imavika

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it aint turtles all the way down anymore. its bitches all the way down.

fucking crap, everyday, new shit. welcome to the shit show. where u learn to judge shit.

im gonna move out for college. no matter what.

im god's child and im a mess. neither beautiful nor ugly. im just his mess and i love being one.

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maybe he did it on purpose. GOD did it on purpose.

fairytales are true.

Things that you need to remember to understand the vast majority of European history:

Britain and France’s foreign policies towards one another was essentially a mutual fuck you

Russia is big and cold

(On a related point: invading Russia doesn’t work because Winter™️)

The Pope loves a good crusade

There were a lot of treaties of ‘Perpetual Peace’ that totally worked (lol)

Trying to maintain the ✨balance of power ✨ pretty much always led to war 

German wasn’t Germany until quite recently but when Germany became Germany it made everyone a bit nervous

Italy also wasn’t Italy until pretty recently

The French love a revolution

They also love a republic but aren’t great at keeping one around 

Napoleon (the first one) was a Bitch and messed everything up

Standard British answer to any reasonable request: ✨no ✨

War is the answer to everything cause who doesn’t love a good war?

The Holy Roman Empire wasn’t the Roman Empire but they liked to tell themselves that it was

The Habsburgs liked to be in charge

😍 m o n e y 😍

Britain liked ships

Spain also liked ships

So did the Portuguese

The Spanish were very Catholic  (but the Spanish Inquisition were actually expected)

Basically all the royals were related (*haemophilia has entered the chat*)

England and Scotland were Not Friends but France and Scotland were (which equaled Major Problems)

The Dutch were 💰rich 💰and everyone wanted a bit of it

Religion was a *bit* of an issue

✨ feudalism ✨

Everyone want to be the Romans 2.0 

You could making a drinking game out of all the French Wars of Religion

Everyone found the Ottomons a little bit scary (cause they were *gasps and screams of horror* not Christian)

There has been more than one defenestrations in Prague 

Poland Lithuania was not very Lithuanian

British policy to land/important cultural item/anything that they come across: ✨finders keepers ✨

In case anyone is having a bad night:

Here is the fudgiest brownie in a mug recipe I’ve found

Here are some fun sites

Here is a master post of Adventure Time episodes and comics

Here is a master post of movies including Disney and Studio Ghibli

Here is a master post of other master posts to TV shows and movies

*tucks you in with fuzzy blanket* *pats your head*

You’ll be okay, friend <3

yooo how do u email a prof for a recommendation letter?

Hi Professor!

I am in the process of applying to ____ and they require letters of rec. I sincerely enjoyed your classes, and felt that they gave me a particularly good chance to display my strengths, such as ____ [class participation, writing, etc.] and would love for you to write me a letter, if you’d be willing. The due date is ____, and I can send you further instructions for submission later if you accept.

Attached to this email is ____, the piece of work I did in your class which best showcases my abilities, as well as my current CV [or resume]. If you agree to write me a letter, soon I will also send you drafts of my ____ [statement of purpose, personal statement, application essays, other relevant material] for my application to aid in your writing. I am also happy to meet in person to discuss this with you.

I want to stress that this application is quite competitive, so if you feel you will not be able to write me a strong letter then I completely understand - but please let me know. Thank you so much for your time!

Sincerely, ____

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a few notes:

- you should have all your relevant materials (app essays, etc.) sent to them *at least* a month in advance to give them ample time to write the letter

- thus, your initial email asking them if they’d be willing to write a letter for you should be sent *over* a month in advance. professors are busy

- if you are applying for a really prestigious position/scholarship/fellowship, or grad school, it’s best to have at least a majority of your letter writers be professors (rather than adjuncts or post docs). ideally you’d want them to be full/tenured professors. in lots of cases, especially academic ones, *who* writes your letter matters - not just *what’s in* your letter

- the reason you send them the piece of work you did in their class that you are most proud of is to remind them of your abilities as a student and the quality of the work you produced for them. they have lots of students. sometimes they need a bit of help jogging their memory of exactly what you did in their class.

- the reason you send them your other application materials (personal statement, statement of purpose, CV) is so that they have information to draw from when writing your letter. they know what you’re passionate about, what you hope to do in the future, other experience you have, and can use this information when writing your letter

- on a similar note, this is also why you’d want to list the strengths you displayed in their class

- basically, you want to give them as much information as you can about your strengths, goals, and intentions - give them prompts they can use to write your letter

- the bit at the end about asking for a “strong letter” is important because some professors can only write you mediocre letters (e.g. “this student was always on time to class and gave their undivided attention during lecture” - what does this tell admission committees? well, it tells them that the professor has nothing positive to say about your *academic* abilities and so they’re resorting to other strengths. it’s a polite way of saying “this student was okay, but not spectacular in any notable way”. big red flag for admissions committees.) if all you’re going to get is a mediocre letter, you might as well not get a letter at all

- if the professor you ask accepts, then be sure to send them polite reminders as the date approaches. (i usually send a reminder at the 1-month-till-due-date mark when i send the other application materials, and then again at the 2 week and 1 week marks, and, if necessary, every day after the final 3 days leading up to the due date

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i know this was a lot, but i remember being in your shoes and being completely lost when it came to applying for stuff so i know how daunting it can be. i figured i’d just throw all this information at you to be of as much help as possible.

for reference, i’ve applied to graduate programs, fellowships, and scholarships. i have been accepted into several of the top 10 graduate programs in my area, as well as received multiple scholarships and a fellowship, and received honorable mentions for some of the most competitive fellowships in the US. i have also worked with the admissions committee at my graduate program to organize multiple informational events for those interested in applying to graduate school and, in the process, have learned a lot about what makes a strong application.

so while you should absolutely take my advice with a grain of salt (different circumstances call for different standards), i do have quite a bit of experience with applications and what makes a strong letter of rec.

i hope this helped! best of luck with whatever you’re applying for :)

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always trying to name my feelings

i hate people sometimes and not HATE HATE but love hate kinda hate. soft hate, not like i dont like u, but like im too tired to not like u so ill just let it be as it is. guess stuff happens and we keep moving in that cycle again and again and at this point i dont feel real me anymore, ive a lot of covers on now and i dont give a piece of me to people. been having a lot of events where my "heart beats fast as hell". "i cry", "feeling very very useless", "distant", "getting a closure". its okay now, i hope i turn into a decent adult, the kind of adult i want to be and i also feel like theres a time period of infinity between right now and what i want to become - the person, not about career.

p.s. my heart is beating fast as hell while im typing all this. more power to me!

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Random pieces of advice

The world is less scary and chaotic if you lie down on the floor

Noticing different kinds of light (stars, candles, sunshine or city lights) can bring back the feeling of wonder and hope

If you can’t shower, washing your hands and face will help you feel better and cleaner

If you can’t clean anything else, changing and/or washing your bedsheets can do wonders

Fresh air and being outside in general can help with depersonalisation

Spending time around animals can help you recognise what’s important and calm anxious thought cycles

Techniques for emotional regulation in children can really help adults too

Putting random asortment of food on a plate without creating an actual dish still counts as a meal

Drink something warm

Delete that app

Treat yourself as if you were a kid. Buy yourself a toy, play around, learn about cool new things

Fast paced life isn’t morally better and it’s not good for everyone

There is no good reason to keep yourself hungry

Singing to your full lung capacity can be a great way to let out built up emotion

Tension in the face can cause headaches. Try to massage your face regularly

Nothing is as important as your health

You are a whole person on your own, you don’t need someone else to be there to deserve love and attention. Your life can be full as long as you are present

You should cry things out whenever you feel like it

Slow walks are still movement and they do count

It’s never as bad as you imagine it

Try changing your toothpaste flavor if you hate brushing your teeth

Anything can be a stim toy - one of my favourites is a heavy dragon necklace that has a complicated surfice. It’s fun to touch and hold and it’s not even “actual” stim toy

Procrastinating and feeling bad about it is true waste of time. Learn to truly rest. It takes the same amount of time but it is useful

Sometimes you have to force yourself to do the things that make you feel better

Don’t trust the thoughts you have after not sleeping for a while

Friendships don’t have to be forever to mean something

when gamers say "gg" at the end of a match it means good girl

citationless behavior

and just like that one more chapter is over from the book of my life. he came, we grew together, i am transformed into someone else and i feel better and actually positive about it. i do miss him but it must have happened for the good.

he always said "we have met for a reason" and i always said "you should stay for a long time (atleast until i achieve something)"

read this quote on pinterest and it blew my mind - your thoughts are listening to you, what are you?

sooooooo a new chapter starts today and we work and work hard and harder because "we can be anyone" and "we can achieve if we want to" and because "everyday can be a new beginning" and because "either you are sad and do nothing or you are sad and keep working" and also because "no body in this world cares if you are sad or happy" and because "a pen and paper can fix things" and because "if your position is lower in your eyes then how do you imagine to achieve higher position?" and because "solve everything learn everything" and because "comes from here" and because he was done with me and my mood swings and not working hard to call him my mentor and because "its over" and maybe because he never really wanted to be with me and i was just forcing him and maybe because "dont forget me avs because i came back to physics after i met you" and because "my smol avs" and because "pat"

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okay so guys ive been posting about sad stuff lately or like whenever i come to tumblr its mostly because i wanna talk about my feelings and again im here to talk about my feelings but its not sadness today.

i feel actually thankful (wont use the word grateful cause its a concept now because everyone's like be thankful this or that blah blah) because i have this good moment and its sunday and the same sunday when i was feeling very very off in the morning but exactly opp in the evening (rn) and mom's happy, im happy, friends are happy, i have a new set of friends and they are sweet. that particular girl in my new set of friends is so sweet and i love it when she talks about something that she feels deeply. she is simple and so nice. thank you so much god and the universe for all the positivity and love for today. ill forever be thankful to you for everything and this day!

i love you so much and thank you so so much. truly <3

TIL that in 1903 the New York Times predicted that building a flying machine would be possible in 1-10 Million years.

via ift.tt

“I’m almost 50, and here is the best thing I have learned so far: every strange thing you’ve ever been into, every failed hobby or forgotten instrument, everything you have ever learned will come back to you, will serve you when you need it. No love, however brief, is wasted.” @louisethebaker on Twitter

PRETTY effed up morning :)

so like everyone has a coping mechanism and their go to songs when they feel that something which TRIGGERS them is happening or about to happen AGAIN so i have this song -

so its sunday morning today and ive been feeling low and that gut feeling since last two three days that yes something wrong is about to happen and boom then that triggering thing happens and as soon as i see it coming i go to this song and man this sunday morning isnt supposed to be this sad yk cause its a festive season and ugh this sucks. so lowkey sad and irritated. like fuck it. im just draining out of energy.

something about substances so strong they can only be cut by that same substance (like diamond) gets to me. the self-fulfilling prophecy of it. you can armor yourself against any and all outside threats, but you're still beholden to your own nature.

but where will all this love go if he never notices it? and she? and what if i was am able to show my love? (originally by me ~ a.t.)

ok so hear me out.

i was watching reels on instagram and then this reel pops up it says "when is something that you do for yourself?"

i ask this to myself or simply answer it like it was meant for me. i say "photography" and the last time i did it was this morning when i woke up to a beautiful sunset and i rushed to capture it because it was different of orange and brown (picture inserted).

my answer is followed by a thought in my head which brings me to tumblr because i wanted to save it here. it says that i clicked the picture and sent it to a friend or two and while i rushing to take the picture of the sky in the back of my mind i had this thing that they like the pictures of the sky and cloud and this sucks. not that they like but that SOMETHING THAT I DO FOR MYSELF - PHOTOGRAPHY is linked to someone now! i am destroying my art. my creativity. i feel so ashamed and embarrassed because i should have never done this in the first place. i was doing one thing for myself and i linked it to someone now and its not for me anymore?

i sincerely apologise to my art. ill be very attentive from now on and what follows my thought cause seconds thoughts are always important and its important to know whats going on in your brain. so just take a look at your brain like you are peeping out of your window and you can see the road? the buildings? the stuff going on there? and all.

I want a cup of tea with a splash of milk, some rain, and for it to be cool enough outside that i can wrap myself in a blanket

runnning lowww on serotonin

girl in red aka marie ulven ringheim <3

been vibing to this song lately and i think im absolutely in love with her because of the way this music is produced and the lyrics (after referring to genius).

i dont like all the artists working or producing music for mental health/highlighting mental issue but i really love GIR because -

that is a GIRL

that is MARIE aka GIR (loml)

these two reasons are enough?

but jokes apart, i really love the way she works on her music and delivers the exact message and the feeling we are supposed to be feeling after listening to a song by her which is really tough in today's time. its said that music is a time capsule and besides this it has the power to make every individual feel something different and hence a bunch of feelings projecting out from a single song??? wohooo powerful, no? YES!

(bts - i relate/ used to relate to music which talks about mental health and feeling low and similar stuff. i have been there so maybe thats why? and ofc i still think about this question that "am i really supposed to be feeling this way? or am i just being too much?" so i try to suppress my feeling and in turn i gift myself a breakdown. we are dealing with something, isnt it? we got this! it gets better. trust me.)

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Rupture

Bloom and Bust, 2023

Ink on paper

Also I found this while in the forest, it made me happy

oh man, i cant get over this. this is so relatable.

#m*cbeth

girl I would kill myself if I did that lol