~~Theatre major with a caffeine addiction and constant anxiety~~ [20] [They/Them]
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I want to cut off my hair
I want to run away
I really should get shit done
but I can't focus today
I need to get out of here
I need to get out of my head
I need to get shit done
Or else I'd be better off dead
everywhere I go people are asking me for my email. my email is in high demand. it's rare for me to visit a website without someone getting on their hands and knees, begging me for my email
the way i NEED a house with this aesthetic
I slept 10+ hours last night, woke up after 12:00 PM, didn't get out of bed until 3:00 PM, and I already want to go back to sleep
I had to do math in one of my theatre classes today and got so stressed that I started crying in front of everyone
anyways, friends are great. no matter what kind of day i'm having, being with them puts me in brighter spirits. I can't help but to laugh and smile, and it makes me want to do everything in my power to make them all laugh and smile too
im so sleepy, but my room is a disaster, and my homeworks not done, and I should really probably shower, and I want to go to bed but I feel like I don't deserve sleep
One day, I shall own these
(x)
I need it to stop being cold and snowy so that I can loiter in parks, shops, and sidewalks, walk the half hour to the library and read about nothing, and dramatically watch the sunset and think about how much I hate myself
idk, I just really want a sandwich
I feel this, deeply
“I’m homesick all the time … I just don’t know where home is. There’s this promise of happiness out there. I know it. I even feel it sometimes. But it’s like chasing the moon - just when I think I have it, it disappears into the horizon.”
— Sarah Addison Allen
Angela Carter, The Company of Wolves The bloody chamber, and other stories
Pov: Me during finals last semester
𝔦𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔢𝔫𝔬𝔲𝔤𝔥?
Sometimes, that quality is learning how capable you are of hating someone or something
No matter how bad a person is, there would be at least one quality you can learn from them...
Look for it!!
Oh to be a little bird and spread my graceful wings
Across the bleak and grey winter skies I could soar and sing
Far away, I would fly, until I found the warmer days of spring
Then further on, I would soar, because I'm just a silly thing
Dolichonyx oryzivorus | Xanthocephalus xanthocephalus | Agelaius phoeniceus | Sturnella magna
Plate XXIX | Die Nordamerikanische Vogelwelt (1891)
At the start of class earlier, my professor gave a whole ass monologue about the assignment I didn't do and how we need to do our work. I was so sure this was about me, because of course everything is about me, but, apparently in a class of 20+ students, only one did that darn analysis
After class I went to the dollar store and there was dozens and dozens of Monster Ultra Rosa. I usually can't find it anywhere, so I've only sipped that sweet nectar once. I'm glad I get to try it again before it's discontinued
I liked how this came out, so take my art Tumblr goblins. Flourish, my sweet and terrible babies
It's 3:00AM. Still haven't slept. Still haven't touched my homework
"Why, then, 'tis none to you; for there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so: to me it is a prison." -Hamlet
Not a perfect parallel, but I was reminded of Hamlet's "Denmark is a prison" lines.
— Fyodor Dostoevsky, Notes from Underground
I was assigned my scene and scene partners for class and it's from a play I never heard of with a classmate I never heard of. I'm so confused, who is this person and why wasn't the play mentioned in the syllabus?
Screaming, crying, projectile vomiting, crying again
I guess if I keep spending all my time writing instead of doing my work, I should join my school news paper or something. At least get some extra credit for being a professional idiot
I'm stuck in my head, caffeine takes me out of my shell
I can't focus for shit, you can probably tell
I have homework due yesterday,
But like my room, my mental health is in disarray
Oh God, I want to break things, I want to yell
My head's always in the clouds, they call me space cadet
The Wifi up here is bad, that's why I haven't done my work yet
And the motivation floated out my ears, then to the ground it fell
I keep seeing the same Tubi ad of this guy with a cowboy flesh hat for a head. I hate it here lol
Anyway, I didn't turn in my homework last night. Maybe I'll actually do it later but it's late now :/
And there is not a single choice left to make I am God's worst mistake
And in your throat, you know you're lying to kids
And you know nobody belongs in this hell
I feel so disappointed, agitated, why couldn't I focus and get this done?
I was supposed to be better. Why does it feel like I'm back at step one?
The anxious buzzing swirls around me and doesn't seem to stop
It's like a never ending carousel, it'll keep spinning 'til I drop
-drop all my responsibilities, give up and run away
-away from all those telling me it'll all be okay
Cause it's not okay, I'm not okay. Don't lie and say I will be