISTEN UP. This is the most important post I’ll ever be making so please read it
@just-some-spoopy-shit said I could make them a one note a day post.
They’ve been feeling suicidal lately and could really use the support. They’re a really great person, and my new friend. I want to help them, they don’t deserve this.
So please, reblog, like, tag as many people as you can.
THIS IS SERIOUS, PLEASE DON’T IGNORE THIS.
Tagging some people to help boost this: @thehugwizard @one-note-one-day @one-note-for-one-day
And some mutuals: @actuallyaprilshxwers @more-like-reyna @whythefuckdoiexist @i-love-books-and-i-cannot-lie @i-am-a-cherry @ice-dispenser @fanvergentinanexistentialcrisis @daughter-of-hades1218 @daughter-of-poseidon-97 @crispnebula @wannabe-santiago @geekyapollokid @my-apollo-gies @thebigqueer @quevens-reblogs @themoosegoes-deanicandothis @reddish-green-personality @poseidons-baby-gurl @chaotic-and-friendly @chasing-the-persea @multi-fandoms-posts @lancetherewriter @aster-tyche @pumpkinghost67 @secret-eden @didnt-want-to-be-a-halfblood @didyouputyournameinthegobi @holding-infinity-and-a-book @damdemigodishness @stars-triumphant @alltheglowingeyess @grace-k-sterling @slytherclaw-lair @fangirling-inc @idiots-of-olympus @sarcasticallywitty15 @solangeloiscanonyay @surebutyourenotnicodiangelo @marvelpjostarwarsobssessed @the-ghost-king @padfootalltheway @awesomegirl72 @nyx-is-festive
I need to try this
“Quarantine had me bored so my stepdad and I made a cat tank that we saw somewhere on reddit”
(Source)
from scifi.inside
Incredible!!!
Patient Zero
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me: its late i had an exam today and i have classes tomorrow i need to slee- my brain: you draw this now or you die
Forbidden grapes
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Let’s hope this stays true!
Biden:
Mail in ballots:
I’m not sure why, but I love these pictures so much!
“Come on Bakugou, let’s race.”
Ahh! Had to add Kiri with his Bakugou. Both pull off motorcycle’s very well.
you guys talk about midoriya being an innocent cinnamon roll...
BUT
BEHOLD:
MY COLLECTION OF TODOROKI TAKING THINGS WAY TOO SERIOUSLY PART 1:
Todoroki really thought Mt. Lady had a heart problem...a heart problem.
and that girls would literally, actually, die if they saw his smile...tbh we all did in s4 with those kids but imma keep that a secret between us
and don’t THINK FOR A GOSH DARN MINUTE I FORGOT ABOIT THE HAND CRUSHER
so anyway in conclusion...Todoroki is just as innocent and takes things way too seriously bc he probably doesn’t even know what he’s doing half the time he’s with his class is just Todoroki
Happy Little Accident - a Hawks (Keigo Takami) drabble
A/N: Not the one I had intended to have out today, think of it as a little “prelude” to the one I really want to write. Just a little tease of Dad! Keigo for you all on this Father’s Day! I hope you enjoy the fluff! <3 <3
“Hey love, what’s this?” Keigo asked as he padded out of the bathroom, the little plastic stick clutched between his hands as his golden eyes stared it, brows furrowed.
“What’s wha—” You inquired as you turned to face him, a sigh eating up the rest of your words as your eyes fell to the item in question. You crossed your arms loosely over your chest as you toed the bedroom carpet. “Sometimes…women just get it in their head’s that they need to take one because they get a little paranoid and so I did.”
“I see.”
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Obsidian and Ivory (Part One)
(1: You Are Here!) (2) (3) (4)
Summary: As a child, Tamaki Amajiki could have grown up to be a piano playing prodigy - until one unpleasant incident in the past killed all his passion for the instrument and permanently drove a wedge between him and his demanding mother.
Tamaki swore he’d never play the piano again, that he’d never want to.
…But that was before he met you.
Warnings: Anxiety, Tamaki’s emotionally manipulative, ableist and abusive mom (I’m so sorry, Tamaki!)
Other than that, this story is mostly pure fluff!
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A comic about an uncomfortable common thread in my familial line
by danial_bhatti
All the Stars {Tamaki Amajiki x Reader} - Chapter 1
Summary: When Fatgum hires a sidekick transferring from America and assigns Tamaki to show her around, Tamaki sees the differences between the two of them and wonders if they are even going to get along? At least she seems like a decent person…right?
A/N: This is the first chapter of fanfiction I am posting after almost 5 years… don’t expect it to be good…
Word count: 1.6 k
Chapter 1 - First Meeting
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midnight ( hawks / f.reader )
surprised my first fic isn’t too yandere but here it is, adapted from an old slash fic i wrote a long time ago for a friend, based off cardlin audio’s asmr video about cinderella. feedback is much appreciated! praying to GOD tumblr doesnt mess up formatting pls pls pls, also lmk if there are any typos i missed! masterlist
2.9k words ↬ “There hasn’t been a ball this month where I couldn’t find you out here by yourself,” Keigo says, forlorn, “The when was easy… hm, as the night grew darker, sure enough, I’d find you here, beneath the moon, and all her stars. No… for you, it was always the other questions that bothered me. Who are you, mysterious girl, who bewitched me so? Why do you stand out like… like a rose among a field of daisies? How do you manage to get me to speak in such pine?”
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I POSTED THIS TO THE WRONG ACCOUNT OOPS
Guess it’ll chill on both my accounts then 🤷🏻♀️
I love eri to pieces I wish I could draw her more she’s deserves all the love
The little list of random things that bring me joy — because you might need something to distract you one day and that something is now a list
I’ve been wanting to make one of these for the longest time because it’ll be easier for me to send stuff to people if I just have like all my favorite shit in one list. I might come back to add more if I feel like it, feel free to reblog this with things that bring you joy too!!
This thread of Japanese mascots getting stuck
This video of people acting out the Monster Hunter cat cooking montage
Cats
Dumb cat
This YouTube series called Old Gays where they have, well, four older gays on to talk about things
UNHhhh which I know I know raunchy humour isn’t for everyone and this is super nsfw but trixie and kaeya genuinely brought me so much joy and I wouldn’t have a personality if it wasn’t for them lmao
The Victorian Way which is like, a historic cookshow with very nice visuals
All of hollow_va’s demon boyfriend role play asmr videos
Laughing foxes
That one reverse mermaid sings Part of Your World clip I’m obsessed with
Fred and Ginger dancing in Swing Time
Unraveled, because bdg is a god
All of Choki’s videos because they are so cozy and nice to watch, you’ll understand when you watch them
I can’t tell you why I think this is the funniest thing other than that I’m a terrible person
A cat getting a massage from piano keys
I’m not sure if this comes with English subs but this is the funniest fucking thing
The “game of darkness” series on Hanae Natsuki’s youtube
This one specific performance of Mr Brightside
This Jersey Boys medley by the mean girls obc
Minecraft foxes, even though I’ve never played mine craft once in my life
This video of Katrina Lenk singing If I Were A Rich Man while playing the violin
She really tried
Just John Mulaney
Victorian time traveller being disappointed for 2 minutes
I show this to my friends regularly and they are annoyed about it
Drag queen teaches you doll history
Shoto is such a clueless yandere and I love it!
Aegis
✂ Pairing: Yandere! Adult! Shouto Todoroki x Reader
✂ Word Count: 1,2k+
✂ Trigger Warnings: Manipulation, possessiveness, mention of kidnapping
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“Your job’s a joke, you’re broke, your love life’s D.O.A. It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear. When it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month, or even your year, but I’ll be there for you.” - I’ll Be There For You [The Rembrandts]
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I don’t want to have sex, but I do want to potentially find my significant other out there. Im just scared he doesn’t exist...
JUST LET ME BE.
This is very interesting!!!
“After 130 years of evading scientists and photographers, the minuscule and ultra-rare South Philippine dwarf kingfisher has finally been photographed”
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Reposting and sending this to my friends XD
Fanfiction Club: The Rules
This idea came to me when I woke up first thing this morning.