If You Want To Support Autistic People You Really Do Need To Shut Up About Picky Eaters. Sorry

Letting aa tumblr see more of my milesposting— Uhh this is from when I had to write a persona poem for a college course; pretty consistent narumitsu angst and canon-typical Miles thinking he's unlovable. Full poem under the cut as to not clog the dash!!

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Testimonial

Prosecutor Miles Edgeworth, one year after choosing death

You tried to teach me honesty:

defending me when I was at my lowest,

severing Karma’s marionette strings.

You’re terminal. Incurably in love.

I hope you know that.

Chasing after some childish fantasy for

fifteen years.

And so desperate for a rose-tinted view

of the funeral flowers of my youth,

I let you run.

You tried to teach me mercy:

scorning the belief that I killed him,

when even I couldn’t admit my own innocence.

But you’re just as selfish as I

was raised to be since nine.

You know a guilty man when you see one,

so let the gavel fall, let me atone, give me that

right.

I deserve it. Yearn for it.

To sink into that shaking earth,

fragment myself into rubble.

What more must I do for you to give me up?

You tried to teach me loyalty:

fifteen years of an unrelenting pursuit,

you built your life around me.

“How could I refuse you?”

Your words, your spell. Our beginning

Rings in my ears, an echoing verdict.

Ring on my finger, a vow I couldn’t keep.

Body and soul both laid bare,

I tried to teach you truth.

I can’t absolve myself of regret,

so exonerate yourself from the responsibility

of burning up in my piteous blaze.

How far must I scatter my ashes

before they’re too widespread

for you to dare to rise from them again?

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yeah that's all uhhh i really like how this came out and i hope you guys do too!!!! it's like Too Easy to write Miles sometimes to the point that it scares me lmao. thanks for reading! hopefully more full fics soon~

anyone else think about the fact that celeste inpax was older than matt engarde and also his manager, and maybe juan called off the wedding bc he found out his fiance had been like. grooming the last guy she worked for? cuz im fairly sure juan was an adult by the time they started dating (tho theres always the chance he was still a minor), and i just. i know how they meant it, but it always came across to me as “matt casually mentions how he and celeste got together when he was 16, and juan decides maybe he shouldnt marry her actually”

i think about this constantly

an emotaro

back in the game

matt uses obnoxiously cheesy french pet names for juan and starts off doing so sarcastically but then he realizes that juan corrida, hopeless romantic he is, actually likes them.

anyway 2-4 never happened and they are in love.

“If you were in my shoes, you’d see I wear the same size as you”

[2021] snek

Explanation for this:

Dangaronpa V3 is kinda meh to me so this is my au in which Rantaro and Kaede are the main protagonist and antagonist duo.

I also think the 3rd trial is a big waste of potential. They had such a cool idea in mind with the whole "Korekiyo confessed to one murder but not the other" but then in the end it's revealed he actually commited both and it's like.... ok??? You're telling me we could've had a trial with 2 murderers who didnt know about eachother's exsistance and that no matter what there would be a killed left among the survivors??? Anyways in this au I like to pitch the idea of Himiko secretly being the second killer who accidentally murdered Angie and although Korkiyo did kill Tenko his crime doesn't count as Himiko killed Angie before him.

There could've been fun loopholes I'm just saying 🙄🙄🙄

Also I think the dynamic between Rantaro and Kaede could've been fun to explore in a "Kaede wants to trust and believe her friends while Rantaro is aware they could betray them at any moment" kind of situation

I don't even know if you're still in the Matt Engarde hype but oh my fucking god. holy fucking shit. I am obsessed with the thought that this man would rather create a whole persona as an amalgamation of the traits he doesn't see as "acceptable", one who can carry the blow of Celeste's suicide because he's bad and independent and dettached and everything he was never allowed to be, one who can carry the anger he bottled up for the sake of images; the anger rooted so deep, burning him inside out at every ounce fear and the self-hatred and the neglect and the betrayal of being left behind he encounter. I'm going insane.

He sees "growing up" as something bad, as if being a fully separated entity from who nurtured you is shameful, and how this somated with the grayness of Celeste's relationship with him (and the fact all the people in canon she was in a relationship with, romantic or not, borderline or straight-up codependent) heavily implies that she, consciously or not, made him fully rely on her for everything and fed into the image that things should be like that forever: that he would never be someone if not "part" of her. And not to be an Engarde apologist or anything but the knowledge that this is a common strategy for abusers, especially parents and caretakers; to "mesh" with their targets to a point they don't know who they are without them, and how this causes long-lasting identity and self-image issues, much like that dude Matt?? It's driving me nuts.

Just. The littlest, tiniest voice in my head saying that Engarde would rather destroy the already poor image he had of himself as a person and wear the "evil" label like an armor than to acknowledge he might have been a victim won't shut up and i'm very sorry for the lenght of this but i've been running up my walls all day brainstorming about this and i need to sleep. I know this may be far-fetched, so feel free to add any divergences from my biased conclusions if you'd like!

i am always and forever in matt engarde hype anon....thank you so much for this ask that has been on my mind since i got it. your point about his relationship with celeste being part of his urge to "mesh" and stay childlike is really fucking me up. i love it so much it makes different aspects of the whole puzzle click in my head. also "would rather be evil than a victim" i think describes engarde deeply. anyway i just love all of this thank you so much for sharing<333

How they drew Matt in AA is really just like so funny to me because in what world does he have the dorito body proportions that the art gave him . he's a 21 year old junkie . like yes he's got the slutty waist but broad shoulders?? nah man he's too malnourished for that