Why Do I Want To Be A Pathologist? Because I'm Not Interested In The Day To Day Management Of Diabetes

I love people. You can learn something from anyone, even if they cant speak. The problem comes when youre so hyper aware of the world problems and how attainable the solutions would be if things were just a little different. So many people are content. Blissfully unaware of the problems this world faces. Ignorance is bliss. But when youre no longer ignorant, it can be a heavy burden to bear.

I've lost everyone I care about and I'm not good at acquiring new friends. I guess I'll leave it in Gods hands. Now that I've gotten closure, I pray that He opens new doors for me into new, life long, fulfilling relationships

Part of me is so done. The rejection is too much and i dont want to subject myself to it. My walls rarely get broken down and once a piece of that soft gushy underside is bruised, I have no problem with immediately cutting that person off.

The other side of me is so entrenched. So in love. So hopeful.

I know my reality. And my reality is that ill only be allowed glimpsed and pieces. Ill never be alloted the full blown love and happiness others find so easily. I'll be alone forever and I just have to accept that.

Hello. Imagine a meadow.

Now, look closer. There. Enjoy @mushiniwa​’s aesthetic insects traversing leaves, petals, and fingertips: nature in its tiny places.

@lindagoesmushrooming and takes excellent photos of the ones she encounters. Step into Linda’s office.

@happy-geology takes pictures of empty places, whether it’s the moon, the earth’s crust, or a calm forest, there simply are no humans. Bliss.

@nature-hiking also enjoys the vast and empty spaces, which, when you think about it, aren’t really that empty at all, are they?

I need a community

I'd like to do something in the future that has real impact in peoples lives. I've done a lot that looks good on paper. I've participated in marches, volunteered, held summits, lead student organizations, etc and I'm sure on some level I've left people inspired or was part of something bigger than myself but I'd like to do something that actually has a real, measurable, positive impact on peoples lives in a tangible way. Hopefully something I can see because I selfishly want to know that what I'm doing matters. I just feel like my activism, community service, and various initiatives have been so superficial when I'm looking to make a deep and meaningful change in peoples lives.