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the last day of secondary school (surprisingly never cried)

i'm making this post as just a literal dump of all my memories today so forgive me if its all over the place. this morning i was in a panic over my chemistry exam (which i definitely didn't get an A in but oh well) i showed my outfit to my friends (a cottagecore-inspired thing with puff sleeves and a small flower pattern, black tights - i was supposed to wear pumps but i forgot them smh) and i really found out who my real friends were. upon showing them ( O and L is what we'll call them ) for my irl friends on here it's very very obvious who they are. L, i found has a problem she won't say to me - i dont want to look back on this with bad memories so i won't go into detail. O is one of the greatest friends i've ever had. she makes me feel like myself which is the best thing a friend can do for you today i danced (like a stripper at some moments) in a party with my best friend, in a hall with a DJ in the booth, smoke machines and flashing lights with a cup of ice in my hand. (and maybe heartbreak number one was staring but i found i didn't care about him) Life feels like a movie. I went to town, i felt like i was having a real teenage experience for the first time on the last day of secondary school. today was a confidence boost. maybe i got looks from cuties too (but don't base your self worth on men - gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss) i felt pretty for the first time in such a long time, even with my skin breaking out. when i walked back to school to pick up my bag and the equipment, i didn't go to the blue balcony outside the art rooms like i've done every day for a year to reminisce and cry. i'm so tired of crying. i think today i reached some kind of self acceptance too, which is one of the best parts. The sky is so blue today. God, I Love Life. ~ Amimi

another list of romantic things i devastatingly yearn for

- painting together (or having a paint fight with one another) - sitting on the back while riding a motorcycle together  - sitting in the back of a pickup truck together while enjoying the breeze - shy little glimpses and smiles, talks after school/work in the empty office/classroom or getting engrossed in one another even though everyone is around - texting til you fall asleep - saying goodnight its been a long time since the last proper post, haven’t been that well mentally ig, but i hope you liked it :)! for all the new people seeing this post, check out the other list which you can find on my tumblr :) *shameless promotion* until next time Amimi

a post about NCS at 00:05am

Monday 25 July 2022 i know when you use 24 hour time format you aren't supposed to specify am or pm but idk i can't say the time without it. it feels like there's something missing i am going on my residential trip for NCS in less than 8 and a half hours, and as a brown girl with strict parents that's exciting

i've scoured tiktok and i'm kinda scared ngl, why is it being described as love island?!?!?! that's like the worst thing you could say. (to any love island fanatics, i do apologise if this is insulting, i have in fact seen one clip of the show in which the islanders seriously discuss how lizard people in suits run the world and immediately noped out and never touched it again) anywaysss my friend kota said it was pretty cool, i'm kinda disappointed because she's not going to be there with me (we signed up with the intention of it being our last summer before we go to different colleges and likely never see eachother again) but oh well. i'm going to be forced to make new friends and do sports. i'm going to scour twitter and tumblr for posts about NCS and then go to sleep see you in five days! Amimi

daniel. fucking. arlington.

update: kinda late but oh well, exam was alr but not as good as i wanted - at first i was really distraught but then i reminded myself of those supposed literature nerds who write Scrooge/Marley fanfics on ao3 and how failing literature meant i was definitely not one of them :D

English teachers, You either did something incredibly right or incredibly wrong when teaching A Christmas Carol in GCSE English because there is 34 works under the tag Jacob Marley/Ebenezer Scrooge on ao3. A few of them are tagged with references to GCSEs.

euphoria (first thoughts)

17:22 - 22 Jan 2022

just started binging euphoria and thought i’d share some stuff that came to mind a : this show is like visually amazing - like holy shit, costume design, effects, and oh my gosh can we talk about the hallway scene where rue’s high off her mind and everythings spinning? - that was some next level cinematography and set design right there b :  a LOT more graphic then i was expecting, like they really put the detail into every scene, warning that some stuff you may see (if you haven’t alr watched it) can be triggering c : not a realistic portrayal of teenagers at all, could have easily set them as being in college or even like early uni days - idk if its different for an american audience but teens over here do not act like that. d : casting and acting is cool but in some small moments i find it lacking, like kat’s a bit too calm for a girl who just got explicit videos of her leaked, because if that was real i would be crying my eyes out. so far i’m halfway through ep three but i’ll do another post when i’m done watching - feel like the twists and turns have lacked the shock factor but that’s likely mainly because i’ve watched all the spoilers on tiktok.  i’ll post some more later today or tmrw so look out for that!! - Amimi

Sorry for the wait!

i haven’t posted since new years. god i’ve been away a long time.              school has really kept me busy recently. especially since i’ve started  my art exam for gcses which has been excruciating due to being behind on coursework but i hope to do well! studyblr posts and such coming soon!

yk now that im thinking about it

ncs really was just love island but without the luxuries of living in habitable place

dark academic youtubers

recommend me some in my ask box!

Studyblr?

I’m considering mixing in a bunch of studyblry things into this blog, should i?