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Days in Yunmeng

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i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later. 

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i understand from an artistic perspective why the four nations are color coded but imagine if that was just like...a thing in real life. like if you went to canada and everyone was wearing purple and you just had to live with that.

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// ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴜᴘʟᴏᴀᴅ //

The only good thing about THE TRAUMA THAT ENDING GAVE ME LIKE ARE MY FEELINGS A JOKE TO YOU- *ahem* the only good thing is the fact that at least now I'm personally sure this story won't end in tragedy. Yes, something did happen to Jihyun, but this won't be a repetition of Jaewon's trauma, of Jaewon's powerlessness, because this is a story about healing and I believe it with my whole heart.

Jihyun is not here to make Jaewon sink deeper into the darkness, he's here to bring him light. He's here to help him forgive himself for failing to protect his brother, the one person that meant the world to him, by succeeding in protecting Jihyun, the one person that means the world to him now. Jihyun is here to close the wound in Jaewon's heart that is still bleeding after all this time, after all these years, and help him let go of all that grief, all that sorrow. Jihyun is here to set him free, and that's why he's gonna live. Jihyun is gonna live, and Jaewon will also finally start to.

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god