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I hate the phase of not having a hyperfixation WDYM I AM NOT OBSESSED WITH ANYTHING AT THE MOMENT SO I CANT WRITE ANY FANFIC AT ALL??? I WANT SOME CONTENT I WANT DOPAMINE PLEASEEEEE SOMEONE FREE ME FROM THIS PRISON

"No one can love you until you love yourself" is like the worst possible way of articulating "if you don't respect and value yourself, it's very easy to become attracted to people who don't treat you right and then justify their mistreatment, so be careful."

Httyd is so wrong to me in many ways, like how much they changed Toothless behavior, or additing a girl dragon only to make his separation with Hiccup make more sense, or the villain being "The One" slayed all the night furies, or the fact they didn’t needed for the dragons to be gone, like, at all.

The dragons from the start were a metaphor for prejudice, how knowing the other allows you to live better with them and THAT takes time, takes patience, takes adaptation, this is shown not only in the first movie, but in the series too, so its very weird for them to throw it all away because "the world isn't ready for them"?

Hiccup already fought with SO MANY antagonists who had the ideas of hunting/ dominating dragons, he fought so many for the coexistence, only for the dragons to have to hide in the end? Like the world wasn't meant for both humans and dragons at all?

Hiccup would make the whole world understand if he needed, he would make the world for the dragons.

And I ain't talking abt "Oh no I wanted Toothless and Hiccup to still be together in the end", im talking abt how this doesn't make sense and feels like throwing things away for the sake of the easiest ending.

"Because putting the TQIAPN+ in LGB is why people dont like us"

"Because you Therian weirdos or gender neutral weirdos are why they dont like us"

"Because thats why–"

They dont like us anyway, and never will.

I want you to remember:

The fascists hate you too and they just will pretend otherwise until after they've killed the rest of us, before they turn on you.

being aroace is genuinely so isolating at times. having character relationships discussions where romance is seen as the "highest" form of a relationship can go. how friendships are sidelined or ignored. when queerplatonic relationships are sometimes written as this "substitute" to a romantic relationship without exploring the nuance there. how it's so hard to just explore art without someone wondering if the characters are going to hook up

Something I find interesing abt Pomni's character is that, at first, bc of her reaction to being transported to the digital Circus, it was plausible to think she is the "always done with everyone's shit character", but its actually very cool for her to be the character who has shown to be very much empatic, she actually cares

And better yet, to have a full comparison of empaty VS sympathy, like Ragatha. Ragatha has shown sympathy multiple times in the series, but actual empathy? Its very much show in ep 4 that she actually uses this mask of sympathy towards others bc she is a people pleaser, Idk if she really cares (Ofc that doesn't mean she is a bad person, but its hard to feel you really care abt other people situation when you cant actually put yourself in their shoes, i talk from self-experience), she cant actually put herself in their places, like when she tries to confort pomni but forget she is a whole ass adult, not a child.

Idk I love how that difference is made and how important that is to their characters

Reblog if you're a writer who re-reads their own work for funsies.

Reblog if you're a writer who re-reads their own work for funsies.

Rebecca Sugar cooked with "Character whose entire existence is devoted to the service of another character who's now dead and now they have no idea what to do with themselves except live." I love that shit. I forged myself into a tool for you and now you're gone. I'm sniffing this like a bloodhound

I wish people could understand that Mel CAN be a manipulator and an empathetic person, one does not cancel out the other, and the fact you guys keep trying to say for others to, "understand the complexity of the character" but KEEP IGNORING IMPORTANT CHARACTER FACTS its frustrating.

Mel is a good manipulator bc she understand others, her empathy is used to work towards others feelings, and THAT'S why she can manipulate Jayce so well, because he is ALWAYS open with his feelings, he always feels the need of aproval, and Mel is always there to say what he wants to hear, and I swear if I see someone else saying "Jayce wanted to be manipulated" I will jump (Wth is WANTING to be manipulated??? manipulated is doing something for others want, not yours).

This is not only throwing away ALL of Jayce's arc and character through the window, but is ALSO throwing away all Mel's character, she IS A FCKIN GOOD MANIPULATOR THATS WHY SHE IS THE FOX AND NOT THE WOLF AND HER ARC IS ABOUT TURNING INTO BOTH NOT JUST BEING ONE

And that's why they couldn't work out, they were meant to help eachother grow in character, yes, but not to grow together (Not criticizing people who ship them). But thats why all their scenes together just doesn't feel right, Mel is always surprised when Jayce comes to her seeking confort, yes, she can care about him, she can love him, her manipulating him doesn't mean she can't love him (after all she is the daugher of Ambessa, she only knows this about love, she doesn't think its something so big), and at some point she could have loved him romantically, but deeply? I don't think she knew Jayce deeply enough to really love him that way. The same with him.

Mel used Jayce, Jayce used Mel (In ways he probably didn’t even know, he used her for confort, for being a safe haven for him, also, maybe thats why HE apologized in the end to her, I will probably analyze this scene better later), Mel used Jayce for all her purposes and thought it was doing good for him too, after all, who wouldn't want a chair at the council sit? With all the investments and privilegies. Mel did have good intentions all the time, but she doesn't come front with people to ask what they want, she assumes, she do, she never asks, she tries to never show weakness but she always will show compassion, in many ways she is like her mother.

Mel is a interesing character because she commits bad things with good intentions, not noticing she is also hurting others, she does to others what she would want for herself, but never actually asks herself if others would REALLY want that. In top of that, she IS classicist towards Viktor, the same way all characters of piltover are in one way or another, this is embedded in their heads internally and sometimes they don't even know, the way she ignores him and is just going towards Jayce's aproval to get aproved the hextech weapons, the way she looks at him with arrogance, she looks down on him.

The thing with Arcane characters, is that most of them have more than one facet, they wont fit perfectly into the "good" or "bad" person, and I really wish Mel's character to not be boiled down into just "did nothing wrong ever" or "Girl character that stayed bettwen my ship"

Jayce and Viktor are paralels to Orpheus and Eurydice and I will not elaborate any more than that

isnt it wild how jayce is the most heavily misunderstood arcane character..everytime i see takes about him being upper-class and rich or mean and condescending or not caring about viktor in s1 or whatever other garbage ppl say about him i lose a year of my life

It's crazy to me that I've been saying jayce is working class for years and this got confirmed in the draft 1 board for arcane christian linke posted on twitter sometime ago lol

house Talis is a MINOR HOUSE of toolmakers whose most prominent contribution is the 'collapsible pocket wrench'. They're literally blacksmiths. This is a service and labor position. Jayce can't even afford to use gold in his inventions in act1 because he relies on the Kiramman money for everything. This is not the life of a rich guy in Piltover this is middle class at best lol his drive to finish up hextech and succeed academically is him trying to build a better life for himself!

Blacksmithing is historically a very intensive work position. The work wears you down & eventually disables you very early in life (jayce's injury in act3 seems to be a metaphorical speedrun of that, in some ways) we're never told how jayce's dad died but it is very fair to imagine it was a work related. he's fucking aware of this, its true In Real Life and it brings such an interesting context to his interactions with Viktor and how they want to create things that help common laborers and make the work better if it wasn't for the council. (in s1 act2 their progress day showcase to heimerdinger BEGINS with jayce complaining that they've been stuck fulfilling the council's demands these past 10 years and now, finally, *finally* it's their time to decide what to do with hextech. and they're not even allowed that.)

Also, the perfected hexgems in s1 are kept in Kiramman-crest boxes. I noticed this just the other day. JAYCE AND VIKTOR DON'T OWN SHITTTTTTTTTTT they're getting exploited big time while all that 'investor' money is charged back with deep dividends

just like real life academics they probably spent most of their life writing up grant proposals like dogs and begging for funding that will wring them dry later on. Where the hell is all my jayce and viktor class solidarity 'getting drunk off their mugs and complaining about their dipshit bosses' content?

....and jayce made a choice. he decided to save viktor at any cost.

kind of obsessed with the characterization of jayce and viktor as fundamentally good people who will also go absolutely batshit insane if you separate them because theyre also ridiculously codependent to a degree that is concerning for everybody else's wellbeing. they were literally away from each other for a couple of months and almost ended the entire world

"I HC that Viktor beats Jayce with his cane in arguments" good hc ngl I laugh everytime I think abt this,

but consider: Jayvik don't ever gets in arguments, not because they are the "perfect couple", its bc everytime Viktor gets mad or upset Jayce immediately says sorry.

HE DOES IT A LOT IN THE SHOW THIS MAN WONT STAND UP FOR HIMSELF IN ANY MOMENT. He sees his man is mad at him and he IMMEDIATELY reconsiders every choice he made, Viktor says, he's doing.

Also Viktor takes advantage of this bc he is a asshole (In a non-toxic way)

One thing I find interesing abt Vi, is the fact that, she seems like she haven't grown up since her's 15.

Like, yes, she is a adult now, but her mind seems to not have developed properly due to trauma, making her stuck in that moment in the finale of act one of season one, Vander's death, Milo and Claggor's death, the shock of everything being her own sister's fault, she didn’t even had the time to process this bc she saw her sister last with the same man who was very willing to kill them, got kidnapped and then enjailed for 7 fucking years.

LIKE DAMN. And this surely brought several consequences to her brain, how she acts is typically with violence, impulsivity, without a racional thinking and being emocional about things, like a child, and im not saying in a derogatory way towards her, i'm saying that she didn’t had any opportunity to interact normally with people, to develop these type of skills and learn.

Vi likes to see things in a simple way, she thinks that she can resolve things just punching her way out or by just talking, because she never had any other chance to understand any other way.

She lives for protecting, simple as that, because that's the only thing she lived for in all those years in prison. That's why she even accepted Caitlyn's way of doing things as a enforcer, ofc she is wrong but, oh my girl how manipulated you are. How much of yourself you use for others because you can't lose anyone else.

And she realizes in season one, after fighting in the Shimmer's factory with Jayce, how much she lost of her own humanity, to not feel anything for a dead child now, she saw how vulnerable and broken for this is Jayce (that's why I think their relation important, because Jayce is all abt vulnerability and being open minded, learning to make a better future)

And Vi in the first act of season two is so vulnerable now, different of season one, because now she truly understands she lost Powder, she has no one, except the girl she thinks she could have saved the mother, spared the pain she herself understands. And even if it isn't intentional of Cait (which sometimes I doubt, because she threw all her morals out of the window in the first act), she manipulates Vi with her needs for a constant and fear of abandonment.

The way she acts with Caitlyn, is how she wishes she have been treated all these years, affection, understanding, tenderness. The thing she needs to be rebembered until act two, it's that Cait comes from a totally different environment, and the ruthlessness she wish Cait shouldn't experience, its exactly the reality shock she needs right now.

Vi is a really cool character in all ways I wish people could see, she isn't a "just", the way the turned to be all that she hated out of desperation for love is a tragedy. And yeah I love the memes with her stupidity but PLEASE see my vision when I say that my girl deserves more :(((

pure love

The way everything just started because Jayvik's Love, I saw someone analyzing Arcane, and I love a lot the conclusion of everyone's motives being about love, you can say Jayce's motives are about love about the future, love about the magic, love about progress, but Jayce only saw Viktor.

While I think its interesing that Mel could represent Jayce's love to magic (Pure control about the future, past and present, just with simple words or a touch of a finger), he could only think about Viktor, Mel was never his endgame, and Mel's endgame was never Jayce, I would argue they were never a couple, they only saw eachother as a mean to a end, Mel didn't mourn for Jayce in the finale, it was for her mother, everything Mel did was for her family as Ambessa did too (Also please edits with the "Do I look like him" With them pls pls pls pls)

Buy anyway tears in my jayvik eyes were never so real as now I love them so much and I dont even want to write fanfic abt them now bc I cant even think of a end for them better than this, yes they died but OH GOD what a finale for them, I really couldn't think about a better way to all end if not as ethereal and beatiful as this

To all Jayce Haters, a very I Told You. + I was right all the time + I love my insane wife and his insane husband.

it's funny that we were all so worried about viktor's villain arc and then jayce was like L + ratio + here's my unconditional love and forgiveness + i always thought your imperfections were beautiful + nothing about you is broken to me + in every universe i will find you and save you from your loneliness + none of this is worth it if you arent by my side. and viktor folded IMMEDIATELY

helloo ! ive been wanting to ask if you have any specific tips or things to focus on while writing characters with DID ! im not a system myself but psychology in general has been a topic that ive always been interested in and want to depict it to the best of my ability + i love your art and wish you the best ^^

Good question!

Writing about DID/OSDD is incredibly difficult- even I a system probably couldn’t do it, but I can give you some advice regardless. Obviously saying “research” is expected, but finding good research on it is hard. As always I recommend as a starter for understanding the fundamentals of the disorder : “The Haunted Self: Structural Dissociation and Treatment of Chronic Traumatization” just look that up and I’m sure you can find it on the internet archive or docdriod. As a rule of thumb don’t trust system tiktok, tumblr, carrds, or any personal account to get the majority of your information from just because there’s an incredible amount of misinformation (of course there’s plenty others on there who probably know what they are talking about, but I’d always recommend using credible peer reviewed sources.)

With the research disclaimer thing out of the way here’s a few points:

-It’s a trauma based disorder, everything is structured around trauma. Not just a singular trauma but repeated emotional, physical, and typically sexual trauma that is experienced under the age of 10 (You don’t need all three, just a lot of systems experience a mix of trauma) To write DID/OSDD right you should be able to write child traumatization accurately and be comfortable with writing it.

-There is a vast amount of different experiences with DID/OSDD. There are varying levels of amnesia, alter presentations, system structures etc. not all systems use plural terms, have names for alters, or have much personality differentiation between alters. The experience of a Osdd1a system will be different to a DID system, so you’d probably want to look into the specifics of those differences and stick to one type of system.

-Try to avoid misconceptions and DID tropes in media. The most obvious one I can think of is “the evil alter” trope, there’s quite a lot of demonization of the disorder so you have to be critical when viewing media depicting it (fuck the split movie).

-unless it’s apart of a character arc avoid the uncritical idea that alters are just their source. it’s healthy for them to branch out and expand from their baseline purpose and identity.

As for things I’d like to see in DID/OSDD rep it’d be:

-representing extreme denial

-loss of time

-source separation would be cool

-fusion and dormancy being mentioned

A lot of media hyper focuses on Alters when that is only one aspect of system hood. I think I’d be cool to look at the other symptoms.

But overall, it would be a really hard task to write a system especially without being one. I’m not saying it’s impossible but it’s easy to fall into misrepresentation even if it’s well meaning (it’s easy to do that even if a person is a system, that’s why I’m too scared to write it) If you are going to do it, do a very thorough amount of research before you develop an idea of a character. I know I sound really upset at the idea, I’m not I do really like the idea of representation- but DID/OSDD is such a stigmatized disorder that you have to be so so so careful not to add onto the stigma. I do believe it’s possible to do it right though! I wish you luck and thank you for the compliment.

Jayvik becomes objectively more tragic when you remember that Jayce’s whole life, he has been entranced by magic. It was his reason to research, to pursue discovery- when he was faced with losing it, he was prepared to end it all.

And then Viktor became that magic. He literally embodied it and became one with the magic that Jayce was enraptured by, and it was all Jayce’s fault-

And then that magic turned out to be corrupt. Dangerous. And again- it was All. Jayce’s. Fault. He dreamt too big. Flew too close to the sun. Fucked his and Viktor’s and everyone is Piltover’s lives up, without anyone’s consent but his own.

Imagine the guilt of that, for a second. That your entire life’s purpose became the biggest threat to life itself. That your greatest discovery would lead to the greatest destruction your world has ever seen.

And not only that- but it is animating the corpse of your partner, is connected to their soul in a way that you cannot undo-

I do not blame Jayce for snapping, for destroying what he’d created. It must’ve cleaved his heart into two, to do so. In one fell swoop, the two reasons he’d had for existing- Viktor and his magic- gone.

It was not callous. It was not cold. It was a kamikaze mission for Jayce.

Viktor’s death was akin to Jayce’s own. In bringing down the axe on Viktor, he tightened the noose around his own neck.

In killing Viktor, he killed them both.

ADHD is just a bunch of voices non-stopping in your head

adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

Old men yaoi palate cleanser😎

Hey so

Completing the theory of Rio don't knowing what was happening until the kiss bettwen her and Agatha ended. That means Agatha knew what meant receving a kiss from death, meant they never truly kissed before, and she was ready to die right on the road until Rio stopped her

Or idk they are two halfs of one crazy person

We all know what erectile dysfunction is but literally no one is ever taught what vaginismus is and it can cause people to feel extremely lost, broken, and cause people to take their own lives. Raise. Awareness.

I need a spinoff of Agatha being the world’s most annoying spirit guide

Give me more chill Fell!Sans pls pls pls pls he is just a silly edgy guy he did nothing wrong, ever.

I love to see him happy~🩷

The ships of him that I like the most.

And two headcanons.