A Mini-vent Of My Thoughts

shhh just go back to sleep, it's okay. i just couldn't help myself, you looked so pretty with your eyes closed.

but we wouldn't want you to stay like that, would we?

i'm bored and i wanna answer boring questions :3

(PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TALK TO ME!!! or don't it's okay either way <3)

nosy anons let's go

0: Height

1: Age

2: Shoe size

3: Do you smoke?

4: Do you drink?

5: Do you take drugs?

6: Age you get mistaken for

7: Have tattoos?

8: Want any tattoos?

9: Got any piercings?

10: Want any piercings?

11: Best friend?

12: Relationship status

13: Biggest turn ons

14: Biggest turn offs

15: Favorite movie

16: I’ll love you if…

17: Someone you miss

18: Most traumatic experience

19: A fact about your personality

20: What I hate most about myself

21: What I love most about myself

22: What I want to be when I get older

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

25: My idea of a perfect date

26: My biggest pet peeves

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

30: What I hate the most about work/school

31: What my last text message says

32: What words upset me the most

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

34: What I find attractive in women

35: What I find attractive in men

36: Where I would like to live

37: One of my insecurities

38: My childhood career choice

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

40: Who I wish I could be

41: Where I want to be right now

42: The last thing I ate

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

44: A random fact about anything

my minecraft pets

their names are lard and coconut oil :3

i'm gonna try to get more like parrots and stuff

i'm bored, gng.

watching gravity falls for the first time since i was like 12??

i just finished watching adventure time earlier today, i was planning on posting a silhouette pic with a fun caption but i forgor

even when I'm anon, I struggle pretty heavily with saying things because they just feel wrong. I always just end up being so polite because I'm terrified of scaring people off, I don't want to make them think I'm weird or gross. I want to make friends and respect people's boundaries, but it's hard to do both!!

this prob doesn't make any sense :(

due to popular demand (two people) i took this last night. i look like some kind of ghost and it's not adventure time. close enough tho.

addendum:

it goes beyond like degradation and stuff, i'm just really terrible at making myself get over the anxiety of doing something. i guess i'm just so afraid of people not liking me for something i do. is that normal..?

sometimes i wonder if i'm too nice for my own good

as much as i love the IDEA of doing it, i'm really awful at degrading people because i want everyone to feel good :D

it mostly comes from a place of anxiety, i guess. like a voice in the back of my head that tells me that everything i'm doing is wrong.

oh what a dilemma i have found myself in... i'd appreciate any tips if people have them, mostly about swallowing that anxiety (even though i don't think anyone would really read this)

daily affirmations

I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT DEATH NOTE AND ALL OF ITS CHARACTERS

LIGHT AND L ARE BOTH CANONICALLY STRAIGHT ACCORDING TO THE AUTHOR

I AM NOT L AND I WILL NEVER BE L

my entire home page is death note yaoi...

i think i've won. this is victory, folks.

as much as i love the freaky shit, this is just as good.

i wish i had a stalker tbh

like a real one who would follow me home and watch my every move.

the kind that writes diary entries in their own blood, leaves their hair and clothes in my presence to let me know that i'm not alone.

and when they prove their love to me, they're going to make sure i reciprocate by any means necessary. that i'll be theirs, only theirs, from that point forward.

but alas, maybe i'm the one who has to be that stalker.

silly scenario that i'm writing late at night in like 15 minutes. prob won't make sense.

family friend who stops by the house every couple of weeks to hang out with my parents

i've always thought she looked so cool, ever since i was a little kid... so pretty, she has cool hair, cool piercings, listens to cool music... everything about her is just so... cool! i want to be just like her.

she's always had a soft spot for me, always gave me praise when i was working hard on my schoolwork, gave me hugs and care like she was my real aunt or something.

she's always a bit handsy, grabbing my shoulders, holding my hand, ruffling my hair... but i'm too oblivious to notice. she slowly ramps up her touches, day by day, giving me so much praise to make me feel good and special... and then one day, she walks into my room after breaking away from my parents for a single moment and asks if i want her to make me feel even better.

the thought of feeling good, of spending even more time with her, fills me with joy. i eagerly agree, of course.

she asks me all sorts of weird questions like "do you find girls pretty?", "have you kissed any of them?", "do you think i'm pretty?" and the answers are all simple. yes, no, yes. she smirks when she hears the latter two.

she leans in a little bit closer, her eyes boring into my own with a sense of pride before they flicker down to my lips. before i can even say any more words, she closes the gap between our mouths, giving me my first kiss with the person i've always had a secret crush on. i hear about how this kind of thing is wrong, but it feels really good! after all, she's always so nice to me.

as the kiss deepens, my inexperienced lips struggle to keep up. i feel her tongue brushing up against the seam of my lips but she appears to think better of it and gently breaks the kiss with a gasp, our mouths still connected by a string of saliva. she smiles softly and whispers in my ear, asking me if it felt good. i nod eagerly, my cheeks flushed a deep shade of pink, as she stands back up fully as if nothing weird happened.

she tells me that if i want to do more of that, it'll have to wait for a while because she spends so much time with my parents. and she reminds me that i'm not allowed to tell anyone about this, that it'll be our little secret.

i nod in agreement, so excited to be doing grown-up stuff with someone as pretty as her. i tell her that my parents are going out on a date tomorrow night so we can continue it then. the thought of being truly alone with me seems to strike a chord within her, but she quickly buries it with a caring smile and agrees.

and as quickly as the moment came, she leaves my room with a soft click, leaving me wondering if that really happened. but i guess that i can only look forward to tomorrow night, hoping i really get to see her again with a ch1ldlik3 wonder and anticipation in my chest.