We Don’t Talk Enough About The Upper Part Of The Bødy, It’s A Struggle Really

Sh!t I’m constipated

ANYWAY GOOD DAY EVERYONE 🎀

Kinda proving me that I’m not 3@ting enough for my bødy to let go of any c@l I give him hehe

body dysmorphia core

It’s pilates day !!! 💃💃 (I’m gonna ð!3 lmao)

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🐛

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ gado-gado with 2 krupuk + 4pcs of tofu goreng + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 2 ice Americano Dinner~ nasi goreng with 1 krepek

Total:~ 1300

First day of the trip and so far I’m doing pretty well :)

Post m3t@bday update I’m not feeling bloated? I’ll take it

DAY 6

Cassie (skin)… do I really need to explain?

Chinatsu Kano (blue box) I see her and I’m like, you look like my teenage self..

Rapunzel (Rapunzel) arty girl that want to be free and make her life look and feel like a party. Romanticise every little thing to make your life more fun

Jo & Amy March (Little Women) a mix of the two really because of their determination but the way they are so human, some of their actions and words resonate and they ask themselves questions that I ask myself everyday

Yeah I know that five not three but ik what idc hehehe

I know that m3t@bday is important to trick my bødy for him to think I’m not restricting but DAMN I DONT FEEL GOOD RIGHT NOW

And it would have been a typical wieiad couple months ago just to maintain?? HOW ?

It feels like I binged even though there’s no way.. help! even for today, I fully know that I always over count but it just feels to much aaaaaah

WDYM I have more strength now ?? I mean I’m happy with it but the rationale part of my brain don’t understand right now

DAY 19

Yes a couple, and they all reacted differently

My family was worried a lot especially my parents, they tried to do their best

My best friend at the time scolded me (it was funny not in a harsh way)

One of my dear friend noticed and told me out of nowhere “you gonna 3@t right?”

Some of my other friends understood because they were struggling or struggled with something similar but kept an eye on me just to be sure I was okay

I have this friend that I love so much but don’t see that often, who told me that the fact that I was leaving for 4 months was worrying because maybe I could rel@pse… they couldn’t been more right AHAHAHAH do they see the future or something??