2014–2016: Omg Same

most unstable girl you know: i need to get a masters degree

man listening to a "song" on his "headphones" and enjoying a flavored handheld "snack": i am waiting for a "walk signal" to cross the "street"

stegosaurus in that same spot 150 million years ago: leafs in front of me

#daily affirmations

are you doing this for revenge? are you doing this to try and stay true? are you doing this for the ones they left to twist in the wind? are you doing this for you?

“Strangers” - The Kinks // Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead - Tom Stoppard

I am unemployed

go down to the netherworld, plant grapes

im having way too much fun

credit: blinkies.cafe blinkie maker

So this is a revenge fantasy, right, uh, and, uh, and it's a song, um—you know, I mean, revenge obviously is bad, right? I mean, this is obvious, this is clear, right? [inaudible audience yelling] No, it's bad! It's not valuable. Justice is good and revenge is bad, it's, it's just -- and this is just obvious and true. Right now, on my side politically, we kind of got blood in our eyes and we're like, no, revenge is fucking good! No, it's not. Because—the whole, if you read Greek tragedy, right, the whole theme of Greek tragedy is that when you take revenge, you're gonna overdo it. And then the other person you've been taking revenge on is gonna have a legitimate gripe, uh, that you overdid it, right, that you killed one too many when you, when you came to their town, so now they have to come back and get one. But they don't get one. They get five, right. And then you're mad, right. And that's how revenge works, and that's the nature of revenge, that you always take too much and so you never get enough, right, that's the nature of revenge. Uh, which also makes it a great thing to inhabit if you have issues, right. If you have—if you have things you need to work out. I may talk a good game about revenge being bad, but what I mean is that revenge is wonderful. It feels fantastic. It fills you with delusions of power, right, you sit there, you sit there dreaming of your revenge fantasy and you see the person upon whom you are going to enact this revenge cowering, begging you for mercy, and you understand that you, you alone possess that precious gift of mercy which you're not going to impart, and that's, and that's all delusion, and, uh, uh, but it's a pretty potent one, and this is—and so what happens while you're in the grip of it is that you're not just thinking that you're going to take revenge, but how. And that's what this song is about. It's called Getting Into Knives.

John Darnielle introducing Getting Into Knives (September 23rd, 2021)

we shall all be healed <- guy who wont be healed

Every time I read that one Brian Eno quote from A Year With Swollen Appendicies about how anything that sucks about a new medium will become cherished and beloved once it’s no longer novel I get incredibly emotional and can’t contain myself.