Latest Posts by cherry-vanilla-tea - Page 3
i was doing decent today but i had a piece of bread with butter for dinner and even tho im def under 1000 cals i still hate myself
4 kilos away from being underweight 💕
im feeling so impatient rn. I want to be skinny NOWWWWW oh my god
day twenty eight!! so close to actually finishing this yay
yes i would love a bigger thigh gap, i have a small one but i want to have a big enough one that when i stand normally the top of my thighs dont touch
is it weird i want people to be concerned about me
Repost if you're locking in and getting serious this February 💌.ᡣ𐭩˚ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི
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how the FUCK was i 48.6kg this morning when i weighed myself and now im 50.3 i hate metab days. i purged aswell ☹️
cant tell if i want more scars or for them all to go away
don’t ignore me. i’ll die
day twenty seven
i have NOT been keeping up (school sorry gang) but if its food i love, i honestly have a bite but dont let myself have more, or i just pretend something gross is in it ngl
in the phase of fasting where im having intense hunger cramps even when i chug water
im going out with friends the next three weekends, so my plan for food is this week im eating sushi (its low cal) next week im nervous because im going out with my friend who i eat alot of junk food with but i should be fine and not lose progress as long as its only one day and the week after will probably be sushi again so praying i dont gain
overheard my family shit talking me im sorry im not happy and nice when this is the first year anniversary week of my su!cide attempt and i havent eaten anything today? i know they dont know but im so tired i cant cope
this i love baking and making sure my friends eat but when they try and do it back i js say no 😓
-Bitches be cooking enough food to feed a village then not eat any of it.
-I'm bitches.
“you attract what you fear” ahhhh bmi 16 i’m so scared oh noooo ahh
ana = bruising like a peach now apparently
may have outed myself as a rexie today when i said alot of calories was 1000-2000 a day and everyone was like the fuck at your size (im short asf) you should be having atleast 1600 😓 its fine they're concerned but cant do shit
wieiad!!
breakfast- a glass of water
0 cal
lunch- a piece of gum
7 cal
dinner- chicken and rice
200 cal
purged dinner, so -200 cal and exercised for 2 hours which was -576 cal
in total, 7+200=207-776=-569
gonna try to eat as little as possible tmrw without dying
THIS BECAUSE WHY ARE PROTEIN BARS LIKE THREE QUID
starving is surprisingly expensive
lowcal alternatives, water enhancers, multivitamins, etc
having to scrape myself out of bed cuz i have no mf energy im so fucking tired
i do not give a fuck if splenda is giving me cancer it’s chemicals or jumping out my window so i think i’m choosing the better option
i don't understand chemistry at all so excited to fail another test ☺️ the brain fog is unfortunately very real
FAT LAST LONGER THAT FLAVOUR
DO NOT FAIL YOURSELF AGAIN.
i hate myself i wish i was a skeleton
ok any other asians with ana bc chinese new year is KILLING me
i hate myself and i hate binging
rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious
i feel so stupid talking about my issues compared to my friends. like, i cant eat food without having a breakdown and my mind wanders whenever i see something sharp, but every time i try and talk about it i sound idiotic