Chiron In 1st - Your Identity Will Not Make You More Worthy/ Your Identity Will Not Make You More Real.

i would love to write a novel about my teenage years, but i feel so insecure that no one would be interested in all the aesthetics and struggles of that age that i always push the idea out of my mind. i also have a bittersweet feeling of guilt because, on one hand, i want to preserve those moments forever and express everything i felt back then, but on the other hand, i'm afraid of being accused of "romanticizing bad times and bad actions" but that's just how it really was, and many people went through similar things during that time

any thoughts on this? i would really appreciate it

also, is wattpad still alive? is it still a good place to start?

Thierry Mugler, S/S 1998.

9th H/Sag Placements & 6th H/Virgo placements:

“What horrifies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age.”

― Sylvia Plath who had 9th H placements

The Boy Friend (1971)

Chris & Mike, Alice In Chains/ Soundgarden Gigs circa 1991.

Having an Aries rising and stellium, Mars atmakaraka and Sun amatyakaraka as a girl is not easy, because...I'll do things that guys do on a daily basis but then I become the bad guy??? like, MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. Today I was arguing with this man......so listen, my friend wanted this medicine and that idiot at the pharmacy won't give it to her, like he kept on teasing and flirting with her, so she called me and then I talked politely but then he started getting aggressive so I did the same, and then his father came outside, gave us the medicine, looked at me and said "you are 70% guy and 30% girl....hehehe" like...what the fuck but then he could see that the statement pissed me off and started saying sorry but like.....or even when I get into a fight with a guy and then he loses, everyone is like "how could you hit him, he wasn't even being that aggressive", like, If i say no to something for the first time and the person keeps on doing it again and again, then I WILL defend myself. it feels even worse when it comes from girls. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG?? Or even in debates, when a guy is loud, it's cool, when I'm loud, it's like "oh my god, calm down, it's not that deep" LIKE?????????

I'm so done with this society, I want a cottage in the middle of the jungle and live there with animals, because humans are so shitty, I hope this world gets destroyed or some shit, I mean, the climate change issue has already become serious enough, so I guess our time is coming to an end anyways, which imo, is GREAAATT

NOSFERATU (2024) — dir. Robert Eggers

What placements indicade your parents/relatives (siblings, grandparents, uncles, cousins so on) been your biggest opps/haters) ? Also i am sending my love and support to the people that can relate to this question trust me your real family is the one you bild!/creat as an adult (friends +lover+ comunitys in real life and online, also local charity places ) keep ya heads up bitches you are NEVER alone 💪

Unfortunately im one of the people who relate to this and I have my IC aspecting Mars so my relatives were my first bullies. But other than Mars aspecting IC Ive seen this with Pluto, Chiron, Lilith, Saturn or Mars in the 4th house, 3rd house, 10th house or aspecting Moon or IC.

And you are so right about the fact that your real family is the one you create as an adult!🫶

'Fairies Looking Through a Gothic Arch' by John Anster Fitzgerald, c. 1864.