Latest Posts by lykinthrope - Page 11

Sure! To keep it easier for me these are almost all multiple choice questions but some examples are:

How dissociated are you?

What's your name?

How old age are you?

Describe yourself in three words.

How do you feel about (important person irl)?

Do you think you are a system?

What's your gender?

Opinion on (hobby or idea).

And stuff like that, that can help me differentiate between them easier and reassure myself

This is random but I made and have been regularly filling out this personal form to judge when I am dissociated and how I am feeling and this silly form is doing more for my denial than anything I've ever done. I can go back and see the other answers and stuff that don't align with me and know that I wasn't just imagining it all. I really was not myself for those times no matter what I want to pretend

This is random but I made and have been regularly filling out this personal form to judge when I am dissociated and how I am feeling and this silly form is doing more for my denial than anything I've ever done. I can go back and see the other answers and stuff that don't align with me and know that I wasn't just imagining it all. I really was not myself for those times no matter what I want to pretend

i think a lot of younger systems would be better off if they took a minute to stop stressing about roles or consciousness labels or headspaces or origins and just treat members of their system like random guys. that one headmate you can't tell the role of? they like hot chocolate with marshmallows and listening to the rain. you too. you need to be a random guy. being a random guy is good for everyone.

if you like selfcest go fuck yourself

David Lynch is directing dreams now btw

It's always strange to me when fictives appear that they're never the character from the show or whatever that I'm actually obsessed with. It'll be someone kinda random that I would never expect

Me at 14 and me at 22 are having a bonding moment

It's wild that this even needs to be said but DID isn't the only form of plurality. DID doesn't own plurality and it's extremely fucking racist to claim otherwise.

'What do you mean racist?'

I mean claiming that disordered plurality is the only type of plurality that exists/is valid completely disregards cultural/Indigenous knowledge and experiences on the subject. Viewing plurality solely through the lense of the 'western medical model' invalidates traditional knowledge and roles of plurality in a plethora of cultures.

I have even seen DID systems actively calling those forms of plurality 'fringe' or 'spiritual and thus less valid' which is wildly inappropriate. If your view of plurality looks down upon cultural/traditional/Indigenous knowledge and forms it's based in racism.

What's even more wild is traditional/cultural knowledge of plurality is often times far older than the western acknowledgement of DID/OSDD 1a/1b.

being abused or neglected really makes it clear how many things are skills that nobody really treats as. skills. exercising autonomy is a skill. listening to your body is a skill. resting is a skill. being liked and being loved are skills. nobody tells you how to do this shit because nobody even told me I was supposed to have learnt these things when I was a kid. I kind of just have to manually figure out what makes me freak out and work from there. unfair as shit

The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.

keep going! ♡

hi, ummm. this is awkward. haha. yeah um do you think you could push your boulder up somewhere else? like a different hill? because this one’s kind of already taken. yeah it’s the one i’ve decided to die on, so.

the most fun a girl can have is finding parallels, noticing patterns, making connections, contemplating

straigbt up "under it" and by "it" well lets jusr say, my blankeys

Elin just told me he's co-con most of the time I just never notice...

Which 90's witch house is your favorite? Mine is the charmed house or the practical magic ✨️ house 🖤

you all assume that an alien in your living room would immediately want to have sex with you. he’s probably scared. he’s in a new situation and he’s being vulnerable even showing himself and you immediately want to fuck him

you ever open a message and think ‘what the fuck am I supposed to say to this’

Racism in the plural community is a real problem. Racism in the medical community is a real, dangerous problem.

Pour one out for DID/OSDD systems of color that go undiagnosed or misdiagnosed because the psychiatric institution dismisses them.

Pour one out for all systems of color who feel isolated because the online community often conflates plurality with whiteness.

Pour one out for systems of color who get called racist or appropriative because their systems incorporate aspects of their own culture, but people automatically assume they must be white.

Pour one out for systems of color whose voices are silenced because of their ethnicity.

Uplift non-white systems. Talk to non-white systems, not over them.

Noticing and acknowledging and even accepting what it feels like to co-front has been a very big hurdle for us. Maybe because I'm not sure I've ever seen anyone else describe the sensation in quite the same way as we experience it. It's a little hard to explain properly but I found some images that kind of translate the feeling.

tw: images may mess with eyes or impose feelings of unreality

Most of the time we feel like 'ourselves' (i.e. the one correlated with our irl name/Des) but who is easily influenced by the others.

Only, when one of the others front, Des doesn't necessarily leave front or even develop amnesia and can usually still speak. It feels like the above images, with two beings occupying the same space. Afterwards Des will remember the basics of what transpired but as if it happened to another person or was a dream--with details missed and emotions muted or lost from the time.

tw: drugs, weed

So does anyone else notice that when they smoke/are high that some others (I still haven't found a word I like) are more likely and/or easier to front? Like in the past some of them didn't like the feeling and would avoid front. I've noticed that there are particular others that consistently are okay with fronting while high. It's kind of strange and definitely I think contributes to my denial and confusion. Unfortunately now days I am more likely to be high to some degree than sober. Dissociation also feels different when high which is another factor. It's just so hard to quit. (This post isn't about that, though ...)

Anyways...am I alone here?