Freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees - Skinny Little Bumblebee

I used to be size 13/14/16 in different brands of pants and now I'm a size 5 in pants and I've been maintaining that for months and months so I get your struggle but hard work pays off don't worry

real talk

so, my week has been shit, i’ve been under stress and stress ate/starved all week with the outcome of me pretty much maintaining my current weight. again. another week at my cw. i was devastated and i am, BUT today I was shopping for my job interview at thursday (which is the reason why i’m nervous af) and I needed to buy clothes in size 8 (36 EU). Just to make it clear, i was a size 16 to 18 (44-46 EU) before i lost the weight. so despite being upset with myself this week and maybe the last few weeks, i’m pretty damn proud of myself for being at least at an acceptable size right now.

I really do hope that i can continue to lose weight in a at the very least semi-healthy manner after this job interview is done. please wish me luck, you guys. ✨🍀

What “pro-ana” means to me

Of course I’m not “pro” ana. None of the people who post with this tag are. None of us want you to develop an eating disorder. None of us want you to starve yourself, harm your body, and hurt your mind. Come on, who the hell would wish this on anyone? 

I’m not pro ana.

I know what “ana” is. It’s not something anyone in their right mind would support. I’ve been living with an eating disorder for over 10 years now. That’s my whole teenage and adult life right there. I don’t remember what it’s like living without it. I don’t know what having a normal relationship with food feels like. I don’t know how people go about their daily lives without obsessing about what they eat or how they look.

I’m not pro ana. 

“Ana” isn’t something you get out of. I’ll go through a restrictive phase, then relapse into bulimia, and every once in a while, feel like I’m getting better and healthier. It never lasts. It’s as if my eating disorder went to sleep for a while… took a little break, and then came back a little stronger. It always does. 

I’m not pro ana. 

If you’re not dealing with an eating disorder, or if the content on my blog is triggering to you PLEASE don’t follow me. Please don’t think eating disorders are an easy way to lose weight. Please don’t take any dieting tips from “pro ana” blogs. Please, please, please don’t starve yourself. Don’t harm yourself. Binging, purging, restricting, fasting are terrible ideas. Run while it’s still time. 

I’m not pro ana. 

I’m “pro” supporting my sisters and brothers who struggle with an eating disorder. If I post something with the tag “pro-ana”, it doesn’t mean I encourage you to develop disordered habits… it means I’m here for you. I’m right there with you. 

I don’t support eating disorders, I support people going through them. 

Thinspo for today to stop me binging on watermelon clouds at my friends house

155 pounds today. So shitty that my period comes and literally throws me 3 pounds behind, like 3 days of the diet I’m on never even happened. Fuck my body.

Anyway today is abc diet day 10, and it is a fasting day…I’m worried I going to fuck up but hopefully I can get through it…. ⚠️pic not me⚠️

Doing that is a symptom of depression I believe it's called fixation or something like that you spend hours and hours thinking about everything that's wrong and it messes with your brain the more you think about it the more it'll happen it'll actually make all your disorders get worse it's what happened to me you should really see a doctor 💞 I hope you feel better

It’s nearly 3 in the morning and I can’t sleep. All I can think about is labels, Depression, Anxiety, Anorexia, Borderline, and how they slip between my fingers, how I simultaneously fit all of them and none of them. It’s hard to control an effect when you can’t name your cause

This is one of my fav thinspo ever

Hey, you know what? There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be thin. I don’t give a fuck if boys like thick girls or whatever because I’m doing this for me, because I like me better if I’m thin and I’m so gonna make it. Just watch

Reblog: if your tumblr is dedicated to your eating disorder or like thinspo

I’ll follow you back if you reblog💕

✖️✖️✖️Grunge Thinspo✖️✖️✖️