Depressed

Depressed

Why do i have to be in love with a women that has nothing for me the only reason she keeps me around her is i give her half of my paycheck because I still want to provide for her and hope she will realize how much I love her and willing to do anything for her I told her I'm done helping at the end of this month and she won't even fight to keep me from leaving for a long time i thought she was the fool but I came to realize I'm the fool and a idiot then I found out last night my mom has a lump on her lung she only has one lung lost the other one to cancer if it turns out as cancer this will be the 5th battle she has had with cancer this changes everything. I'm kinda lost now