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journaling, y’all, JOURNALING.

i’ll never shut up about it, i can literally feel my mindset shifting for the better, day by day.

when ppl said to write your goals (affirmations & desires) down on paper, they weren’t kidding, ‘cause why is my mindset changing for the better so rapidly??

my mindset, thinking and emotional state is excelling, and it’s only been a week.

I really love your insights on Jyeshtha nakshatra & I was wondering what your thoughts were on Jyestha ascendant, because I don't find myself relating to the 'amassing wealth, fame and power' aspect of this nakshatra (at least not materially, spiritually is a different story) that frequently gets discussed

I recall you once spoke about the hyper-independence of Jyestha and how these natives essentially need to figure out how to do things from scratch. I would love if you could elaborate on that or share any other observations/insights you might have regarding this nakshatra and an ascendant placement here

HI!!! Omg I appreciate that, I love your insights too!!! So intuitive and always push me to research and expand my understanding on naks. I love following you!

This is really long so please bear with me but when I studied this nak it made me grow such great empathy and respect for them.

For me, the ascendant represents the life path. In the case of Jyestha rising, it’s not so much a material path as it is a deeply spiritual one. Their journey involves confronting and ultimately releasing the mindset they grew up with—almost like holding a funeral for the old self—so they can fully step into the higher calling symbolized by the Leo Midheaven.

The life of a Jyestha ascendant is one of liberation. The first half of their life is often spent trying to break free from the environment they were born into—especially if that environment was stifling or neglectful. The second half is about liberating themselves from the inner compulsion to constantly prove their worth. That’s why Jyestha can sometimes reflect Leo-like qualities: they develop this powerful public persona, one that radiates resilience, presence, and inner strength. The world sees them as indestructible. But if they haven’t done the inner healing work, the pain rooted in their 4th house—often associated with Saturn’s influence—can still haunt them.

This Saturnian 4th house can manifest as internalized beliefs shaped by caregivers who told them, directly or indirectly, that they weren’t strong enough, creative enough, or capable enough to rise above their circumstances. Even if they reach massive success, those narratives can linger. For Jyestha, the real battle isn’t “rags to riches”—they often accomplish that with shocking ease. The deeper struggle is the need to keep proving themselves over and over. There’s always another mountain, another enemy, another challenge, because the real fight is within: the fear of not being enough.

That’s why I sometimes I think Kanye West has a Jyestha placement because the energy is this intense narrative of “they still want me to fail. I’m not a kid!” But often, it’s not “they”—it’s the trauma itself. The intrusive thoughts of I’m not strong enough, I’m not good enough, the desperate need to be better, better, better—just to prove to the public and to themselves that nothing can break them.

While Jyestha can achieve tremendous success, they may just as easily lose it if they haven’t cultivated the inner peace to say: I am enough. I am more than my wealth. I am more than my trauma. I don’t need to keep fighting. Without this peace, they can begin to perceive threats everywhere—even where none exist—because they’re conditioned to stay on high alert, ready to defend what they’ve built. And what they’ve built isn’t just material wealth—it’s a throne, a legacy forged entirely by their own hands. Nothing was handed to them; they had to prove their worth from the ground up, echoing the energy of the Leo Midheaven opposed the Aquarius 4th house.

That’s the turning point—and it’s not an easy one. Getting Jyestha (and even Ashlesha) out of the “I must always struggle” mindset is difficult, because the fight has been their entire identity. But in truth, their most important battle is between their wounded self and their higher self.

That’s why it’s so powerful for Jyestha natives to build things from scratch. They need to see their progress and record that progress over time—especially when it comes to shadow work via scripting or rewriting their history LITERALLY. Watching themselves evolve, watching their efforts pay off—that’s what builds their confidence especially if they do it in secret away from the public eye. That’s what helps them transform. Their success may come easy and quickly through their vigorous work ethic, but it’s important for them to focus more on their old habits and mindsets finally falling away once they recognize their intrinsic value, not just the performance of strength.

Ultimately, the fight isn’t external. It’s a spiritual war within the psyche. Jyeshtha often carries a Saturn-influenced 4th house, and with Aquarius energy there, they may have experienced betrayals by father figures or close male relationships that continued to put them in a insubordinate or “little boy/girl” position,blocking them from opportunities. These betrayals, paired with the emotional neglect via words and beliefs, can leave deep wounds that influence how they view power, trust, and self-worth.

But when they stop needing to grind to feel valuable—when they allow rest, healing, and spiritual integration—that’s when Jyestha ascendants begin to embody the true essence of their path: not as warriors in constant battle, but as wise elders who have mastered themselves.

Honestly, I think this is the true mastery of Scorpio. Vishaka is the sudden storm—chaotic, violent, and shocking. It represents the moment the Scorpio is caught off guard, taking a devastating hit they never saw coming, the ultimate Tower moment. Then comes Anuradha, the witness. The one who says, Never again.This is the stage of learning boundaries, loyalty, and devotion—but also developing a quiet strength, shaped by pain and may even hold onto that pain so they can never forget, the reverse tower moment. By the time we reach Jyestha, there’s a transformation: instead of just reacting to chaos, they become the chaos. They create the storm on their own terms, using it as a defense mechanism to prevent another Vishaka moment. It’s a form of preemptive power—controlling what hurt them so it can never catch them off guard again.

But for Jyestha ascendants, there’s a crucial point of healing—and it lies in the 2nd house of Mula. Mula energy is about uprooting, cutting to the core, and destroying those false foundations of worth and value. In the 2nd house, it demands a deep excavation of self-worth and survival instincts. Jyeshtha ascendants must confront the painful roots of how they define value—especially their own.

Mula in the 2nd house reminds them: your worth is not just in what you build or your abundance of things. It is already embedded in you. Yes, you created your empire, but the abundance was already yours—it was owed to you, divinely planted there through the pain you endured, especially in childhood. You do not need to constantly prove you are worthy of having it. You do not need to tear yourself apart, creating more chaos to have the excuse to rebuild again and again just to feel deserving.

This placement challenges Jyestha to stop questioning their intrinsic value. It pushes them to understand that their voice, their talents, their legacy—they are not up for debate and never were. The healing comes not through domination or survival alone, wasting your energy but through a kind of surrender: accepting that worthiness is not something earned through pain, but something reclaimed after it.

every day is a struggle between the self that is consumed by the cruelty of the world and the self that recognizes the beauty in it

Mars nakshatras are very sensitive to having energy projected onto them. They do NOT like a beg and are very quick to view someone as desperate/weird.

Not necessarily avoidants because they can chase others or act desperate themselves but as soon as it comes towards them from a source outside their personal bubble, they can be repulsed very quickly. Even if it’s not from a place of judgement, they definitely get overwhelmed.

I’ve known many instances where they’ve ended relationships over the other person being too clingy or affectionate, but that as a specific example is kind of dependent on what kind of person they attract and other planet influences.

I’ve mainly observed this personally but the main celeb instance of this is Chappell Roan (Chitra asc). Just to be clear- I think the way people feel entitled to violate celebrities’ privacy is fucking weird and she has every right to be upset (ppl literally stalked her family!!). But from an observational perspective, the negative reaction she had after people suddenly started perceiving and projecting energy onto her en masse, especially in comparison to other celebrities, was definitely more prominent.

You could tell she was very overwhelmed and even wanted to do less in order to avoid the spotlight. Meanwhile someone with stronger (just a random example) rahu influence would chase the high of attention and maybe suffer to a lesser extent in this kind of situation

Going back to speaking generally, they usually thrive in relationships with people who are laidback and independent on some level. Maybe a little aloof but still being emotionally present

I saw someone bring up recently in a post (if that was you, I’m sorry I can’t remember 😭I’ll link if I see it again) the whole mars men x older women dynamic and how they like someone with a stronger sense of self that won’t rely on them as much. They don’t like the idea of being a provider for someone needy who relies on them to emotionally regulate.

Mars nak natives when you need them a little too much:

Things I have successfully manifested into 3D

you can believe me or not. i really don't care. i'm in my idgaf era bc when you care too much about what others think, your manifestations will fail because you're giving your power away. that's my personal belief. i will put what came in the 3D and then an example of the desire i persisted in parentheses next to it. these are from various time periods, but all have happened within the past 2-2.5 years once i started actually getting the hang of it all.

four of my friends ("i have mature, caring, loving friends that love me for who i am")

three no contact friends that had drifted out of my life, not from animosity but i missed them (same affirmation + "[insert names] are my close friends and we are always talking" + "[insert names] and i have such a deep connection as friends")

exposing people in my life who were bad for me in some way: trying to use me, manipulate me, lie to me, or just were bad people in the sense that they were toxic and bad for my life because even if they were nice to me, the way they lived their lives were toxic immature messes ("all secrets and lies are instantly exposed to me, no one can hide anything from me, i always know. all manipulators and toxic people are instantly exposed to me for what they are")

job interviews ("every company wants to interview me, they fight over me, they all want me to work for them")

escaping my abusive ex ("i have a safe place to live where my ex cannot bother me any more. i am permanently free of my ex for the rest of my life and now it's my time to shine")

keeping my job when i should have been fired multiple times for attendance, about 5 or 6 times, i had a period of time where i kept repeatedly getting seriously ill, people were passing away, other major life changes and impacts etc it was like the biblical plagues fr and at that time, the company i worked for did not care when those types of things happened to others and would give them the boot in ways that were really messed up ("the people at my job genuinely care about me, want me there, and they know i'm not lying about my life circumstances and will let me get away with whatever i need to in order to heal, rest, and come back to work")

a glow up that changed me from medium pretty/medium noticed to having people in my 3D rave about my beauty and personality ("i am so alluring and beautiful. i am so interesting. i am so magnetic and charismatic. people love looking at me and talking to me. people find me so intriguing and mesmerizing. my beauty sticks in peoples minds like a work of art")

here's my thoughts on how i did this and what i learned about manifestation through the hard and good times:

i really had to dig deep into my self concept and get out of a lack mentality. the lack mentality, fear, and anger led me down a path of things getting worse and worse. my old self was very obsessed with spending a lot of time angry about how hard i was trying both in the 3D and 4D yet things were only getting worse. i had convinced myself back then that there was no point in doing anything other than the absolute bare minimum to stay alive, and that oftentimes there wasn't any point to doing that either.

i feel like i went through a trial by fire, tested again and again to see how strong my faith was, being tested by my own self. i had to find a way to understand my 3D and 4D from my own perspective, as the whole "you cause everything in your 3D, you bring everything upon yourself" was the most annoying mentality i kept seeing when trying to learn about manifestation, as i think it's a chronically online and privileged point of view for out-of-touch people who have never experienced things like systemic poverty, sexism, racism, SA, abuse and more. i was tired of seeing egotistical and narcissistic manifestation content creators go on and on about how everyone is them, and how everything revolves around what they think is the right way to do things. the constant solipsism of victim blaming and lack of empathy for others. there is no right way. that is why i always say something is MY personal belief, not the standard or the rules.

yes i'm aware i keep talking shit on here. and i'm doing so because the vast majority of manifestation content had me so in a tizzy with how hypocritical and contradictory it was that it made me go nuts just trying to follow along. i'm not the type of person that can go along with woowoo shit that makes no logical sense. that's just not me. i am deeply spiritual but also deeply scientific. i believe manifestation, creation, whatever you want to call it, has to do with quantum physics and quantum entanglement, but that's for another post.

you really can create anything you want in your 3D as long as you make it be in a way that makes sense to YOU. for example, i personally choose not to manifest money in ways that seem over the top to me. i grew up in poverty and so affirming things like "i'm so rich, i'm a millionaire, i'm one of the wealthiest people in the world" was so annoying to me because i'm an anti-capitalist and i'd rather spend my time manifesting jobs and opportunities than try to convince myself that i'm a millionaire when i think rich people are inherently evil by nature, because through capitalism the only way you can get rich is by exploiting the less fortunate. that's an example of how i see things.

i don't dislike goddard's work, and i do truly find some of his work very useful and enlightening, i just wish so many people would stop trying to treat him like a cult leader or messiah. he didn't invent manifestation or the law of assumption. these things have been present in every single religion since the beginning of time. it's just new age rebranding of ancient cultures across the world. it's taking a bunch of different cultures and cherry picking them and putting them together to make money. it's like saying L Ron Hubbard invented the idea of reincarnation and that Gerald Gardener invented witchcraft. not saying that everyone who likes/follows the teachings of goddard do this, but from what i've seen in my personal life, many do. the power doesn't come from goddard, it comes from you. and you would have figured out that power anyways even if you never read goddard. we have been manifesting/creating since time immemorial and it's how our species evolved in general. that's my personal opinion. like i said, i find some of goddard's work very helpful and strongly resonates with me, but i think too many newbies get caught up in him like a cult leader and don't truly have any faith in themselves.

my issue in my old self was that i had no faith in myself OR in anyone else. i got tired of doing vaunts, scripting, void state, shifting, writing things down 99 times backwards and forwards, all those other things. it just got annoying and felt like i was being a psycho like jack on the shining writing "all work and no play makes jack a dull boy" over and over. it was just turning into madness instead of me facing what my real problems back then were. and i see a lot of that on here and other sites. you have to be able to get over yourself and grow up. i learned that the hard way, and i'm being harsh in some of what i'm saying to hopefully "break the glass" of illusion on anyone who may be struggling with the same things i did. i am no point of authority or leader of any kind, i just want to share how i think and what worked for me.

i am going to be posting some affirmations and tips that have to do with wavering, persistence, 3D vs 4D etc. and I honestly don't like to use a lot of the buzzwords but what I call these things is very private to me and it will be easier for others to read and understand if i just use the buzzwords. thanks xoxoxo

As I’ve been saying, all 3 Dreamgirls being Purva Phalguni is because Purva Phalguni is the dream and Uttara Phalguni is the dream come true. Uttara Phalguni will always be the outcome of Purva Phalguni in whatever plane of existence you apply it to. The overall principle is that Purva Phalguni is the sprouting seed and Uttara Phalguni is the fully grown tree that is the only one capable of producing fruit. Purva Phalguni is too early to “pick.” Which is why they want to grow up so quickly and why they have their own struggles in the process of growing up.

We can see Uttara Phalguni women also being “Dreamgirls” in the way that they are “wifey material” or the “wish-fulfilling woman.” This is seen *literally* in the way that they are p-rnstars or a lot of different people’s “type.”

Important side note on Purva Phalguni: Anika Noni Rose, who plays one of the Dreamgirls, also voices Tiana from Princess and the Frog, who iconically wishes upon a star.

Walt Disney was an Uttara Phalguni and his famous quote was “if you can dream it, you can do it.” The theme song for Disney is “when you wish upon a star.” Uttara Phalguni native Julie Andrews was an incredibly important figure for Disney’s success in its early days

through her role as the iconic nanny Mary Poppins. This nakshatra ALSO deals with raising children or being raised as a child, as it extends from the 5H of children into the 6H of responsibilities, chores. One of the duties of the wife 💍 is to care for the children. Simba + Will from the Lion King + the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air are two iconic Uttara Phalguni characters who represent the transition from childhood into adulthood, or fairytale into reality. I’ve discussed this endlessly, so I might be missing a few examples but the overall point is that this nakshatra is the process of the sprouting seed (Shukra) that is Purva Phalguni growing into the fully grown fruit tree, or the “Latter Fig Tree.”

You don’t have to act like the 3D has changed

Yes, read that again and again and again. It is 100% true.

You’re not meant to gaslight yourself and deny the 3D. You must accept that’s how THAT reality will go and that’s also NOT YOUR reality. Having a knowing of that creates disconnection between the old story and who you truly are. Not having a knowing of that and constantly worrying about it and fearing it makes you connected to your old story. Stop worrying about stuff (3D) that has nothing to do with you.

You have nothing to change but self. What I mean by that is change where your mind is at, not your thoughts. Your thoughts and mind are two different things/parts. As long as you change self it must externalize. There is nothing to change or create but your mind, you’re not creating nothing in the 3D because it is already done in your mind, only your mind matters nothing else.

the true reason “not all men” sounds absurd to me (aside from the ignorance of statistics) is that it fundamentally misunderstands misogyny. “not all men” assumes that male supremacy is not an ideology like Nazism or fundamentalism might be. additionally, it assumes that male supremacy is disconnected from male violence. if a white supremacist killed a black innocent, you would not disconnect his ideology from the crime. but male violence must be psychological, not ideological. he beats a woman because he himself was beaten as a child, etcetera.

misogyny, loosely described is the dehumanization (not mere dislike) of women. thus it takes many forms: objectification, pedestalization, decontextualization, caricaturization (or stereotyping), etc. BUT FUNDAMENTALLY, the ideology of male supremacy centers around one core tenet: men are entitled to women for anything at any time. misogyny will, given time, result in male violence and exploitation. but it begins with entitlement. misogyny is a man feeling entitled to a woman’s body. to a girlfriend, wife, prostituted woman. but it doesn’t have to be solely sexual. he can be entitled to a woman’s subordination. he can be entitled to her kindness or attention. he can be entitled to her time and effort. he can be entitled to her support and loyalty. he can be entitled to her service and ideas. he can be entitled to her career and finances. there is no limit to the expression of male entitlement toward women. and that is what makes a man a patriarch. any person a misogynist. that a woman or girl, by virtue of being female, must be an endless fount of whatever one wishes.

misogyny is uncritically expecting your girlfriends to support all your decisions. misogyny is a man expecting his mother to cook and wash after him. misogyny is a boy getting angry that a girl has genuine, logical counter arguments to his ideas. misogyny is a boyfriend expecting his girlfriend to be 100% available to him whenever he wants attention or feels needy. without returning even half that energy. misogyny is stripping nuance from prominent female figures whether historical, fictional or celebrity. it is the denial of a woman’s interiority and needs. misogyny is a pastor that expects women to defer to him on spiritual matters. it has so many flavors and languages and it has no limits. male entitlement toward female people knows no limits. it’s TRA’s demanding access to women’s female spaces and calling any woman or girl that expresses discomfort or argues for her rights “inconsiderate bigot cunts.” entitlement to a woman’s agreement. it’s the government banning a woman’s right to terminating pregnancy or self-defense against sexual violence because governments are entitled to workers and soldiers.

and so, “not all men” is absurd because there’s virtually no man that does not have some level of this entitlement and expect it of at least one woman or girl in his life. especially because even women do not escape misogyny. men’s entitlement to controlling or overpowering a woman in some way (as the prime hallmark of the identity of a man) is omnipresent, whether or not it escalates into male supremacist violence. but again, once the ideology takes root, that women naturally owe men themselves or some capacity of themselves, violence (or neglect in the face of it) is almost always certain to follow. in which case the question for a woman doesn’t become a matter of “if” but “when.”

all men are entitled to women and girls and believe, as a result of being male supremacists, that they are owed our labor, bodies and minds. this alone makes all men (and boys) weaponized.

dangerous.

Men have the nerve to ask ‘why do you hate us?’ as if the list isn’t miles long. Every single inconvenience in my life? A man caused it. Every woman suffering right now? A man is behind it. Every historical tragedy? Guess what. But sure, let’s pretend we’re being ‘too harsh.’

My favorite subs + results from them Part I

Change past grades by Zoe's elixir cafe (reupload) = the results were the one I mentioned on my other post, literally changed my whole answers and paper, I got perfect scores and answers on it.

Smell like a whole ass bakery by cupid's radio = literally everyone I know loves my smell nowadays, I smell sweet af without even using perfumes, and I rarely smell bad.

Im Nayeon's bunny smile by Mastani = YALLLLL the amount of people now saying I remind them of nayeon is insane, I love her bunny smile sm and i have em now, still got it after years.

Blurred skin by Chel = oh my god it's one my FUCKING FAVESSSSSS UGH, the way it clears my face up in a couple of hours is insane, I adore it sm oml.

Red under eyes by NuoNuo = do I even have to explain ✋🏻, I love having tired beauty, so this is my go to, adore it sm.

R.A.S reprogramming by Carlyshifts111 = recent but I adore it sm, it's so calming and sometimes it's not even for shifting but I find myself always being patient with my results when I listen to it, so good.

Everyone's obsession by Mii (reupload) = holy fuck guys I'm not joking, be aware of this one bc it's FUCKING powerful oml, listened to it twice before going to a restaurant for fun shits and I already had two guys around my age literally staring and one of them even pulled his chair up closer next to our table to talk with me 💀 the whole day I was getting attention from males and females.

But please remember, at the end of the day subs are just a tool to make manifesting fun, but either way easy for me to lay back and assume I have everything by one listen yk? GOOD LUCK