With How Much Farwell, My Turnabout Is Centered Around Suicide, The Fact That Matt Canonically Self Harmed

With how much Farwell, My Turnabout is centered around suicide, the fact that Matt canonically self harmed ( re; scratching his face up during his breakdown) and how it's implied his initial scar may have been self-inflicted is rarely brought up in discussion drives me bonkers. It seems like such an important facet of his character and is so thematically relevant, like I know how generally hated Matt is but him being the culprit doesn't negate any of this, in fact in my opinion it only strengthens it.

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2 years ago

‘desiree and engarde are siblings and it just never comes up’ remains the funniest ace attorney headcanon because absolutely nothing in canon contradicts it but it’s so obviously completely unintentional. like it is a complete coincidence that these two implied-french brunette biker shopaholic criminals who look similar and have the same colour scheme not only live in the same city but both know phoenix wright. the concept of desiree casually mentioning that phoenix actually represented her little brother last year and phoenix having a come-to-god realisation is killing me

11 months ago
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1 year ago

PJO EP 6 SPOILERS

“We know who stole the lightning bolt”

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10 months ago

hi bllk tumblr i am returning with more kunigiri angst. (manga spoilers)

so like i am a massive loveless fan and i think their song haunting me is SOOO good in terms of a kunigami pov song post-wildcard. like here here look at some of my favorite lyrics yes?

I could climb another mountain

I could swim another sea

Fall apart again if you were next to me

'Cause it was all for you

It's a brand new day

But I can't even think straight

Got a taste of the bitter in me

Now I keep it just to feel complete

Wish that I could just fall asleep

And not wake up with you haunting me

like. like come on. "i could accomplish all these massive physical feats yet i would also collapse in front of you if you were just here. and all of it was for you." because it was. kunigami going through wildcard not only for his own ego and his goals but to see his friends and loved ones again.

"got a taste of the bitter in me" also known as the understatement of the century. kunigami is barely a person anymore, let alone his own person, he's a shell meant to house the glory of noel noa and nothing more. and of course he is keeping this lone wolf mentality going, he has no other choice. after the hell he went through, maybe it's better to just accept the philosophy that was forced on him. at least it'll make him feel human again. sort of.

and god chigiri is haunting him. it's the way they can't develop entirely separate from each other. it's the way that when we see hints of kunigami's old personality it's either because chigiri is directly there or inspiring the conversation/moment in some way. it's the way that chigiri thinks of kunigami to motivate him. kunigami is trying so damn hard to keep this wildcard persona up but the ghost that is chigiri's presence and his own past are making it such a difficult task.

i need to write kunigiri fic i think .


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9 months ago

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2 years ago

In my NaruMitsu feels so I felt like posting a snippet/sneak peek as to what my next nrmts fic on AO3 is gonna be :D hopefully this'll be done during June?? anyway the preview is in the read more section ! i hope anyone who wants to check it out will enjoy

“I don’t think the artist did it.” Phoenix comments, giving validity to Miles’ judgement of mostly quiet.

“That’s lovely, Phoenix.” Miles mutters through gritted teeth, squinting at the bright screen. “However, you’re not on this case, and this process will be much easier for me if she did.”

“What happened to starting to fight for the truth, huh?” Phoenix prods, half provocation and half genuine curiosity.

Miles peers over the screen at Phoenix, the harsh light from the computer emphasizing the shadows underneath his eyes and cheekbones. “The only existing evidence implicates the artist, and I’m responsible for finding the final nail in her coffin. Your gut instinct doesn’t insinuate absolute truth.”

“Has it ever been wrong?” Phoenix’s brows raise, and Miles’ eye twitches at just how genuine he is. There’s no hint of a challenge in Phoenix’s words, there’s no icy stare or self-righteous smirk. He’s just warm and open and honest and kind, and Miles isn’t sure how to react. He settles for dropping his head in his hands with a groan, thick bangs falling over his fingers.


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2 years ago

talking with bestie about whether matt or juan would propose and i have reasoning for both. Here It Is.

Juan: He's been engaged once before. Clearly that did not work out. Unrest in pieces, bitch, I hate you Inpax. He's determined to get it right this time, because he's with the right person this time. Matt has always been the man he was meant to be with. They will always find their way back to each other, and Juan wants to ensure that there's no way he could ever lose him again. He's also a hopeless romantic as we know and I'd be lying if I said I didn't think he has a scrapbook laying around of different proposal ideas. He knows the shit that Matt has gone through, and probably not even the worst parts of it. That's a terrifying thought, and he wants to put as much of that pain in the past as he can. He wants to move forward with their lives, he wants to promise himself to Matt forever. He wants to promise Matt a soft forever, a delicate one, free of hurt and anguish. He's going to do it right.

Matt: Honestly, he needs a sense of control in his love life. So much of his relationships haven't had any of his input, and while of course Juan is nothing like that, the fear remains. Trauma does that to a guy. Again, fuck you Inpax. He likes the comfort and security of being agentic, making decisions. And he knows that Juan is the type to provide the grand romantic gestures instead of receiving them. Matt wants to change that. When his life went to shit, he lost control, he wasn't there for Juan, he couldn't provide comfort and love and care. He's back on the right track now. He can make up for lost time. He can get down on one knee and in spite of all his flaws, all his mistakes, the sins of his past that nearly cost his beloved his life, he can pledge to love this man forever. He already does. But Juan likes this cheesy shit (and Matt is learning to, though the process is slow). He wants to make Juan feel loved, he wants this proposal to be everything he's ever dreamed of. Everything he couldn't get the first time. It would be grandiose. Sentimental. Multifaceted. Intimate. A perfect whirlwind combination of what's in Juan's scrapbook and that charismatic clumsiness, maybe the heat of something A Little Too Personal, that is undeniably Matt Engarde.

okay yeah and these are my ramblings. enrida/juangarde i love you. The them. The sillies.


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1 year ago
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1 year ago

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