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warmth

it’s now 3:30 am and i cannot stop thinking. i’ve been thinking about you, me, and us. i’ve thought about the bad times. arguments, our break, and scaring moments where i felt like i was losing you for good. but i’ve also started to think about the good times that knock out the bad. like cuddling in your warmth as the sun goes down, feeling how soft your lips are as they touch mine, and simply hearing your sweet voice. here alone in my bed desperately craving all of it. all of you. wishing right now to have your arms and warmth surrounding me. all i want is you. nothing else but you.

problem

I just add on to all your other problems. I make you down constantly. your life would be so much easier if I wasn't apart of it. you don’t deserve this, you deserve someone better. someone who doesn't add on to your problems. someone who makes you happier not down. you deserve someone who isn't me.

I’m sorry I'm like this but I can't help it. I constantly think of why. why me? why does he love me? and I can never understand why. I'm not good for you. you shouldn't have to deal with this constant pain and burden of having to deal with me. I'm sorry.

M O O D +

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incredible

to fall in love with someone who’s been your best friend since the beginning, could be the best way to fall in love. to be in love with your best friend you feel as if this is the person who you want to be with for the rest of your life. you know how they are when they’re mad, upset, happy, and excited. you get to grow and change with them throughout the years you’ve been friends and till the end. to have a person like that in your life is a blessing, and will give you the most incredible feeling ever. the memories you’ll make with them will just remind you how happy they’ve made you and will just remind how you’re best friend is also the love of your life.

happy thoughts 2017

sometimes when i feel sad i always try to think of positive things, just something to distract me i guess. but this week wasn’t so bad, no crying which is a good thing because usually once a week all my bottled up emotions just burst and i need happy thoughts to take my mind off the crying and how sad i feel. this week has just been one of the best weeks this january, that’s an improvement i guess. it’s just i really hope 2017 will be a good or some what decent year.

Source: @eleanorbandey