Littlecigs - Out Of Body

Lovesick and loveless

Empty hearts and empty stomachs

Quiet nights and weekend dates

With mannequins and seedless grapes

And skin too tight, too loose, too close

Skin on skin on skin on bones

Within these walls I cry alone

There's no one real inside this home

I hate how tall I am. I'll never be pretty and delicate. I'll ALWAYS look big compared to other girls. It doesn't matter how much weight I lose

Wish I had thighs but if I gain more than 5lbs I want to kill myself 🙄

"i would kill for you" "i would die for you" okay but would you forgive me if i forgot something important for the 51204th time in a row even though i tried my best to remember

Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness

Oh to have an isolated place to rage in

Ok y'all I admit that some situations are my fault and I did it to myself. Self sabotage goes crazy because I low-key don't think I deserve nice things.

I could fix him. I could make him worse. Good for you. I could gently take the weapon out of his shaking, blood-soaked hand and hold him until he finally believes that he doesn't have to be defined by all the ways the world has hurt him. Then we could ruin the lives of everyone who has ever treated him like he's a monster who doesn't deserve love.