Imavika - Imavika

citationless behavior

“I’m almost 50, and here is the best thing I have learned so far: every strange thing you’ve ever been into, every failed hobby or forgotten instrument, everything you have ever learned will come back to you, will serve you when you need it. No love, however brief, is wasted.” @louisethebaker on Twitter

I want a cup of tea with a splash of milk, some rain, and for it to be cool enough outside that i can wrap myself in a blanket

always trying to name my feelings

i hate people sometimes and not HATE HATE but love hate kinda hate. soft hate, not like i dont like u, but like im too tired to not like u so ill just let it be as it is. guess stuff happens and we keep moving in that cycle again and again and at this point i dont feel real me anymore, ive a lot of covers on now and i dont give a piece of me to people. been having a lot of events where my "heart beats fast as hell". "i cry", "feeling very very useless", "distant", "getting a closure". its okay now, i hope i turn into a decent adult, the kind of adult i want to be and i also feel like theres a time period of infinity between right now and what i want to become - the person, not about career.

p.s. my heart is beating fast as hell while im typing all this. more power to me!

PRETTY effed up morning :)

so like everyone has a coping mechanism and their go to songs when they feel that something which TRIGGERS them is happening or about to happen AGAIN so i have this song -

so its sunday morning today and ive been feeling low and that gut feeling since last two three days that yes something wrong is about to happen and boom then that triggering thing happens and as soon as i see it coming i go to this song and man this sunday morning isnt supposed to be this sad yk cause its a festive season and ugh this sucks. so lowkey sad and irritated. like fuck it. im just draining out of energy.

love.

just painted an onion on a cutting board and i think it’s the peak of my artistic career

I hate when somebody i don't deal with anymore is in my dream like ugh wtf does this even mean

"well behaved women rarely make history". ~ tumblr