A Rare Moment During The Process Of Coral Bleaching

it all starts to kick in when im sad for nothing.

i read this on pinterest in a post and it said whenever we are randomly sad its because there are souls which left earth and no one mourned over it or about it and so when we feel sad we are mourning for them which makes absolute sense to me.

real

The sunset illuminated my dog into the laptop screen

love.

Devils Horns sunrise during a partial eclipse (2019) located: Al Wakrah, Qatar

ok so hear me out.

i was watching reels on instagram and then this reel pops up it says "when is something that you do for yourself?"

i ask this to myself or simply answer it like it was meant for me. i say "photography" and the last time i did it was this morning when i woke up to a beautiful sunset and i rushed to capture it because it was different of orange and brown (picture inserted).

my answer is followed by a thought in my head which brings me to tumblr because i wanted to save it here. it says that i clicked the picture and sent it to a friend or two and while i rushing to take the picture of the sky in the back of my mind i had this thing that they like the pictures of the sky and cloud and this sucks. not that they like but that SOMETHING THAT I DO FOR MYSELF - PHOTOGRAPHY is linked to someone now! i am destroying my art. my creativity. i feel so ashamed and embarrassed because i should have never done this in the first place. i was doing one thing for myself and i linked it to someone now and its not for me anymore?

i sincerely apologise to my art. ill be very attentive from now on and what follows my thought cause seconds thoughts are always important and its important to know whats going on in your brain. so just take a look at your brain like you are peeping out of your window and you can see the road? the buildings? the stuff going on there? and all.

I hate when somebody i don't deal with anymore is in my dream like ugh wtf does this even mean

freak

dont freak out because of the title.

im a disappointment. nothing i do is ever good. i hope i die when i am depressed again.

edit - 27th sept, 23 today. this post is gross. i dont ever wanna be this shit.

hehe

it aint turtles all the way down anymore. its bitches all the way down.

fucking crap, everyday, new shit. welcome to the shit show. where u learn to judge shit.

im gonna move out for college. no matter what.