I Go From "i Didn't Deserve The Things That Happened To Me" To "there Is No Suffering That I Do Not Deserve"

go KILL YOURSELF!!!!!!!

i need helppp

i have been getting far too complacent

"guess this means they hate me", the thing has zero correlation to their opinion of me and has nothing to do with me

damn ive only been back for like an hour and im already going insane

I know my life will end in suicide. I'm sure of it.

I’m forcing people to be friends with me

Are any of you disgusted and sick of me yet?

I’m so horrible

I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.

I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.

Gokurakugai by Yuto Sano – Chapter 19 ⦿ Let’s Make a Suicide Pact

i hope you DIE for your heinous crimes (my fp being nice to you a few times)