"mom"

last 5 days of June 2023

had a whole caption for this with what I'm up to, but I'll let the pics speak for themselves (other than the lower left one, that's homemade coffee jelly with home made, manually whisked whipped cream, hahaha)

but instead, i've been thinking of things to do for this gap year (not in order of priority)

learn spanish – suddenly thought how none of us spoke Spanish anymore, my grandmother on mama's side is 1/2 Spanish, I think she was the last to speak the language. ik i have a loooong way to go wit Korean, Japanese and Mandarin (actually ... i think i just forgot all i learned w mandarin from how a lot of things are happening at once ??) also this would most likely be easier than the ones i started, according to mama haha

get part time job/s – this girl needs money for books 😮‍💨 i'm not much of a spender but uni requires so much so this time i want to buy something non-academic ??

read lots of books again !!!

learn sign language – something i feel is very important.

consistently work out + eat healthier this time please – lowkey want to start befriending my enemy: cardio

appreciate more, wake up earlier again

be more consistent with my quiet and prayer times.

do lots of volunteer work

improve on my lacking areas (eg social skills 🥸)

spend more time with my family and pets ofc, something that's 10th here but is top priority before i start internship

with those tho i'll be allotting study times respiratory therapy related. very grateful to have found a mentor at this time, sometimes having someone such as your prof tell you they believe you can do great things is very heart warming, inspirational and makes you really go for that goal or more !!

anw tho its 1145pm at the moment, haven't finished working out but very determined to better myself — new month, new week, new opportunities and beginnings.

Living.

ik i shouldnt say that im "just" living but this is all i have to say rn. byeee

im more than living - im happy yes

“To have someone understand your mind is a different kind of intimacy.”

— Unknown

Rupture

Bloom and Bust, 2023

Ink on paper

and just like that one more chapter is over from the book of my life. he came, we grew together, i am transformed into someone else and i feel better and actually positive about it. i do miss him but it must have happened for the good.

he always said "we have met for a reason" and i always said "you should stay for a long time (atleast until i achieve something)"

read this quote on pinterest and it blew my mind - your thoughts are listening to you, what are you?

sooooooo a new chapter starts today and we work and work hard and harder because "we can be anyone" and "we can achieve if we want to" and because "everyday can be a new beginning" and because "either you are sad and do nothing or you are sad and keep working" and also because "no body in this world cares if you are sad or happy" and because "a pen and paper can fix things" and because "if your position is lower in your eyes then how do you imagine to achieve higher position?" and because "solve everything learn everything" and because "comes from here" and because he was done with me and my mood swings and not working hard to call him my mentor and because "its over" and maybe because he never really wanted to be with me and i was just forcing him and maybe because "dont forget me avs because i came back to physics after i met you" and because "my smol avs" and because "pat"

fairytales are true.

Devils Horns sunrise during a partial eclipse (2019) located: Al Wakrah, Qatar

im so excited for fall semester ⏳🧸💌

all pictures are from pinterest!