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Things I have successfully manifested into 3D

you can believe me or not. i really don't care. i'm in my idgaf era bc when you care too much about what others think, your manifestations will fail because you're giving your power away. that's my personal belief. i will put what came in the 3D and then an example of the desire i persisted in parentheses next to it. these are from various time periods, but all have happened within the past 2-2.5 years once i started actually getting the hang of it all.

four of my friends ("i have mature, caring, loving friends that love me for who i am")

three no contact friends that had drifted out of my life, not from animosity but i missed them (same affirmation + "[insert names] are my close friends and we are always talking" + "[insert names] and i have such a deep connection as friends")

exposing people in my life who were bad for me in some way: trying to use me, manipulate me, lie to me, or just were bad people in the sense that they were toxic and bad for my life because even if they were nice to me, the way they lived their lives were toxic immature messes ("all secrets and lies are instantly exposed to me, no one can hide anything from me, i always know. all manipulators and toxic people are instantly exposed to me for what they are")

job interviews ("every company wants to interview me, they fight over me, they all want me to work for them")

escaping my abusive ex ("i have a safe place to live where my ex cannot bother me any more. i am permanently free of my ex for the rest of my life and now it's my time to shine")

keeping my job when i should have been fired multiple times for attendance, about 5 or 6 times, i had a period of time where i kept repeatedly getting seriously ill, people were passing away, other major life changes and impacts etc it was like the biblical plagues fr and at that time, the company i worked for did not care when those types of things happened to others and would give them the boot in ways that were really messed up ("the people at my job genuinely care about me, want me there, and they know i'm not lying about my life circumstances and will let me get away with whatever i need to in order to heal, rest, and come back to work")

a glow up that changed me from medium pretty/medium noticed to having people in my 3D rave about my beauty and personality ("i am so alluring and beautiful. i am so interesting. i am so magnetic and charismatic. people love looking at me and talking to me. people find me so intriguing and mesmerizing. my beauty sticks in peoples minds like a work of art")

here's my thoughts on how i did this and what i learned about manifestation through the hard and good times:

i really had to dig deep into my self concept and get out of a lack mentality. the lack mentality, fear, and anger led me down a path of things getting worse and worse. my old self was very obsessed with spending a lot of time angry about how hard i was trying both in the 3D and 4D yet things were only getting worse. i had convinced myself back then that there was no point in doing anything other than the absolute bare minimum to stay alive, and that oftentimes there wasn't any point to doing that either.

i feel like i went through a trial by fire, tested again and again to see how strong my faith was, being tested by my own self. i had to find a way to understand my 3D and 4D from my own perspective, as the whole "you cause everything in your 3D, you bring everything upon yourself" was the most annoying mentality i kept seeing when trying to learn about manifestation, as i think it's a chronically online and privileged point of view for out-of-touch people who have never experienced things like systemic poverty, sexism, racism, SA, abuse and more. i was tired of seeing egotistical and narcissistic manifestation content creators go on and on about how everyone is them, and how everything revolves around what they think is the right way to do things. the constant solipsism of victim blaming and lack of empathy for others. there is no right way. that is why i always say something is MY personal belief, not the standard or the rules.

yes i'm aware i keep talking shit on here. and i'm doing so because the vast majority of manifestation content had me so in a tizzy with how hypocritical and contradictory it was that it made me go nuts just trying to follow along. i'm not the type of person that can go along with woowoo shit that makes no logical sense. that's just not me. i am deeply spiritual but also deeply scientific. i believe manifestation, creation, whatever you want to call it, has to do with quantum physics and quantum entanglement, but that's for another post.

you really can create anything you want in your 3D as long as you make it be in a way that makes sense to YOU. for example, i personally choose not to manifest money in ways that seem over the top to me. i grew up in poverty and so affirming things like "i'm so rich, i'm a millionaire, i'm one of the wealthiest people in the world" was so annoying to me because i'm an anti-capitalist and i'd rather spend my time manifesting jobs and opportunities than try to convince myself that i'm a millionaire when i think rich people are inherently evil by nature, because through capitalism the only way you can get rich is by exploiting the less fortunate. that's an example of how i see things.

i don't dislike goddard's work, and i do truly find some of his work very useful and enlightening, i just wish so many people would stop trying to treat him like a cult leader or messiah. he didn't invent manifestation or the law of assumption. these things have been present in every single religion since the beginning of time. it's just new age rebranding of ancient cultures across the world. it's taking a bunch of different cultures and cherry picking them and putting them together to make money. it's like saying L Ron Hubbard invented the idea of reincarnation and that Gerald Gardener invented witchcraft. not saying that everyone who likes/follows the teachings of goddard do this, but from what i've seen in my personal life, many do. the power doesn't come from goddard, it comes from you. and you would have figured out that power anyways even if you never read goddard. we have been manifesting/creating since time immemorial and it's how our species evolved in general. that's my personal opinion. like i said, i find some of goddard's work very helpful and strongly resonates with me, but i think too many newbies get caught up in him like a cult leader and don't truly have any faith in themselves.

my issue in my old self was that i had no faith in myself OR in anyone else. i got tired of doing vaunts, scripting, void state, shifting, writing things down 99 times backwards and forwards, all those other things. it just got annoying and felt like i was being a psycho like jack on the shining writing "all work and no play makes jack a dull boy" over and over. it was just turning into madness instead of me facing what my real problems back then were. and i see a lot of that on here and other sites. you have to be able to get over yourself and grow up. i learned that the hard way, and i'm being harsh in some of what i'm saying to hopefully "break the glass" of illusion on anyone who may be struggling with the same things i did. i am no point of authority or leader of any kind, i just want to share how i think and what worked for me.

i am going to be posting some affirmations and tips that have to do with wavering, persistence, 3D vs 4D etc. and I honestly don't like to use a lot of the buzzwords but what I call these things is very private to me and it will be easier for others to read and understand if i just use the buzzwords. thanks xoxoxo

Venus relates to our skill in external choosiness.

We live in an infinite Universe, so in reality everything is one. But in order to observe oneself, one needs not just insight into oneself, but an external mirror. Through meeting various “others”, we end up critiquing and thus choosing what we want to make space for in our lives. By rejecting certain things and inviting in others externally, we change ourselves as well, because while we can shape things externally, they shape us in turn.

If you enjoy partners, that have a specific interest, even if it’s not related to a skill you yourself possess, that means you’re inviting more of that energy into your life, because with those partners, other related things will come. However, Venus, just like Jupiter, is a Guru planet, and so it describes a certain process of learning. You may enter into partnerships with certain assumptions, and meet disappointments on the way, but ultimately these disappointments will become a mirror for what you will or won’t accept in your life, permanently shaping you and defining your preferences, determining what you will settle for at the end of the day.

Why I disagree with some parts of Claire Nakti’s takes on Uttara Phalguni (bc I’m sharing my own perspective from my own research over a long period of time because I need yall to be okay with a perspective that’s not hers. I know how some of yall can get when it comes to her, which is taking everything she says as the utmost truth.)

The mentoring aspect of Uttara Phalguni is less like a woman who brings a man into fruition by educating him and spoiling him, but rather a teacher or a guru who comes along in an Uttara Phalguni’s life to help them fully grow into their potential (which is why I call this nakshatra the Late Bloomer). The Uttara Phalguni has usually lost their father or a family member (for Aang, it was the rest of the Airbenders and his original teacher). Their new mentor who finds the lost Uttara Phalguni is usually a distant family member or a friend, and their mentor leads the confused Uttara Phalguni native down a spiritual path where eventually the Uttara Phalguni discovers they are the Chosen One who their ancestors/predecessors determined to be a curse breaker for their bloodline (ultimately saving the world from “bad apples” being born again and again. That’s why this nakshatra deals with saving the world. It’s more so through generational curses. Uttara Ashadha is more so focused on saving humanity or the cosmos at large. Uttara Phalguni is doing it through breaking generational curses to stop those bad apples from recycling and destroying the world). This is usually something like the Path of the Arya or the sevenfold path towards enlightenment, which Aryaman is “godhead” of. Uttara Phalguni is a descendant (its basis above is wealth inherited from family). Magha is the ancestors and it’s also the King. This literally makes Uttara Phalguni a Prince/Princess. So they are usually inheriting a title of some sort (even through marriage, like in Queen Charlotte’s case). They are usually discovered in a poor environment while they usually have poor etiquette (manners are ruled by Aryaman. He is a noble man who represents enlightenment from following a sevenfold journey which represents awakening the 7 chakras and thus experiencing Kundalini awakening. He is basically the path towards enlightenment of the human mind. In Claire Nakti’s video she describes this as “Shakti awakening” which is basically the same thing, and she approaches it more from a male perspective. For me this nakshatra is based in the power of the feminine as the source of all life on Earth, hence its connection to Eve as the first mother of mankind, and why I call it the “Woman herself” or “feminine excellence.” Aryaman is an original ancestor. He represents the source of life that we all come from and the path we take to realize that. For men, they must learn to surrender. There is a guru who has Uttara Phalguni mercury AK and he focuses on honoring the feminine because it has been so overlooked and oppressed. This sevenfold path, and being a descendant who carries forward traditions, leads us to question where we come from so we can understand who we are. That is the baseline message of Uttara Phalguni. That is why for men, they must go down this path of enlightenment and self-discipline and recognize the feminine as the true source of all creation and power. That is what makes a man great because he is able to surrender his ego to that fact and embrace the beauty of it, which THEN allows him to treat his woman accordingly.

We see characters like Aang, who is literally mentored by his guru to align his 7 chakras after losing all of the airbenders and being stuck in an iceberg for 100 years (this literally represents the Late Bloomer - he was 100 years late in terms of growing up). We see Will from the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, who doesn’t have a father and is highly immature at 17 so his mom sends him to his Uncle & Auntie. It’s Uncle Phil who becomes his mentor and one of the most iconic father figures on screen.

Luke Skywalker fits this role perfectly. This is what I personally have been calling the “Warrior of Light.” He is lost, without his father (pitru dosha aspect. these natives are destined to clear karma for their paternal bloodline). Then Obi-Wan becomes his mentor. Then Luke realizes he is “the Chosen One” and a Jedi who follows the light. He is trained and passed down knowledge from his mentor (Uttara Phalguni represents traditions being passed down). He is also somewhat raised by Obi-Wan as Luke is still childish or immature in his own ways. For Simba, he lost his father and was misguided. His friends became his mentor. For Mia from the Princess Diaries (who also had karmic dynamic with her father in the movie), it was her paternal grandmother portrayed by Uttara Phalguni Julie Andrews, who taught her how to grow into a poised woman with etiquette before she inherited her role as Queen of Genovia one day. (All of this I’ve been saying so please don’t act like this is new! Thank you).

I’ve been saying all of this about the Warrior of Light. It’s usually a family member or a friend who mentors the Uttara Phalguni who is in the stage of a Late Bloomer that needs to be guided the right direction. The Uttara Phalguni is usually a Late Bloomer because of Pitru Dosha (generational curses inherited from paternal side of family).

The Uttara Phalguni is especially the state of a girl growing into a woman and owning her sexuality and spiritual power as the yoni is source of all creation. This is what makes these women obsessed with their power as a woman (again, I’ve gone over this so many times. It’s why we see these women talking about what it means to be a woman and how she knows how to deal with the animalistic nature of men). There’s usually a lot of coming-of-age energy around Uttara Phalguni as it represents a child growing into an adult and being given the correct tools to become a strong person because this can be seen especially from a girls pov. It’s a significant turning point in a girls life when she starts to become a woman because it brings in so many issues like power & control and how that reflects a nation. One of my favorite coming-of-age scenes in this nakshatra is Hermione’s scene at the ball where she’s coming down the stairs and her friends realize she’s no longer a girl with a squeaky voice but a girl that’s growing up into a woman (it’s a sweet scene that depicts the true beauty of the coming into fruition aspect of this nakshatra as it’s the fully grown fruit tree). Emma Watson has Uttara Phalguni ASC.

I gave this nakshatra 3 tropes. The Fruit of Temptation, the Late Bloomer, and the Warrior of Light. I know some people can be very weird online when it comes to the things I post so I just want to iterate my perspective which I’ve been generous with for a long time (which led to people taking a lot of my research as their own and not giving credit. People are just weird about what I say and I’m here to establish what I see so people don’t think I took this from anybody else.)

And I’m not tryna sound rude but this nakshatra is more so about a woman stepping into her power rather than a man being brought into fruition and spoiled. If the man is being brought into fruition it’s usually because he’s being mentored to follow some sort of spiritual path, sometimes to cleanse his bloodline and sometimes to bring a woman into fruition (because at the end of the day this nakshatra is “happy wife, happy life” as Vic DiCara originally put it. We can go through so many tropes and realize that it boils down to that as well as taking care of children in order to regenerate the bloodline. So basically what I’m saying is that this nakshatra is really focused on how to treat women and children and that’s why it represents the sevenfold path of enlightenment for men to become a “gentle man” like Aryaman. This nakshatra is literally showing men how to be “real men” which is by caring for his wife and his children. It’s less about anything else. It’s more so about men mastering the process of the Circle of Life (which at its core, is the process of reproduction.) This means mastering his sexual desires and learning to see beyond them so he can treat his wife properly. It also means to consciously have children rather than be dictated by his reproductive impulses. That’s just my pov tho (but yes the men of this nakshatra have their own expressions which she covered but it’s so much more and again I don’t want people thinking I took this from anybody. I did research and I want to stand on my own pov)

One thing about being a journalist is seeing how differently men behave off and on camera.

They will admit believing in the most sexist, cruel, disgusting, inhumane things, laugh about them, even be proud of them when it’s just me listening (I enable them to feel safe), yet go absolutely mute if I want to record it.

WELL SAY IT, say what you said to me—say how women are lazy thus choose prostitution, say that allowing them to vote ruined our society, say that women should be forced to make babies to save the economy—make that joke again how one drunk man is smarter than three women with PhD’s—that was so awfully funny. Let me inform the citizens; let me show what men around them think.

But they know all too well in what circumstances they can spit their hate without consequences. They know when not to attach their names.

They are always aware.

If you aren’t doing it authentically + from your heart, why do it at all?

There isn't any scent in this world as comforting as the scent of a mother's duppata.

stop fighting with the 3d

why constantly burden yourself with endless thoughts and emotions towards the external world that don’t suit your standards when you know it shouldn’t serve you?

a reflective slate of glass doesn’t prove to you completely and permanently that your manifestations aren’t yours, the character you define yourself with in that moment is what depicts your ending awareness.

in simple terms, if you choose to be the person who sees it as it is, and goes on thriving in the energy of your desires, then that’s what will show. though, when you set focus on the 3d (which, the 3d is not separate from you, your dominant assumptions derive from your internal awareness) and see something that doesn’t suit you and yet you define with it and panic, that’s what hinders your manifestations.

if you’re someone who’s taken lots of time, or feel like you don’t “manifest” instantly or when you want to, remove the factor of time. time is a construct that keeps things set in place, yes? but who cares about how long it takes for you to “manifest” something certain. the external world won’t sit here and show you something you want when you’re affirming against your own assumptions. be the person who decides “why does the 3d matter? i have what i want” and it’s done.

in my sense, you’re not “manifesting.” i solely don’t like using terminology’s sometimes because on a personal level i like viewing everything in a natural state. you’re not manifesting since it’s already done. nothing really needs to be manifested because you being the prime creator, the reality of you having quite literally everything already exists. it’s your time to shine and input your awareness into that state. sure you can affirm and persist and do all that yes, if it suits you for sure keep going! saturate your mind with it if you know it’s what helps you, but all is set and done the second you told yourself you had it. the law has no choice but to abide by its own principles. don’t fear the prey like it’s the predator. you are in control and always will be. the attention you give towards the 3d should be reversed towards saturating your mind in what’s right for you.

love you

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3ᴅ ɪꜱ ɴᴇᴜᴛʀᴀʟ, ᴀ ᴍɪʀʀᴏʀ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ: ꜱᴛᴏᴘ ɢɪᴠɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ᴘᴏᴡᴇʀ.˚₊‧୧ ‧

"I haven't yet entered consciously into the void/pure consciousness."."

"I still don't see improvements in my physical appearance."

"My bank balance is almost zero."

And immediately, thoughts arise like: "Maybe I don't know how to manifest." "What do I do now?" "It's not working."

But why are you choosing to accept these events as final? Why are you giving them a negative weight? 3D is just a reflection, devoid of intrinsic meaning. You're the one who decides what it represents.

Look at my case: my sp had told me goodbye. If I had believed that 3D was an immutable reality, I would have taken that goodbye as final. But I already knew he was mine. For me, in my imagination, we were already together. And in fact, after just six days, he came back. Why? Because 3D must conform to the imagination. If I know within myself that something is mine, the external world can do nothing but reflect it.

The moment you decide that something belongs to you, it is already yours. It is no longer a desire, it is not something to attain. It is already reality. Stop calling it a "desire," stop seeing it as something distant from you, stop chasing it. You have already claimed it. It is already in your possession.

Life has no predetermined meaning. When something happens that you don't like, you might ask: "Why is this happening? What does it mean?" But the truth is that nothing has meaning unless you decide to give it one.

This is the greatest gift we have: the freedom to assign meaning to what happens. You are the one who chooses what a situation represents for you. You are the one who decides who you are in relation to the events of your life.

Stop looking for answers outside and start providing them yourself:

Lost your job? Perfect, because a better one is on the way.

Someone walked away from you? Great, because they will come back or someone even more suited for you will arrive.

Received a rejection? It doesn't matter, because your "yes" is already on its way to you.

You are making up everything as you go along anyway, even if unconsciously. Now do it consciously. Choose the meaning that empowers you and makes you feel good.

3D is just a mirror. It has no power over you, it has no will of its own. It only reflects who you are inside. If you want a change, don't look for it outside, transform who you are internally. What you are is what you will see manifested.

And when 3D finally reflects your inner reality, it will seem like the most normal thing in the world. Why? Because it will simply be showing you what you had already accepted as true within yourself.

That's why my specific person is back.The only real work you have to do is within yourself.

Stop chasing, you already have it all inside you.

“Woman does not emerge from a man’s rib’s, not ever, it’s he who emerges from her womb.”

-Nizar Qabbani

One of the greatest lies of patriarchy is claiming framing the father as the lifegiver