If There Are Any Lurkers Who See Everything I Post But Don't Follow Or Int Then I Hope You Know That

i can't tell if i was too smart or too dumb to get gr00med.

i WANT to believe it was the former, but... it was probably the latter tbh.

your blog makes me soaking wet ngl

thanks, it shouldn't!

i would literally be so easy to kidnap

just tell me you're going to give me sour patch watermelons and the world will never see me again

and it'd take me like a solid 30 minutes of being in the van until i realize that there never were any sour patch watermelons

i don't normally remember my dreams but i dreamed about ace attorney guys i might be a little bit... gulp... obsessed? no way!!!

addendum:

it goes beyond like degradation and stuff, i'm just really terrible at making myself get over the anxiety of doing something. i guess i'm just so afraid of people not liking me for something i do. is that normal..?

sometimes i wonder if i'm too nice for my own good

as much as i love the IDEA of doing it, i'm really awful at degrading people because i want everyone to feel good :D

it mostly comes from a place of anxiety, i guess. like a voice in the back of my head that tells me that everything i'm doing is wrong.

oh what a dilemma i have found myself in... i'd appreciate any tips if people have them, mostly about swallowing that anxiety (even though i don't think anyone would really read this)

update (don't have names for them rn)

my minecraft pets

their names are lard and coconut oil :3

i'm gonna try to get more like parrots and stuff

no wonder people think I'm submissive... I mean I am sometimes but I love being more dominant, too! I guess I just struggle with confidence and comfort when it comes to stuff like this. god knew I would be too powerful if I didn't have anxiety.

even when I'm anon, I struggle pretty heavily with saying things because they just feel wrong. I always just end up being so polite because I'm terrified of scaring people off, I don't want to make them think I'm weird or gross. I want to make friends and respect people's boundaries, but it's hard to do both!!

this prob doesn't make any sense :(

manifesting ace attorney now... give me lawyer yaoi, tumblr WHERE ARE YOU HIDING IT???

i wish i had a stalker tbh

like a real one who would follow me home and watch my every move.

the kind that writes diary entries in their own blood, leaves their hair and clothes in my presence to let me know that i'm not alone.

and when they prove their love to me, they're going to make sure i reciprocate by any means necessary. that i'll be theirs, only theirs, from that point forward.

but alas, maybe i'm the one who has to be that stalker.