And I Also Want To BE This Person Ugh

What kink are you most embarrassed by?

all of them. or at least most of them. i do want to learn how to rid myself of that embarrassment, though.

Goofy ahh semi-serious rant

The main reason I don't really talk about my attraction to men is that I don't really want attention from them on here. At least cis men. They're usually just selfish or think that they're owed something that they're not. To anyone reading this, you don't have to give anybody (especially pushy men) any of your time and attention.

Don't get me wrong, I love men!

...irl, at least. I've only dated men/masc people irl. Although a couple were almost completely online but they were not sexual.

It's just that women (and trans men ofc) are usually FAR more patient and respectful. There are exceptions of course, as there are with any sweeping generalizations, I'm just speaking from experience and what I've seen from a lot of people on here.

Long story short, men be cautious while interacting. Here, there, anywhere. 90% of the time you won't even get what you want. Be a kind and interesting person FIRST AND FOREMOST. Sexual stuff is fine, but that's not what a majority of people want all the time.

Sorry if I said anything unintentionally offensive, I'm really terrible at wording my thoughts in contexts like this. Ask for clarification if necessary :3

Rant over

problems with sharing a room

they snore!!

they're generally loud in their sleep

we have different sleeping preferences (like temperature and shit)

(and i can't stress this enough) i can't goon all night!!! i mean, i probably wouldn't anyway but i'd at least like to have the option.

bitches call me goro akechi the way i'm autistic and evil

last post of the night (...probably...)

i NEED to get drunk and send people incoherent, horny asks on tumblr. or just incoherent... that sounds equally fun.

or high. i get really fucking horny when i'm high for some reason.

ughhhh I wish I had more to post about but it's kind of demotivating knowing that people won't really see it.

i mean, like... sure, that MIGHT mean that i can type whatever i want and not feel embarrassed. but it's not like it's that easy. i wish i was better at coming up with scenarios (or at least expressing them through words. not that i'm good at picturing them either, i'm aphantasic).

and there's some stuff that i'm not READY to express through words on here yet. i don't even really know if i'm ready to accept some things about myself anyway.

i just need to explore some more parts of myself. and there's some things that i need people to ask/talk to me about because it's probably not possible for me to just come out and say it. i don't really know what i mean by this yet but i'll keep tumblr posted.

probably gonna be listening to a lot of skramz to keep myself awake today. ama :3

also sometimes i forget that all of the thoughts i put here are literally public and then i start tweaking out like "oh god what if i make friends on here and then they find out i'm a freak"

like i mean obviously i'm a freak by being on this side of tumblr but i'm still embarrassed by the level of it D:

hot take: submissive yandere