Latest Posts by butiwannabea - Page 2

An actual live photograph of my teeth btw

"stress" by yoan capote - made of bronze and concrete

I dont want to be here,

I want to leave,

I dont feel like I can go home now,

I dont want to be outside,

I want to roam outside,

I dont feel like I belong here,

I dont feel like I should be here,

I want to be home,

I wanted to be home hours ago,

I want to sleep,

I dont want to wake up here,

I want to wake up like tomorrow was already over.

kiitos tästä meen nyt nukkumaan

Koitan motivoida itteni menee nukkumaa ni tein tämmösen (sen sijaa et oisin menny nukkumaa)

When I am listening to songs in Finnish or whatever, I often get stuck up on translating some of the words to english. Not like in an "I cant think of a translation" kind of way, but in an "I wonder how translating this like that would affect the flow of the song" kind of way.

Anyways, today I was listening to a song that had the words "olen surullinen", or "I am sad" in English. I noted how the Finnish version is much longer than the English one, that "sad" translates to "surullinen", a much longer word.

Then I that rabbit hole of a thought went a bit further, and I realized that the the Finnish word for "sadness" is much shorter, "suru", even though it is longer in English.

A nice enough thought on its own, but the hole goes deeper. I went on to think about why this is, and realized that in English, the adjective "sad" is the base form from which the language derives the other forms. In Finnish though, the base form is "sadness", which basically is the essence of being sad, the noun, from which the language gets the other words. And from this perspective of having the noun be the base form, being sad could be interpeted as having the essence of being sad. Thats what the "-llinen" ending in "surullinen" (the adjective, the feeling) means, having something or similar.

Not really sure if there is a point to any of this, just reflecting on how different languages "think" and also discovering a part of why translating songs between English and Finnish is so hard.

4) from what I've learned from all the queer spaces I've been in, the boxes dont actually exist and the best spaces are the ones that dont put you into a box, and you kind of forget that the boxes exist in the first place. Straight is just another sexuality, and a queer space that doesnt make a divide between cishet and queer people feels usually the most comfortable. Just people facing each other as people, not as members of a gender or a sexuality.

Now that I read this again it doesnt actually read like an added point to this list, more just me dumping my thoughts. I kinda like it that way.

I'm kind of at a point where the "queer spaces" i feel safest in are the ones that have a pet cishet dude or two hanging around

And to this day I still read it as I shit the gay, and it takes conscious effort to think of it as anything else

Before I knew what istg actually meant, I tried to decipher it by using the first words that I came up with that fit the thing.

What I came up with:

I shit the gay

Before I knew what istg actually meant, I tried to decipher it by using the first words that I came up with that fit the thing.

What I came up with:

I shit the gay

Ooh I've done this too. Some of the ways we had people lying down instead of injury (though im pretty sure we had that too) were basking in the sun on a deck chair, swimming (we obviously didnt have actual water so swimming was done laying down), backing off in fear I think??

If i recall it used to be the hardest to justify someone sitting down constantly (or transitioning from sitting to laying down), but that then makes those the most fruitful for the improv.

Today my students were playing a theatre game called "Sit, Stand, Lie Down" (it is known by other, similar names elsewhere) where characters must perform a scene where someone must always be standing, someone else must be sitting, and someone else must be lying down.

So if a character begins the scene sitting, but then stands, the standing character must sit so every position is filled.

Today there were a few scenes where the way characters would choose "lie down" was always injury. "Oh ow I sprained my ankle," "I tripped on this big rock" etc. and a challenged them to show me a scene where nobody got hurt.

VERY next scene they improvised a cursed mummy's tomb where the curse was somebody always had to be laying down, so if the mummy arose from his sarcophagus, somebody else was cursed to lie down instead.

I was once at one of the busier stops of the 510 bus line (one of the busier lines in Helsinki) and on the stop opposite to me was I think 15 or so people, and iirc only 2 or 3 people were actually under the actual stop (it was like a double sized one)

Peak Finnish behaviour is waiting for a bus and the three people closest to me all standing 2 metres away.

Mind you I was standing basically in the middle of the area. And by a quick calculation we were ~ 17 people.

I thought about something nice to post earlier but i forgog

why the hell did I suddenly gain autism hypersensitivity to all of the fabrics in my clothes????

Like yesterday I was wearing a shirt I've had for around 2 years now, never had a problem with it, in fact its been one of my comfiest shirts until now, but suddenly (in a span of like a day or so) it just became so uncomfortable and I became aware every single point it was touching in my body, and I had to take it off completely (I'm currently rotting in my home so no big deal) but that has never happened to me with any other shirt before.

I'm now wearing my current comfiest shirt #1 and even with this im somewhat feeling everything, not as bad as with the other shirt though.

If spiderman became radioactive and bit someone, would the bitee become spiderman-man?

I woke up with a cold the next day

To me, one of the core finland experiences is walking a long ass distance in the dead of night in freezing temperatures, on a quest to find the nearest bus stop that actually runs this late.

Just did that (still like 40 minutes away from home, but in the relatively warm bus now (bus also an integral part of the experience)) and I haven't felt more finnish in a while.

To me, one of the core finland experiences is walking a long ass distance in the dead of night in freezing temperatures, on a quest to find the nearest bus stop that actually runs this late.

Just did that (still like 40 minutes away from home, but in the relatively warm bus now (bus also an integral part of the experience)) and I haven't felt more finnish in a while.

A reminder to myself and others

I’ve seen a lot of posts on my dash tonight about users who are threatening suicide, with other Tumblr members posting in effort to try to get ahold of them. I think you all should see this:

IF THERE IS EVER A TUMBLR USER WHO HAS POSTED A GOOD-BYE MESSAGE, SUICIDE NOTE, VIDEO, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, PLEASE FOLLOW THIS POST.

1. Scroll to the top of your dashboard.

2. See the circular question mark icon at the top? It’s the third one over from your home symbol. Click on that, and a screen similar to the one in the picture will come up.

3. Where you can type in questions, the box with the magnifying glass at the top, type in the word “suicide.”

4. Click on the first link that shows up. It should say, “Pass the URL of the blog on to us.”

5. Type in the user’s URL and tell Tumblr admin that the user is contemplating suicide and has posted a message indicating that they are going through with it or will be attempting. Hit send! Tumblr administration will perform a number of actions to contact the user and take the necessary steps to prevent the suicide.

TUMBLR: THIS COULD SAVE A USER’S LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE SUICIDE THREATS.

Reblog this to keep other users aware. Suicide isn’t a joke, and neither is someone’s life. If you didn’t know this, someone else may not, either. Pass it on.

Luin ton uutisen ja siellä kokoajan puhuttiin jotain et "Mutta tämä ratkaisu ei nyt ollutkaan oikea", siis mihin ratkaisu, mitä tää edes yrittää ratkaista??

Tai siis siinä jutussa kerran mainittiin et arkkitehdillä oli visio et ne välitilat minkä läpi käveltäis olis ryhmätöille nii läpi kävely ei haittais mut käytävät kirjaimellisesti ajaa samaa virkaa??? Ja vielä paremmin????

Siis ylipäätään aivan järjetön idea, ihan kun kenellekään sitä enää tarvis sanoa.

Kontekstina alkuperäinen uutinen, joka toimii ihan jo itsessään meeminä:

I climbed a tree today.

The trunk of the tree was almost horizontal, so it was hardly climbing. More like just carefully walking up the trunk. It was still scarier than a lot of other tree climbs I have done, since it was snowy and quite slippery.

I still got some decent height out of that tree, as the splitting tree trunk formed some sort of staircase upwards. A really slippy staircase but a staircase none the less.

At a height of a whole 2,5 meters, the view was really nothing of note. I was in the middle of a town centre of sorts, so the view was exactly as grand as on the ground, except I had a bunch of branches in my hair.

like a 5,5/10, It was fun enough but I wouldn't want to spend time up there.

Imagine a world where, if you deadname someone, you legally have to change your own name to that name.

Possibly a better world than our own...

A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.