let Gaz be a freak, y’all
he deserves it
my depression has led me down this road so…
c/w: stepdad!john x lowselfesteem!reader, step-cest, dead dove, slight mention of reader taking a prescribed medication for unspecified medical condition
john and his ‘loser’ step-daughter, who’s riddled with a winning combination of mommy and daddy issues. john steps up as much as he can to fill the gaps left by your deadbeat dad but your mother digs her claws in deep to rip that warm feeling away from you whenever she can
you’re a sweet thing, haven’t really found your path in life yet. no further education because you’re ‘not really passionate about anything, I guess’. no job, no close friends and no boyfriend, not even a first date
your mother makes no attempts to hide her disappointment in you, shoving your medications to the back of the cabinet when she catches john looking in curiosity. so he tries his hardest to keep her out the house. busy with work, and spa trips, weekends away with her friends. far away so she can’t bother you…
poor thing who just needs a loving, guiding hand. and john is more than happy to provide that. more than happy to pay your way for you. you’re a good girl despite what your mother says. always washing his clothes for him, giving him a portion of whatever you cook yourself, a kiss on his cheek every time you head off to bed
your mother doesn’t like he offers his jacket to you instead of her, that sickly-sweet ‘she’s shivering, love. look at her’ every time. or the way you sleep in his old t-shirts from his recruitment days. you hear them argue about it every once in a while, before your mum storms out and like clockwork, john comes into your room and asks if you want to have a movie night with him
your mum doesn’t need to know how you snuggle up to him on his lap, drooling into his neck when you doze off after the third movie. or the way he sits next to you for a while after he’s carried you off to bed, stroking your hair and thinking about you’ll thrive when it’s just you and him <3
your can’t get it up piece STOPPPP THE WORMS IN MY BRAIN ARE GOING FERAL HELP! i have noooo clue what this is called or if it’s an official thing but i loveeee when a guy cums too quickly, can’t get it up, is so pent up they’re blushing blubbering etc and all of these are such older boyfriend simon like he is old and sometimes his body doesn’t work the way he wants it to. i love it like yesss blush and get all embarrassed because you just came in your pants simply because we were making out or because you came as soon as you put your cock in and thrusted like twice…yum!
JESUS idk what it’s called either but it drives me fucking batty 🫶🏼
there’s this line older bf!simon walks with you of either feeling like a dirty old man or a fucking teenager- often there’s no in between.
when he’s got you on your back and you’re looking up at him with those starry eyes like he hung the fucking moon and you’re biting on the tip of your finger as you fucking giggle for him.
“mmm si, you’re so fucking handsome”
and you’re dragging a hand up his abs and pushing your hips closer to him as he’s trying to clear his mind enough to sink just the tip in.
fucking focus, stupid git.
it’s no use when you’re touching him like that and you sound so fucking sweet and your eyes are crossing when he’s only just notched in the head of his cock.
done for.
you’re tight- practically choking him on entry and it’s all falling to pieces. strangled moan breaking out his chest as his hips are stuttering and he’s flooded you with cum.
you gasp, fingers moving to spread yourself a little to watch the way it spills out of you. the blush is already creeping up simon’s neck and he’s burying his face in your chest.
“m’so fuckin’ sorry, sweet’art”
rubbing his back and gently cooing in his ear, you’re pulling him on top of you to let him curl into your side.
“sorry f’what? thinking that highly of me?”
he feels like a fucking loser with this pretty little thing, he should be able to fuck you within an inch of your life. and he can! he does!
but not all the time.
not when you’ve been perched in his lap kissing on him for the better part of an hour and your hips roll into his when his hands move just right.
the little noises you make when the meeting of your thighs move over the hard line of his cock, simon’s head is fucking spinning.
he wants to tell you he needs a breather, he knows you’d understand but he also doesn’t want you to move. he doesn’t want to take a hand off you.
but when you’re leaning back and pulling your shirt over your head, taking his hands and placing them right on your chest- he’s done for.
simon’s hips lift off the couch and there’s a breathy little whimper and he doesn’t even know where the fuck it came from. but he’s cumming.
and he’s cumming hard.
he’s embarrassed, feeling like if anyone else knew that’d just happened- he’d probably have to kill them.
not you though, not you who looks at him with that heady little smile and starts kissing up the column of his throat.
“fuck, si- you sound so fucking sexy when you cum for me”
but when he’s feeling like a dirty old man, already getting on at himself for not being young enough for you. then his cock goes soft on him and he actually might break something.
you don’t even look bothered, when he’s sitting on the edge of the bed feeling sorry for himself and you’re wrapping your arms around his broad shoulders.
nuzzling your face in the crown of his head, pressing kisses to his scalp as you bring a hand down to stroke it soft.
“that feel good?”
simon’s chest stutters as he breathes out an affirmative, sinking back into your chest as your other hand comes to play with his balls.
“you’ve had a long week, yeah?”
and he remembers that yeah, he has actually. maybe his body isn’t giving up, maybe he isn’t the worst man to ever walk the planet, maybe- just maybe he does deserve you.
so he lets himself relax into you as your teeth gently scrape the shell of his ear while you stroke him. never firming, but still making that heat thunder away in his stomach.
“let me take care of you, like you always do f’me”
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